some people are terrified
of how much they care,
and those are the people
who've never needed
a pill to sleep in the night,

i was never afraid of caring,
i take ambien just to
stop my racing mind from loving,

i care with my eyes closed
and my arms open,
and maybe that's why
i spend so much time
chain smoking with
shaky hands,

but i'd rather crawl
on my hands and knees,
bruised and beaten
by beating hearts,

than stand up straight
with protected skin
and nothing to say

I am constraint
In a constraint body
I move from thought to thought
race  between a permanent
solitude
I hear a screaming voice
and it´s my own
She´s screaming out my own
deepest   secrets
Who  did I tell my  shame?
If not you
You keep me, in a confinement
locked in among my frustrated fears
morbidly amused by their strenght
I  stay in here.
Where else  would I go
If  not   back to you.