"unruliness" poems
Some days I want to be a wild horse
or a gypsy wild and free
Don't put any fence around me
Who would want to tame this
Heart of wild
I just want to be somewhere
Anywhere just not confined
Other days I want to build a house
Build me a home
Build my life around my kids and spouse
Sometimes I can follow the direction of the reins
Even if they do feel like chains
I want to give my all
I am just so scared to answer the call
It seems I want to have my cake
and to eat it too
Its like I have double lives ~ What am I to do
I want my freedom and I want his time
Cannot divulge all the darkness in my mind
There is beauty in imperfection
and order in the unruliness
I am a walking contradiction
Yes I'm somewhat of a mess
Words rhythm and movement are what I live for
and I can sometimes give up the control
I do what feels right to me
Cause there's a gypsy living in my soul
Jul 7, 2017
Jul 7, 2017 at 10:53 PM UTC
i am fascinated with the unruliness of some girls' hair
the plainness around their eyes
the strangeness of their earrings
the smell of the cigarettes inbetween their fingers
i wonder at their worn brown boots
and slightly crooked teeth
and dry lips
and i think
they are the most beautiful things
i have ever seen
almost untouched
by things that beat me down
like the image of victora's secret underwear
and the world's first super model telling girls their thighs are too fat
i want to be one of those slightly unkempt women
they're like uncaged animals
i want to have what they have
but i am a product of this society
it is too late for me
i am destined to be unsatisfied
forever
i will always hate something about me
even if i don't mean to
i will always wear too much make up
and too low shirts
and preach the mainstream way of life
my fingernails will never be *****
i will always be merely pretty
i wish i was
interesting
Nov 9, 2013
Nov 9, 2013 at 8:55 PM UTC
I'm I still awake
Or maybe
Its my unconscious mind
Yawning
The crickets voice whispers in loud pitch
drop a pin, bet its bang will scare the Rats
I've seen the cloud right from the windows blade
No stars, no moon all dark and wiped out
I'm I still awake
Or its a dream I can't edit
Feeling a pinch on my elbow
My eye twitching, more like a blink
The dark pales wears off
My thoughts streams ahead of me
we both floating towards a direction.
A piece of me flares up in bizarre
Fighting a tug of wars with my Emotions
At the worlds unruliness
The words ve had from the one
That matters
Couldn't hurt more
Though, I hate him less...
But
A string of jealousy binds me..
Deep down,
I know Some mate in me feels completely at ease
With this words
Coming from him...
The respect I owe him
Weighs more.
The Love we share means more
The feelings I get, though a bit bruised
But its never changing
Cos, only my heart can really tell,
The trend at wish it speaks his name...
Jun 22, 2014
Jun 22, 2014 at 8:06 PM UTC