The lines in your face
Deepen when you laugh
The tears on your face
Remind you of your past

The way your brows crease
When you think so hard
The way your eyes light up
And you shine like the stars

How you knit your brow
When you are lost in thought
How you change your voice
And pretend to be someone you are not

How your heavy eyes close
When you are ready for sleep
The way your face crinkles
When you try to peek

All so familiar
But it hurts my heart to remember

A departure no matter how sweet, never as much as the return
An old tongue roots himself again in my mouth
Reigns my words as they rise up behind my teeth
My lack of you is devout, and your return a worship may be
The knots we tie are ancient
I hear the cairns at the door to the nine realms whisper the words in my heart
You are missing, from me
Stones cry out when you hold your tongue
Do I know all things now
Or only those of little consequence to Odin

Monsters don't sleep
Under your bed
They live inside
Inside of your head

I will follow you to the ends of the earth
Even if we never get back again
I will chase the stars across the sky
As long as I am by your side

I shall add my existence
To the passing of this world
And intertwine my small hands
To the universe
Still unwoven in mystery
And clouded in shrouds
Of hope

The magic in the trees is aging
Though differently than I

Because who wants a suicidal girlfriend?

The waters between.
The sky and earth.
The wind that races clouds.
Pushing pounding and burning.
Heat of sun on warm sand.
Nothing I cant handle nothing I cant stand.

The lighting isn't right
For us to fall in love
Sit with me in the darkness
Wait with me
For stars to come

I set fire to your lies
I burned the beauty in your eyes
I put rain in sunny skies
I sent all the spies

I put the break in your heart
I was the rope that pulled you apart
I am the broken wheel on your cart
I poisoned the sting on the dart

I led you to troubled water
I made you want her
I built the fire made it hotter
I took the blood from the slaughter

I put the beast in the beauty
I took the valor from your duty
I let you think that you used - me
I made you fell like you abused - me

I add the dark to the light
I hid the stars in the night
I put the scared in fright
I was the wind that blew your kite

I am the sand that you are sinking into
I did all this to prove I need you
I made this choices cause I couldn't get though
Not without you darling not without you - I do

I am wanted by none
What good is plump fruit on the vine
If none pick it from the tree
It just spoils in the heat of the sun
No matter how sweet

I kissed you goodnight
But I didn't know we would ever see
Tomorrow's morning light
Because it was the dark that set you free

Another man's bread
Has nothing to do with how you set your own table

Your lips were the edge of the world
I find myself
Forever falling

My ghosts know me
Better than your friends know you

I should be sleeping

I used to be cooler
Now I'm crueler
Older heart with harder lines
Reciting memories, to pass time

Oh that the grey heavens would split open
Like a cavernous monster
And pour onto the earth
All her sorrows and pain

Don't leave any little piece  of me behind
Because the littlest *pieces are the hardest to find

You say I am the best that you could ever ask for
But I don't understand when you say you still want more
When I chose to turn a blind eye to your other loves
When its like being touched with care through burned gloves

Your other loves come around and its like I don't exist
When I see they way you look at them and feel like I got punched by a fist
This plot is way to cliché for it to have any meaning
And everything you do to me is far to demeaning

We've never known what it took for a relationship
Its like being unprepared for a painful trip

When your other loves are your only loves and I cease to matter
When you other loves cloud your vision and you cant see me
When your other loves get in my way and put me down

Then I shall cease to exist
But remember it is your choice

Recent mistakes
And emotions

Drowned out in tears and 30.5% alcohol

Praying they will never re-submerge

light up the walls of my paper thin soul
such that I would burn out
would you be more careful
if my fuse was shorter than it is now

this fuse; she has been blown
out of water and reality alike
many a time, and many a time again
when consent was but a dying lie

and this she calls her dying art
to live each day as if a few had never happened
as if such shadows did not cling to her heels
like every memory was a not a venomous snake

if you bit into her memories
they would not taste like your own
the are unfamiliar in their rendering
and foolish in their aftertaste

the lingering scent of midnight tears
and a thousand scars, each handmade
wrought into her body and the backs of her eyes alike
only some will heal, and only some fade

others, like your own eyes
you forgot they are their
until you turn to the glass
and find only your soul looking back

what could you shut out
if you had a door in your mind
some nights would you lock it
like you lock away me in your life

to stow away like voyagers on a ship
not a care to where it would go
only that it takes you far and it takes you from
all that you have known and that has forced its memory upon you

silent and serpentine these dreams pass
through my shoulders and across my cheeks
into the hollowness of my head
to writhe in agony in a dying light

and still these lights they flicker in the wind
would that you would close the window
but still my soul shivers in anticipation
of the knife to my heart, oh Ceaser's ghost hear me

would you even hear the depth of my scream
as it calls to you in the shadows of my mind
here I hold you, twixt hand and sternum
such that you would ever cling to me

I am but a fool, secure in my own folly
and that which I stand upon is treacherous
the closing of my eyes will not steady my legs
and stamina oh she has abandoned us long ago

