I'm okay
is by far the
most often
lie I tell
and it's also
the lie that
always gets
me caught

there are days when i'm tired
too tired to comfort you,
when you're sad or mad
when you're lonely or lost

i'm sorry, for not being there
for not being your shoulder to cry on
someone for you to lean on
i'm just tired

just not at days like this
at days when i'm barely
able to pull myself together,
what more if you lean on me?

i won't let us crumble
and fall down together,
let it be just me
don't drown with me

i hope that you'll be okay
until i piece together my broken pieces
until then just wait for me
i'll be your shoulder to lean on

I hope that I grow
So I won't give in
To these insecurities
I hope I don't compare
So that I will learn
To finally love myself

In this world,
- you'll feel insignificant at times
but it's okay, you'll get used to it.

Go cry your eyes out
Go scream into your pillow

Whatever it takes
To take away that pain of yours

And afterwards, build yourself
From bottom to top

Love, that cliché love
Love that never goes without pain

Nevertheless you repeat the cycle again
You love and get hurt

Go cry your heart out
For every wasted feelings you gave away

Because love might be a cliché
But what's life without it anyway

Love - has lost its meaning
          - is a word spoken too much and taken too lightly
          - is mistaken for lust
          - is what many want but cannot have
          - can be painful too
          - is said to have no rules but is criticized by everyone
          - could have been so simple if you lowered your pride
          - is what our world needs but is slowly losing
          - was not supposed to seem so ugly
          - should be revived again

Somewhere,
      the rain falls
      oh the rain
      can't help falling
      into the sea
      going back home
      to where it belongs

Somehow,
      I'm just like
      the rain
      can't help falling
      back in your arms
      to where I belong

We're all acting fine
until you're lying in bed
The lights are out

you give yourself break
There's no one's there
to see you anyway

A blanket over your head
a pillow hugged to your chest
As the years start to fall

A hand put to muffle the sobs
Until sleep takes over you
those years dry themselves

You wake up to tommorow
only to wait till night comes
And cry yourself to sleep again

We are slowly fading from each other's world
It happens slowly, and so it goes unnoticed
but certainly not for me.

If one day you'll come to see
how irrelevantly we lost each other,
or how I lost you. Just know that -
I am and was always here.

Waiting for us to return to each others world.
to where home is - to where we belong.

Living with a dream in life,
There are hardships along the way,
But for my dream it'll be okay.

A dream is a driving force,
It pulls you up
whenever you're not.

In thought of achievement
There is happiness,
There is hope for success

A feeling of excitement
As you come close to it
It's somehow a fulfilment

So I rose up and worked hard
I achieved my dream
But there's no happiness

Just when I thought
I was reaching for it
Happiness seems to be
So far away, so out of reach

The warmth of your hug
Just melts away
The tense nerves
On my body

You're all I need
After a tiring day
My home
my comfort

It's as easy as
One, two, three
To fill my heart with glee

I'm a song you fell in love with without planning to.
I'm a song you don't usually go for.
I'm just something new.
I'm the song you played over and over,
I'm a song you got used to.
Now there's nothing so special or new.
And I'm the song you fell out of,
the same reason you fell in.
                              - without planning to.

I never got the chance
To just sit down and feel the wind
Blow sweet whispers in my ear

How would it feel to be completly still
As the clock stops ticking
For all the good reasons

I may be alone, but no not lonely
As the birds fly in the sky so peacefully
So quiet that I hear my own heartbeat

I never got the chance to give
Although it's fair since I never looked for it
Since they said let love find you

How nice would it be
To just tear this facade of a fantasy
And just pour out all of my anxiety

All I want in life is to be happy
Turns out things don't work out that easily
You grovel and grovel and grovel

A field of flowers in every horizon
Go cry your heart out
Go scream till your lungs hurt

No one will hear you anyway
Now put your mask back on
Put a smile on your face

if you were to ask me what i am afraid of
i would not be able to give you an answer
since what i fear the most is what i do not know

I find myself calling out your name
It sounded like something close to pain
These memories keep coming back
I find myself smiling because of them

The happiness was only short lived
I find myself being tortured
Things that made me smile back then
Only seems to make me grunge in pain

I found myself some place dark
It seems endless and futile to run
I let the darkness comfort me
I let it wipe the tears you caused

But love how will I ever get to forget,
your endless laughter echoing through the room
little notes of poetry you write when I'm blue.

