you turn away*
the way the earth turns so the sun can't fix it's heated stare
my look merely rolls off, unabsorbed
why do you rotate?
my gaze is not meant to dry your oceans
or burn your forests
I simply wish to light your mornings
illuminate your mountains
and warm your valleys

Early morning darkness
Pierced by tree lights
Douglas the Fir and I
Share a quiet space in time

Upon Douglas have hung
So many beautiful bobbles
Representing hopes and dreams
Shimmering moments of a past

Until, dried up, water unabsorbed
Douglas the Fir topples
Ornaments and lights shattered
Broken glass across the floor

Few treasures remain, stored away
Is it worth the effort?
Shopping for new bobbles or tree
Just knowing it too will die...

Yet, on lives a Christmas dream
One filled with joy, happiness, love
Where is Fraser the Fir?
Who's lights illuminate the morning.

my hairline sweat and tears
mist from a shoreline,
paint down my wrinkles like waves cresting
a rocky beach,
my colors so dissolved, all my fleshy canvases
exposed to too much sun, my piercings all droopy,
teeth falling out. I need a hair cut a good dentist and Dr.
Phil. Or just strip down to my loincloth
go back to Rochester,
run with  wildness, as I did then
through brush and bathed in purple
abandonement, virile unabsorbed
lazing under the mulberry brush
the willows swaying down to touch my unscarred youngness,
with hope with hunger, then.

your eyes absorb the words my mouth emits like they absorb the light from the stars in my night sky
ice resides in the hollows of your bones and once i pull your loose threads,
you scream all the things you never spoke
you screamed for hours
you still do
but your scream is quiet now
quiet,
yet still audible
i hear it while i'm sitting in this stupid psych's office,
wondering if the flickering lamp to my left is mocking my emotions that never change
there's no on,
no off

but it's the silence
don't you get it?
you were silent
you spoke all your words the night you stood at the edge of that ******* cliff and let the breeze carry you away with those words
im sitting in this office because your silence won't leave my ******* head
it's so still inside, there's a void
i'm vacant
the Prozac diffuses into an empty bloodstream
now the hollows of my bones are on fire
my night sky is filled with your unabsorbed light