I am weak in all but that I have done before
the anxiousness of my bones is a crutch and I crumble
like the walls of a tower without a foundation
and such is this I stand upon

soon I too shall fall into the earth
her waters shall reach me in the end of days
and pull me out, to be one with wind and waves
oh a memory sunk to the abyss

such is this
a candle heart
and a paper thin dream
just enough life
to ignite a soul

burning out
among the stars

I want to write for you
But sometimes I have no words
To string together like lights
I have only this love

The stars are farther away tonight

Wisdom is nothing when your lips part without regret

On occasion,
When feeling particularly human
I sit in the rain
Let the sky come on to me

I have lived a whole lifetime today
and I think that is why it took kissing you drunk too learn how to love you sober

The veins in your arms are different than his
I know because I have traced them many times
Your hands are different, stronger
With more beautiful lines

They way your eyes absorb the sun
And how you shake your head
I wish I could be yours
But I am his instead

When the lights flicker and I am afraid
It is his should I lean upon
But when its day
Its your smile that leads me on

When my hands are cold
And he grabs them they do not get warm
But when I stand between you two
My heart is so torn

The energy he gives me
Is unlike any drug
But when I am near you
I feel safe secure and snug

When you catch my gaze
And I can see the jealousy
I wish I could let you know
I long to be free

He says he loves me
But love does not burn
I tell you to be patience
You will have your turn

But how can I leave
Someone I know, and knows everything about me
For someone I don't know
But says they care about me

How can a child
Face all her fears
How can I choose
Without all the tears

You ask me to pick
Between love and desire
You ask me to choose
Between which of you makes me feel higher

Once this choice is made
I can never go back
It might as well be set in stone
Or written in white and black

If I chose you
Would things still be the same
Or would I cry out in the night
Haunted by his name

Or do I chose the safe side
To stick with what I know
How do I leave him
How can I just let him go

I have seen you
And I have glimpsed death
In life I have never known coincidences

I tried to suffocate the pain inside the shell that is my body
but it choked my lifeless instead
so now inside my messed up head
all my cells are dead

My head is an abandoned house
With graffiti on the walls
The red door is closed
And all the window panes are broken

You just wanted to write love on my arms
And circle me in flowers
I just didn't know how to let you in
So I mutter into the cold air
"Bitter are the leaves, oh the dying leaves, of an unwatered tree."

Hush, your crying
Little one
It will be okay
I won't let you go

Big troubles
For a little heart
But such a big heart
For a cruel world

We have all
Cried our tears
Yours no more salty
Than the rest

Hush, little one
All things will be well
The night is here
But the sunrise will come

What is our existence degraded to?

When I bit the inside of my cheek
I expected the taste of anger
To pour into my mouth and down my throat
I didn't know the pain that would also coat my tongue
And catch in my throat

I hated it
I hated this

But this taste,
Oh that I could spit it out
Or wash it down
Yet no matter how hard I tried
It burned
Oh it burned
The whole way down
To think, to know
And remember

Everything that you said was a blow to the face
Still I turn the other cheek

Hope still, as I would
But you would never know what it is to be gentle, or kind

I suppose the difference between us was so simple
That you need look no further than our hands
Mine, within each other, clammy and clamped together, like every word that I bit back
Yours, a fist in your pocket and a fist behind your back, and oh how you loved to hurt me

Do you know how to write a love letter
I mean, you never wrote them to me
But you must know how, it is in you
Write out your heart, for me to read

I don't believe any life is a mistake
But I know I've made plenty in life
Just wanted to be your, and you mine in turn
Didn't meant to make any trouble, or cause strife

My skin burned red, when you were pulled away
A forever so much shorter than I ever imagined
So many memories crowded up in my head
Something though I wonder, if they really happened

I was lost, I loved, I lost,  I lost my love
So many words and all of these hurting hearts
Like trying to hard to make a snake dance
I thought I was a duet, I was left playing all the parts

If I wrote a poem about love
Could you find it among the others
Would my emotions be any better or worse
Redundant yet unique in your melody
Like another drop of water
In an over flowing stream
Would you drink me into your life
Or let me rush away in the current
Pull me out, or let me be pulled along
Is either right, or either wrong
I'm just another love poem
About your smile and your hands
Just another strong emotion
That guides my selfless choices
Just another one
Yet still unique in the song I sing

...i must be still now...

      ...to allow the celestials and heavens to change me

...you to are different now my friend...

   ...and the sky falls out of my eyes...
...I cannot contain...

...such/such is this/such am I/such a time as this... ... s uch..
                

                  please don't let me go...

...I will not move/help/I wait...

                                     ...please don't let me go

I watch you pace in front of your window

The way you move when you walk

The way you float above the ground

Like an angle when you fly

Like a butterfly in the sky

it is cold in Nowhere
the candles are all lost
it is dark in Nowhere
the moon is on vacation
it is peaceful in Nowhere
the war is all behind
I am trapped in Nowhere
don't try to get me out
the cage is fake
and all the bars