The night was my place in this world
A place where i feel at peace, unfurled
And not in pieces
But whole, like Paganini's caprices

Walking down the streets
I heard the passing wind
Roaring through lanes a many
Without people in them any

Dogs barked
And cats growled
In the distance i heard foxes howl
For this was a symphony In the dark

The full moon shined bright
For this was a glorious night
It wore its scars of astronomical bombardment, proudly
For it stood through those times stoutly

I walked by a watchman half asleep
Snoring away into the darkness
Counting sheep
Unappreciative of the starless night sky

I walked the walk
As many talk the talk
For I
Couldn't get over that late night high

Passing by a park
Deserted in the dark
I sat on a swing
Moon-flowers blooming, more awe inspiring than anything

As boring as it may have seemed
This was, for me
Even though many may disagree
This is the dream

looking down at the barren ground
Listening to the grasshoppers chirp
Was when i had a realization, profound

Life was a cycle of calm and dismay
And the night;
Is like a zayas
To balance out the chaos
That of the day

I grew up around here

seven and a half billion minds in fear

I grew up around here

They lash you in public

For being queer

Not meaning to be gothic

But

yeah , i grew up around here

The fittest survive,

They thrive

But the rest never get a chance to feel alive

For two hundred thousand years

We have shed more tears

Than we have killed more peers

In fear

Of the sheer ferocity

And agony

With time we seeked hope,

Answers

Not knowing it would cause disasters

In a desperate attempt to cope

There comes this point in life

Where you do not know that which is okay

And that which is not

In this mystery called life i am caught

Is it not okay to be gay

Or to say that which you want to say

Or pray, to allah

Or messiah?

