"sbi" poems
Life needs a fire of happiness inside me.
The one inside me died when people refused to even have a look at my independently published novels.
I tried to write books inspired metaphorically by my own life-threatening coma-inducing high-speed bike accident. When the Indian publishers rejected my manuscript, terming it as poorly written or full of proofing errors, I self-published my novels on the Amazon Kindle Direct Publishing Program.
So far, I have successfully achieved twice as much success than what I envisioned in my first novel. I completed my graduation despite that accident, just like Akshant did so in the novel. Then I even got the M.Tech on institutional scholarship. Afterwards, I even started a PhD course in Animal Biotechnology from the same ICAR-National Dairy Research Institute as my M.Tech on institutional scholarship, but had to quit it when COVID19 struck. I started preparing for various competitive recruitment exams.
I qualified as a Probationary Officer with the Bank of India through the IBPS PO/MT CRP-XII, but joined the State Bank of India as a Probationary Officer because that was a better option.
As I had cleared even SSC-CGLE AAuO exam, I later quit the SBI PO job when I received the call letter from my present job.
Some people have even dared to defame my novels by rating them badly on Amazon.
Now I have to accept that I can't ever expect my friends, relatives, or colleagues to read my novels. I'll just focus on my job and forget that I wasted 14 years in writing and self-publishing the 9 titles on Amazon as Kindle eBooks and hardcopies. Maybe my depression will help me passively **** myself one day.
My blood pressure is already much lower than normal. Vitamin supplements help, but temporarily.
So many artists have died due to depression. I shall not be the first one. People can go berate my novels on Amazon. My parents tell me that since I have a job now, I shouldn't focus on my creative expression.
Aug 19, 2024
Aug 19, 2024 at 9:03 PM UTC
People are not nice,
They can dishearten you,
But don't be like mice.
Let me tell you a story,
My story of victory,
It's after the accident.
When I was in the ICU,
Thought I won't be consequential,
But I disappointed them.
This young man is alive,
An ex-SBI PO, now a DRAAO,
Oh I worked hard for it.
Did not I, oh life,
I don't play the fife,
You know, right?
Now I talk to you,
Yes, you, the dejected one,
Now I ask you this:
Being a survivor,
If I can be successful,
Why cannot you?
May 9, 2024
May 9, 2024 at 10:40 AM UTC