The truth is,
I'll never find someone
who despises me
as much as myself
and I'll never be able
to let someone love me,
'cause they said
"you have to love yourself first,
before anyone else does"
But what if I'll never do?
A condition I'll never meet
I think that
there'll never come a day
that I'll be able to return your love.
Because in order to do so
I have to love myself first.
And that's something
I can't see myself doing
even after a million years.
my ❤ ached while writing this
will only end up
Because we weren't what we used to be anymore
because all I can do for you is to stay by your side
and be someone you can hold onto
while you pick up your broken pieces.
It seems like fate is done with our story.
I'm the only one holding on
and so all that is left is our faded memories.
oh and a mess of me and my broken pieces.
I am in desperate need of company
i need to talk, and to be heard
i need someone who'll listen to all of my dark thoughts
but hearing these thoughts come with a price
they are not for the weak heart, and nor a weak mind
just watch where you step on, you might crush my heart
you might just cave in the darkness i'm in
just know that i didn't want for this to happen
i beg of you, don't blame this on me
all that i wanted was for someone to love me
i guess the world's just cruel
and we're all left to grovel.
hey i miss you
i really miss you
you *******, *******
I love you
Tears flew downs her cheeks as she turned of her phone.
"I miss you, ******* *******"
she whispered under her breath.
Life is not about
how long you have lived
it's about how well you have lived
even for a short period of time,
and that's how anyone can be young.
Sometimes all you really need
is a hot cup of coffee
and great company
oh, and music too.
Why do people love in the first place?
Why do you let yourself get hurt?
In love, it isn't all about solace
You know you'd get hurt, you know it
But you still love anyways
How do you love someone?
Is there a proper way to do so?
Love does not have a guideline
It's one of the things in Earth
Where there's no right or wrong
So why keep putting boundaries?
Why prevent people from happiness?
Let them experience the ache, the pain
For them to realize, to actually realize
Just how lucky they are, to be in love
To be happy
i've never been inlove before
nor have i wanted to.
i have never been the one to dream about love
to want it, and think how lovely it could be.
i have never slept in the a.m.
just so i could to talk to someone
about literally everything and anything
i have never held a man's hand
that wasn't my father's
or my kid brother's
i have never felt so much happiness
so much that my heart could burst
and i've never felt pain like this before
nor have i cried myself to sleep because of a boy
i never thought that receiving a letter or playlist
could be as romantic as all those sappy movies
i have never gotten my heart broken before
He had fallen in love with a broken girl
in hopes of fixing her, he had stayed.
Never had he thought he'd end up getting broken too.
Who would love a broken girl?
Who could fix a broken girl?
Despite this he had stayed
not so he could fix her but because he would be with her
when she loves herself and picks up her broken pieces.
And she would do the same, for him.
I hate having to beg for attention
But I'm scared of not getting any
I hate that I have to beg for your time
But I have no choice, you're my life line
I hate this feeling of loving alone
But that's how much I love you
So I'll still beg for it anyway
No matter how long it takes
Even if my bones will break
I live in a household
where the only language they speak
Can you still love me when I am a mess? When my tears start to fall and all else goes wrong?
Can you still love me when I fail? When the whole world is going against me?
Can you still love me when you see me, the real me? When you realize that I have a **** ton of heavy baggage?
Will you still love me when I can't even love myself?
At night when I lay on bed
I find myself praying to God
to help me help myself
At night, before I close my eyes
I played music, it filled my ears
it blocked out all the dark thoughts
At night, when it was cold
and I had no one to hold
I cried myself to sleep
As well as the night after that
and the night after that
and the night after that;
it never stops;
i know this isn't poetry
but i'm tired of
relying too much
on coffee and
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I fell too deep
Never got back up
It's too late for me
Go save yourself
I cried at your poetry
I cried at your words
I cried at how sad it seemed
I cried at your emotions
I cried at how dark it seemed
I cried at your poetry
I cried at its duality
I cried at its beauty and harsh reality
feeding on my mind
are my company at times.
they say that jealousy jealousy
jealously's a crime
is it really that bad
to want something to be mine?
i am breaking breaking
yet i'm putting up a
a facade full of lies
everyone promises promises
that it'll be alright
all that they're telling me telling me
is false hope and white lies.
it is keeping me keeping me
awake through the night
it is killing me killing me
can't you see can't you see?
insecurities eating me alive.
dear mister insecurity
won't you just leave me to peacefully die?
My fragile state of mind
I am empty,
Trying to squeeze out words
To make a poem that is loved
At the same time hated
A poem that is loved
Because of its familiar sound
A poem that is hated
Because of the reality it portrays
I am empty,
Empty of love
Trying to fill up my heart
Only ending up void again
Again. Here we go again
This feeling of emptiness
Never quite sure
Of one's own emotions
Stranger. Who are you?
It's as if they were strangers
Not knowing what she loves
What she hates, what she wants
She is her own stranger,
A different person each day
And each day again
That stranger felt empty
I guess I got too used to
how you used to use me
that I didn't notice
when you stopped needing me
I guess I was stupid
for thinking that you loved me
but all you did was take advantage of me
I guess I'll just keep guessing
on what I did wrong
or where it went wrong
And I guess all I can say
is that ******* for ruining me
'cause I really did love you
Everyone seems to be so happy
I just can't have myself ruining it
Because of my heavy baggage
That's the least I can do
Darkness isn't something to be shared
So I write poetry instead
The words I love you
Were said too much
It lost its meaning
Always stuck in between,
between being a kid
and growing up
between being grateful
and wanting more
I'm always stuck in between,
but somehow never stuck
in your heart, your mind
You were always stuck in mine
Whether you wanted to or not
It was happy being with me
but as you got to know me
we're worlds apart
just like in this poetry
At times we crave for attention
at other times we crave for appreciation
but at the end of the day,
I think all we really want is for love.
