sanctuary

sanctuary Sep 2014

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I don't know
how you ignited this soul
when our flames burned bright
where we first met
why you and me

But I also don't know
how you made feel so vulnerable
when the wind blew our fire
where the darkness crept in
why things came out like this for you and me

*but maybe I do, I just can't admit that they did

#love

sanctuary Sep 2014

Closed

I guess it's better to keep our flames between the two of us
But let them see our spark
Let them envy without our consent
I don't need to brag,
I don't need to pity others.
Because I was like then once, bitter.
I don't need to rub it in theirs faces for our love found
Because I am already happy of what we have
I don't need them to know of the things we do
They don't need to know
Maybe it's better this way-our lips sealed, a secret just you and me.

#love

sanctuary Sep 2014

All Over Again

here comes those sleepless nights
tears that brings rest
meals skipped due to appetite lost
bed that is comfort for the weakeness
the fakes smiles,
the pretend of being okay while the world goes on.
the flashbacks of the love now gone.
Things that make you wonder 'why love in the first place when all those happy moments only bring such sorrow'.

'Twas better to have loved than to never have loved at all.
what a horrible truth.

#sad #brokenheart

sanctuary Sep 2014

Goodbye My Almost Lover

At first it was about the warmth of
our hands intertwined
unknown defined
your arms' embrace
our heads face to face
your eyes' shimmer
our spark's glimmer
the laughter
the comfortable silence that follows after

Everything was perfect.
Everything was magnificent.

But you hated some things that came along with this.

Time passed by and
the smiles you gave lessened
same as the time you had
I tried to talk but you never listened
I felt so bad
The sparkle in your eyes dimmed
The meaning of words cringed

I feel like I am not worth it as much as you said I was.
Even if things are like that,
I still remember your touch and the feelings that comes later.
My heart still beats fast.
I still think of the past.
Then I wonder how our love was sweet.
My eyes still stare at you.
Do you feel that too?

I guess I'll never know.
But don't you wonder what are my thoughts of me and you?
It's almost two years, we almost made it.

But like they say almost is never enough.

You weren't mine to lose.
But we both knew.
We had promises and dreams.
'Why did you give up' my heart screams.

#love #broken #sad

sanctuary Sep 2014

Admirer

I'm sorry if I annoy you with my clingyness.
I just miss you
I'm sorry if I ask a lot.
I just want to know you better; how your day was
I'm sorry if I get mad when you don't reply.
I just really want to talk to you
I'm sorry if I get jealous.
I just don't want to lose you
And I'm sorry if I can't make you happy.
I wish I could

Just tell me to stop and I would.
Even though it's difficult.
Even if you're on my mind daily.
I would be lying if I say you're always on my mind but I'll admit you almost am.
Every little thing I see somehow resembles to you.
The scent I smell in the air sometimes becomes your scent, making me look for you.
Honestly, you're my drug.
Your scent,my ecstasy.
Maybe because I feel you're close when I remember it.

You don't have to reply without emotion.
You don't have to make it that obvious.
Let me down hard.
Let me know even if it'll hurt.
Because darling, it's better than thinking I would ever have a chance

Lastly, I'm sorry for not being enough, for loving you when you make me feel like you don't want me to.

#love #broken

sanctuary Sep 2014

Meaning

Baby, do you really mean the things you say?
Because I can't help to feel this way.
You say you love me,
but I can't feel it.
You say you care,
but when I needed you most you weren't there.
You say you miss me,
but you made no effort to be near.
Why not call me or come knocking at my door?

Why is it you say those things and fill me up with hope.
I wished they were true.
I wished you'd show me if it's real.
I would do those things for you
yet you can never do those things for me no matter how much you say you love me.

That's whats wrong with words.
They're all empty promises.
They're all theories needed to be proven.
Easy to say, difficult to prove.

#love #promises #broken #words #heart