Love, how do you expect me to move on
from someone who made me feel euphoria
someone who showed me
what it means to really be alive.

Love, how can I ever look for someone new
when it was always you, all I wanted was for you
to stay true and maybe we could get through
all the times we felt quite blue,
you were just being crude but even so I love you.

Love, can you not hear me?
I love you! from every single imperfection you have
that still somehow make you the epitome of what is perfect

I beg of you! To listen, just listen to me.
Stay, please stay, because without you
I wouldn't know what to do, or where to go to.
I am lost without you.

Love please stay, come back into my arms
and maybe we can just make love
even if it's a bit cliche
it wouldn't take too much if you would stay.

Stay and kiss my tears away.
Stay with me and forget yesterday
would that be okay?

Maybe,
        
           I could be an athlete
           I'd win the marathon with
           Running away
                     - from all of my problems.

She must've been broken
Her smiles don't reach her eyes anymore
Her laughter don't sound the same as before
She must've been trying to cope with it all
It must be real ******* her
Just try once in a while to talk to her
You never know the magic it'll do
It'll help her a lot

She never knew where she stands
never knew what she's worth
and yet she always fall too fast

She wasn't able to get back up
to go out, it made her feel low
made her feel nothing

All she wants is a holding hand
and an open heart - acceptance
she's been begging all her life

But no one could hear her voice
all the way down there
she continued - having nothing else to do

She writes letters to the dead
She writes letters to her friends
She writes letters that has never been read.

She pours out her heart
In every word written by her pen in hand.
She loves to write, but she's not that good at it.

She writes poetry
Atleast that's what she calls it.

Her poetry has been read.
And she thought - wow
How amazing it felt.

She writes poetry
In a way so that she can escape.
She writes,
only until all her problems caught up to her
She stopped.

How can we really know when someone dies, if people live even when they're dead inside?

Because the winds of time are slowly changing
without knowing, without noticing
we have already drifted apart.

We don't know each other anymore

My life is a movie no one finishes
they leave halfway into the sadness.
I guess it's because they know
at the end of the movie,
there'll be nothing to hold on to
but tears and false hope.

where did it go?
did the monster called reality
eat the smile off your face?

I felt so unloved
until you.

You taught me
how to love every
single imperfection
I have.

I don't understand how,
what seemed to be
so impossible,
to love someone like me.
But it happened,
You loved someone like me.

And it felt freaking amazing.
But what's more amazing
Is how you taught me
To
Love
Myself.

There is this girl I know - a happy one
She is someone you see in the background
blending in, just written as a bystander.

She is a friend of mine, a precious one
I do not know all of her stories
we were not that close
we just talk unimportant matters.

Now she's been a big part of my life
we were both casted as a bystander
our stories unknown, not wanted to be known.

As time passes by I knew
she wasn't a happy girl
I knew a few of her stories
of how she was hurt
how she deserved much more.

This is for that girl I only knew
then became my friend -  a special one.
To me you are not just a bystander
you are as special as anyone could be
who has a story worth hearing
and a love worth giving.

sometimes,

I wonder when I'll get to be happy
but then a few seconds later
I contemplate if I even deserve that

and you know what?

I'm starting to think I don't
that realization hurts
but it makes a lot of sense;

Today I am feeling blue
Like the walls in my room
I am dull.

Today was not a good day
Nothing special happened
Just my usual bad luck

Today I just hoped
For something different
And was left dissapointed

I wonder why
We can't get used to
The feeling of sadness

When it consumes you
All you can hope for is
For no one to see your tears
Your weakness

Because even when we're at our lowest,
We still have our pride.