i listen to a song
with a purpose of its own
and give it another one
entirely
lines about living by pools
are my reality
verses recounting
explosions
dreamy young girls
and never returning
home
are the thoughts
that have plagued my mind
for years
and years

what is it
that they have
that i don't
what is it
that makes
your heart sing
i would have you
humming lullabies
whistling show tunes
composing love songs
belting librettos
and still
they would not
be dedicated
to me

i am happiest amongst
a select few individuals
i can feel myself shine
radiating with only
the purest
of joy
but you
it is you
you make my
chest clench
mind spin
and my heart
you make it
glow

crushes are like
bruises
they hurt
and then they don't
and then they fade

soulmates are like
scars
they hurt the most
but they stay
and they stay

the curve of your hips and 
the smile on your lips i wish
i could see and feel 
everyday until they become
a part of me too
the same way that you did

i want to memorize everything
that has to do with you
the sound of your laugh
defining home
or how flowers bloom
in your eyes when you smile

i can only imagine
the lazy drip of affection in your voice
when you tell me you love me
at ungodly hours
with my skin
against yours

i can only imagine
the softness of your touch
lulling me to sleep
and stirring me out of it
twining your fingers
with mine

i can only imagine
the goosebumps on your skin
the electricity in my veins
when our lips meet
time and time
again