All I wanted was U, but my nightmares came true
U can believe me or not, it's hard fighting through
I just cannot move on, I'm here n I am stuck
Need to put down the fire, but there's no firetruck
I don't know what to say, I'm lost in the dark
I just wanna get out, but here comes the worst arc
I'm just dying inside, Ur love is so f dead
I am here writing this verse, feeling really bad

I'm alive (sadly)
It's been hard but I made it till February

I always cry, cry every night
You think I'm good, I'm not alright
The good days are about to end
My lifeline is about to bend
I'd be the chill guy, I cannot
This love has made my brain go rot
The void is eating me alive
Nobody'll give me a high-five
Nobody'll say to me "Hello!"
I won't be here, I'll be below

I know You're happy, but I'm not,
I'm unhappy with what I got
While You get happiness and friends,
I'm fighting suicide attempts
I'm Number 1 in class, I know,
They think I'm happy, but big NO
I just can't do this anymore,
It's only me who knows the lore
You say: "Just NEVER suicide",
But I don't know with what I side…

I lost U, I wanna cry
Wth? What happened? Y?
I feel rlly rlly bad
Don't know how to accept that
I'm just writing how it is
Without a lie, I can't do this
I feel so bad, I wanna die
Just wanna say the world "Bye!"
Wanna die without a pain
Or disappear somewhere in Spain
In the US, in the UK
Want everything to be OK
But I still cannot move on
I rlly shouldn't have been born
Cuz it's useless, y am I here?
I don't want anything to hear
I wanna cry, don't wanna laugh
Living in the world is tough
Contact with someone equals loss
Can't remove this f###ing curse

I lost Ur love, n I know y
The fact I know just makes me cry
Believe or not, but I love U
I guess there's nothing U can do
U say I'll stop, but I will not
The part that's left is very short
I'm standing by the window here
I just wanna disappear

I love U, n U love me too
This world now feels like just us two.
This day felt like a big mess
But happiness' the biggest mass
I love the things U do for me
Like, that is just too good to be
I don't know how it happened. Y?
But I say, I don't wanna die

I'm just thinking what to do
Don't know why, but I love You
Can't stop writing verses, see
My writing skills r too OP
Every single day love U
How to stop? What should I do?
Why couldn't I see what I've done?
Destroyed good future, it is gone
N now I'm just dying inside
Don't know what to do and how
I love U n that is all
I'm experiencing a fall

I thought my heart could let You go
But still it beats with love I show
Your gaze, it pulls me into light
The warmth that lingers through the night...
The days I loved, the days I cared
The memories that us two shared...
I see you talk with someone else
The jealousy that f-ing swells...
I love the past, though it deceives
The memories are all that grieve...

It's getting fake, I know it is
U say U love, lying bout this
Maybe U want me to feel good
But Ur lies will not change my mood
I feel imprisoned, I feel bad
Nothing in here can change that
Just lemme out, I wanna go
Finding sense, that is the goal

I wanted love, but I stayed blind
Ignorin good thoughts in my mind
I'm feeling low, I accept that
I have a window, I'm feeling bad
I'm here rn writing this verse
I've got on myself a curse
N nothing matters to me now
I wanna live, I wanna die

I wanted peace, I wanted light
I wanted future to be bright
Darkness came like on a horse
Making life just a lot worse
I wanted love, I wanted U
But there is nothing I can do
I need U n that is all
Waiting for U in the hall
I just don't know what to do
Umm, I guess I'll count to two
One, then two, n I am done
Love we built, is now so gone