I want someone who hugs me from behind.
I want someone who'll kiss me on my forehead before my lips.
I want someone who loves me without really knowing why.
I want someone who I can be myself with.
I want someone who makes me laugh with their own laughter.
I want someone who'll go with all of my craziness.
I want someone I can never have.
I want all of it.
I want you.
The world is just full of crazy people
to act sane
I know there are demons inside you
because I don't know you anymore
where I am in you
where I belong
It feels like treading on shattered glass
I don't know where to stand or where to go
and so the blood keeps dripping
and all that'll be left are scars on my feet
oh and i guess on my heart too
Today when the sun was setting,
I ran into a friend
whom I haven't seen in a long time.
As the cold air blows, I stopped in my tracks.
And he just p a s s e d me by.
I was a stranger - to someone I considered
- a friend.
And it hurt. I was a stranger to him.
Like the memories we shared
- got taken away by the winds.
This made me feel
the cold breeze up until my nape.
And when the sun finally set,
At least the moon
- shined brightly to comfort me.
Yet it still made me remember
the memories we shared under it.
Was I really forgotten? Or Ignored?
i can't hear my own voice
only the voices in my head
i'm losing myself, i don't know
i've met many people
that act like they care
like they know me
they think can save me
they know nothing at all
These feelings they
b r e a k me
i forgot what it felt like to live
i was gone in a world that i made
- a world for my
e s c a p e.
i'm numb and cease to exist and fret and fret and fret
You keep throwing
words in the
a i r
and I keep blocking them out
these worthless words of yours
It won't bring me down
wait and see
the power of your words
It'll weigh you instead
burn you to the ground
only until ashes remain
wait and see
I've got to ****
Before it kills me
She writes him letters
that he'll never read
letters that speak of her heart
letters that she'll forever keep
and expect her heart will weap
for that boy she always writes about
How have you been?
Are you all right?
I look at the night sky and think of you
I listen to songs that remind me of you
Are you doing fine?
Have you eaten yet?
I passed by your favourite restaurant today
I watched the first movie we saw together
I wonder how the stars look up there
Do they look different up close?
How have you been?
Because I've been missing you since
I am in love with a man
whose heart is taken,
yet he does not know of it yet.
what a concept
He is someone out of reach
But somehow my heart insists
In his heart it does not exist
A place for my love to preach
It makes me smile: the sight of him
It's tingling my feelings within
Oh can you please just notice me?
With a sincere heart I plead
Love - has lost its meaning
- is a word spoken too much and taken too lightly
- is mistaken for lust
- is what many want but cannot have
- can be painful too
- is said to have no rules but is criticized by everyone
- could have been so simple if you lowered your pride
- is what our world needs but is slowly losing
- was not supposed to seem so ****
- should be revived again
sometimes we just make things complicated on our own
is by far the
lie I tell
and it's also
the lie that
can I rest my head
on your shoulder
and fall asleep
in your arms
I just want cuddles in this rainy season
It wasn't that I never loved you
It was just that I loved you too much
that I had to let you go.
but you don't really have to know that.
What if the sky wasn't blue
or if I ever discover something new
what if all your promises stayed true
all of your I love you's
What if we look at things at different view
will things change for us to come through?
what if somehow we'll make do
and maybe meet again at our rendezvous
Maybe if we stayed true and knew
that someday sunrises will be our view
there's no need to read into
just hold my hand and whisper sweetly
I love you
there are days when i'm tired
too tired to comfort you,
when you're sad or mad
when you're lonely or lost
i'm sorry, for not being there
for not being your shoulder to cry on
someone for you to lean on
i'm just tired
just not at days like this
at days when i'm barely
able to pull myself together,
what more if you lean on me?
i won't let us crumble
and fall down together,
let it be just me
don't drown with me
i hope that you'll be okay
until i piece together my broken pieces
until then just wait for me
i'll be your shoulder to lean on
for now all i can say is sorry for not being there for you
I feel so small
In this big world
Full of amazing people
You made me start writing love songs again
Made me do things I don't usually do
It made my heart flutter a lot too
Made my ears go red and my cheeks too
It made me want to think that I have a chance with you
It made me feel foolish but it made me happy too
I've got this weird feeling when I'm with you
It keeps me on my toes, and my heart beats wild
Just like doodoo doo roo doo roo doodoo doo roo doo roo doo
In this world,
- you'll feel insignificant at times
but it's okay, you'll get used to it.
Nangungulila ako sa iyo
Sa iyong mga ngiti't halik
Sa iyong mainit na pagyapos
Giliw, patuloy akong nangungulila
Sa iyong wagas na pagmamahal
Na pillit **** ipinagkakait
O aking sinta, iniirog kitang sobra
Hindi mo lamang namamalayan
Ako'y nangungulila sa iyo
I just love how sincere this sounds in my mother tongue. As Jose Rizal said: Nakakapagbugso ng damdamin or in present days, nakakakilig <3
the rain falls
oh the rain
can't help falling
into the sea
going back home
to where it belongs
I'm just like
can't help falling
back in your arms
to where I belong
We crawl and brawl everyday
To fight in this life
and avoid death's day
We are slowly fading from each other's world
It happens slowly, and so it goes unnoticed
but certainly not for me.
If one day you'll come to see
how irrelevantly we lost each other,
or how I lost you. Just know that -
I am and was always here.
Waiting for us to return to each others world.
to where home is - to where we belong.