For I know what power feels like

It makes you childlike

Its a beautiful thing

To it though, one must not cling

For it corrupts you,

Disrupts those around you

Bankrupts you

Erupts out of you

Yet every single one of us

Every single one of us,

Who ever created a fuss

Fails to realize

Or hear cries

See through what they call white lies

To realize that

Maybe we are just humans

And that the things we do are inhuman

And that none of us are superhuman

But what can i say

All i can do is pray

But maybe even that is not okay

I mean at the end of the day

I’m just one of them teenagers

Not a dictator

Or a part of the legislature

I just write stuff

Trying to pretend to act tough

Cause at the end of the day

They can simply put me in handcuffs

Its okay for me to be unheard

Cause everything i say is absurd

And there is no need for my questions to be answered

Because,

I grew up around here

Cause i grew up around here

In this atmosphere of fear

I’d die for you

With a bullet wound through and through

For the memories were not a few

And for why i fell for you i have no clue

Locked in the louvre

Rooms full of art

I would stare at you

Counting every second, we spent apart

Pour Toi oeuvre

Je compose cette symphonie

d’amour et de d’amour

et pour toi je séjour

Je t’aimerai

mille livres sur notre amour j’imprime

dans cette langue d’amour

je t’apporterai du glamour

From your eyes

To the stars in the skies

You make shine

You are so much more than fine

For you are divine

and may never be mine

I love you for your flaws

Everytime our eyes meet

I hear that downbeat

you make the world pause

My heart stops without cause

regarder dans les yeux

fait fondre mon cœur

sans toi la vie est ennuyeux

mon amour n’est pas un moqueur

c’est vrai

dis-je alors que nous commençons à danser

The mozartiana suite, Starts playing

Intimately, swaying

We dance under the midnight moon

by the blood white lagoon

loved you make me feel

Every moment spent with you is surreal

For u are a poem i cant end

My love for you is perhaps,

one that none can comprehend

The things that of life

Is like a double edged sword

Painful yet

Beautiful

Horrifying yet

Satisfying

From a hungry child roaming freely on the streets

To a satisfyingly warm shower at the end of a tiring day

From all the people struggling to get clean water

To rays of sunlight hitting your face on a beautiful day

While it may imprison you

Or torture you, emotionally, physcially

Or **** those that matter to you

It will show you peace

It will show you love

It will show you kindness

It will show you what it truly means to be healed

What it truly means to be happy

There may be times where the idea of hope is

impossible

Where the need to fight on may seem

Useless

Where to flee to give up may seem

Easy

But to fight on,

And

to believe in hope

To not flee

To not give up

Is that which makes us human

Is that which makes our lives

Mean more

Is that which make us stand out

For If you arent to live for yourself

Live for those around you,

Those you are to meet

Those that stand by you

And

Those that love you

For you have all the power in the world

For one too realise the true meaning of happiness

One must realise what its absence is as

Even though we are a million miles apart

I can feel you close

Next to me

As I lie here

And look at the stars

Even though we are a million miles apart

I feel your virtual hugs through the screen

And I hug u back as hard as I can

Because

Because you always know what I mean

Because you always know when to leave me on seen

Because you always know that even though

We are just fifteen

You have become my caffeine

Keeping me up through the night

As I choose which battles to fight

But you with my side it seems serene…

With you relativity becomes real

And this is not something I say

But I mean I do almost every single day

But it is also something I feel

You influence the gravitational matrix around me

To change singular tensor to make me

Fall for you harder and harder every day

They say,

That every action has an opposite and equal reaction,

Well my reactions to your actions is way more

Than equal and the opposite of opposite reactions

Your silence

Is more peaceful than that of the night

More calming than waves hitting a seashore

More serene than clouds moving by

Through the beautiful pink sky at the end of a sunny day

More calming then raindrops hitting a metal roof

during a thunderstorm

For our love is like a rose

The thorns,an illusion

And the petals the reality

Panicking

Pacing

My mind racing

Problems there are too many,

For me to be facing

Things falling apart

And i don’t know where start

The times were really good

Difficult times a many we had withstood

The thought to flea

Never occured to me

And yet all i can think of now,

Is

How a disaster like this i could not forsea

“Henri!”,

Called out a distant figure,

“You must reconsider,

i know that what you are to do and i know that you really want to”

I turned around to you

“Life is short

So to what i am about to say, u must give a thought

Fought u have enough

It is time to stop acting tough”

“Look at the people around you

Leading lives not knowing

Living with fear but not showing

A fake smile covering up the pain

But nothing can ever repair,

The distrust and shame

Life is something, for which you can not prepare

So that is no reason to live in despair

At the end of the day

We are but evolved apes

In different sizes and shapes

Habitating on a rock, chasing a ball of fire

With its desire

To

lap the universe

In this goal of its, it is immersed

For There is no, impending doom

No reason for you to walk out of this room

With that equivocative expression on your face”

She said pulling me into an embrace

I felt at peace

Tears came as an emotional release

as she said

“No matter how unsettling life maybe

For i love you and you love me

You must pull through

This sunday morning gloom”

I felt to the ground and pled

Life is meaningless

But with you in it, seems endless

You know

And i know

And they know

That We know

That We fear

The unknown

There are tales a many

About that which happens after death

Its more than to lose your breath

To see your memories fade in front of you

Till there aren’t left any

Death isn’t to be feared

Or to be cheered

For even though you may lose those you love

Its growth

You rise above

With death you become more

As menial things, that of life

Dont bother you anymore

Fear of death is a great rife

Hell isn’t to be considered real

The afterlife should be but time and space

For broken souls to heal

Many a brothers have fallen in battle

Defending their honor

Looking past the title tatle, and chattel

They didn’t fear death,

For they knew life could be more tragic than macbeth

All the greats fall

And their glory fade

In this brawl

We call life

None can last forever

For with diamonds we are not made

Death comes

when death wants to

Death takes that which it needs to

For the Roses aren’t red

And violets not blue

With life

we are playing peek-a-boo

It’s gonna rain blood tonight

At midnight

blood like wine

Stars forced to shine

By the decapitated head of Saint Valentine

I look at you

Eyes full of tears

My pain so fierce

I whisper a fond adieu

And all night

I bleed out of my eyes

Oh Aphrodite

your beguiling lies

And tear-rain vice

For all those times

And these crimes

Blood falls

Like cannon *****

Blood like wine

Truly divine

The autumn leaves

Red and bold

a slight breeze

One that’s cold

A legacy written in gold

For this is a story

Un-told

Signiori,

This darkness engulfs me

This peace

A plentiful caprice

Its beautiful

To not appreciate it

So undenyingly painful

A thousand knits to knit

There are

And long way to go

A lot to know

A lot to undergo

Lighting up a cigar

sitting on the floor

Telling stories

Never told before

Im high

Not on Drugs of any kind type or form

Forming is A Thunderstorm

I Hear things outside

The time was right

It was midnight

I didnt fear death or suicide

Maybe it’s time i had died

Don’t you worry

Please Don’t hurry

On the Contrary

Look at the irony

U have broken my heart in a way too many

It hurt so bad it made me smile

No i’m not hostile

I’ll walk you down the aisle

Abandoned i stood,

On that hard cold wood

Loneliness and emptiness consumed me

I can’t be free

Why is life not easy

B  U T

I could never take that smile away,

I am not gonna be a runaway

For the carousel never stops turning

And My eyes Burning