Knotts Island  10:oo pm wedsday Feb  9   2011

It was like any other night spent at the doctors office slash
Dr Jerry's trailer.
Drink fine deep conversation about world events and *******.

I had went to the porch for some  introspection  and to take a ****.
Dear Lord Man!
What I saw was proof i had done way to many drugs and slipped yet into another rambling state of Gonzo.

White  powder covered the ground  it was a gift from Jesus or Elvis really   whats the diffrence?
Hunk a hunk burning  clap  it was pouring ******* from the sky !
I burst through the door like Lindsy Lohan fresh outta rehab

Jerry !  
Gonzo!  
Jerry!
Gonzo!
What are we yelling about Jerry?

I dont know but zip your pants up.
I know your a **** but I dont need to see it as proof.
Jerry a doctor a fellow brother of Gonzo
and true deep thinker.

****** man what was i gonna say i really need to lay off
the drink *******  Dr Pepper.
Well smack my **** and paint me purple and sell me to the Canadians.
dont ask.

Jerry good lord man look  outside its a true miricle.
Now only if it would rain strippers and wild turkey.
That would really be proof the easter bunny existed!

Jerry shaking his head for he knew his drugged out mental asylum bound  friend with a heart of gold or at least bronz  needed some alone
time in a padded cell looked out the window.

See i told you !
It's ******* snow Gonz ya *****.
snow what the hell's that I thought to myself while speaking
out load on a poetry site   where people think what the **** is wrong with him.

****** I should go outside more than once a year.
these seasons really throw me off like Skeeter  on
a cold night.
****** i told you  not untill you pay for last time ******!

She was a true lady just wish she took credit.
After a breif explanation time travel and where babies come from.
Dr Jerry returned to his favorite hobby surffing facebook
for underage *****  hey dont judge  how do ya think i met my wife?

Yeah man look at this one amigo sent me a friends request.
Jerry showed me a pic of a hot looking chick
and being she was good looking and talking to Jerry ment either
two things.

One the Gonzo On facebook page was down due to such high traffic
cause im super awsome.
Dork  you got like 14 friends.
Jerry went back to looking at the computer screen.
ha ha ha ha ha *** not funny.
Cyberperve!
I know you are but what am I?!

****** man he always get's me with his mature 40 something living
in his grandmas back yard  logic oh snap girlfriend.

Or Two  this little monkey  was really a ****** or a mormon
whats  the diffrence but enough with the foreplay children.
Jerry sat deep in thought and four **** hits and ten shots of turkey later sat the puzzled.

Amigo what do i say to break the ice?

The lights dimmed  a voice from the heavens spoke or New Jersy
John Tesh  apeared from the closet  ****** man i thought i herd really boring music from there i thought the rat poisen would get him for sure.      
    
When thought's are blured and both hands are busy.
When you just cant seem to find the words to break the
ice to that hot little hamster across the net,

Take that extension cord from around your neck and get
head out the oven dam you Slyvia Plath.
Just call dah da da dah da or however it ****** goes
sorry i dont watch   super hero movies although
I need a pair of thoose tights.
IT'S A JOB FOR GONZO.

Move aside silly girl I'll break the ice for you!
Umm  no Gonz thats okay Jerry replyed in that no
but it means  yes seductive five packs of cigs a day
sandpaper voice of his.

Trust me Jerry  Im a writer and i know how to
talk to the ladies  yes my friend how they do love Gonzo
Oh they pull out there pepper spray fire there guns
but inside they have a thirst for crazy.

No Gonz it's okay.
Dont mention it Jerry.
Gonz !
Jerry !
Gonz!
Jerry!
What the **** were we talking about and why the ****
are you in my lap!
Good question my friend but least your happy to see me.

At the keys the master or insane half wit began his
works of geinus this would break the ice for sure!

Dear Sarah

Wow all I can say is me likey.
And may I say that sweater really brings out your *******.
We should get togather and  talk  bout  things
while naked in bed to bare are souls.

Something about me.
My name is Jerry im  superbadass hells yeah.
I like drinking other peoples beer i can bench like a
thousand pounds.

I have a big   tv. What get your mind outta the gutter!
Lets drop the small talk you know ya want it why fight it.
Let that inner tigress out meow kitty  
Lets get naugthy and do things to make us both
purr in the litter box.

Kisses Dr Jerry   giggles and a gay *** emicon,
xoxoxo.

Yeah I know what your saying no wonder im such a ****.
And no wonder i have to pay for *** and im always alone.

After some mock tears and a snuggle   we waited for I know a
turned on little nymphs  reply.

Hey Kids it's  time to play are favorite snow game.
car surffing  in the blizzard cause im a drunken idiot
okay that kinda hurt.

Driving around the mean streets of KI  hopping officer
Rutherford was off duty or searching some drunk woman
looking for  some goodies hey I wonder where my sister is?

We at the rip roaring speed of 10 miles a hour What ?!
Hey saftey first that and the snow made it really hard for Jerry to hold onto the roof and pass the bottle.

We laughed we cried we lit are farts and made a beautiful
snow sculpture of two snow people getting freaky right in the middle of the road  hey kids blame it on the Beatles.

After we took out a few mail boxes stole a few garden gnomes
And taught a jaded soul how to love agian  we were
back at the office slash trailer in jerry's grandmas backyard
yes to think he's really come a long way since the tent.

By the warmth of the fire  music and fine drink to
match are deep conversation.

Hey dude ya think think that extenze stuff really works?
And if so if you took a lifetime supply  could you answer the door without getting outta bed?.      
        
The knock at the door was sudden.
****** man I knew it! Snow monkeys hide the
penut butter  and  put on some Kenny G!
Hey **** Kenny G  
Dam you John Tesh Go back into the closet where you belong!

Jerry looked at me as he usally does.
Like this ******* really needs some shock treatment.
Talk about a charge.

After Jerry assured me it wasnt the artic monkey's come to take there revenge   and promised to read me a bed time story what!
I have a inner child oh was starved of kickass stories.
Like Jack And The Beanstalk ,Catcher And The Rye,Or Debbie Does Dallas.

I opened the door to see a  large angry looking man
with a axe in his hand hmm dam lumber jacks  there always
on the job.

Are you the perve that wrote my 13 year old daughter that perverted
email on facebook?

Oh no im Gonzo im the other pervert who writes really long rambling stories on a a poetry website that arent really poetry
or very good,And drinks alot and doesnt make much sense

Yet always bring a laugh to demented people across the globe
cause yeah im super bad ***...

The man stood unfazed gritting his teeeth *******
me with his eyes hey it's cold okay.

Uhh no sir that's the perve your looking for over there
looking at your daughters pics hey ****** man we have
company  stop that.

I made my exit to the sound of screams it was like
a pit bull was latched onto a girl scout the agony    
Well looks like things were off to a good start Jerry was already meeting Sarahs  parent.

No need to thank me  Jerry
Remember kids if ya need a little help in time of need.
Look no further than Gonzo.

Slower than a fast moving virus.
He can leap small dwarfs and some short big girls in a single bound
kinda.

Gonzo fly's  of into the night in a epic soon to be forgotten.
B movie moment.
Stay Crazy.

Look Im flying.  **** tree!

Splat , Crash, Boom  Ouch Shitfire And Flying Monkeys
Next time I'll take a cab.

Adios Amigo's

Even though discovering Korea. Began with two tragedies in my life.
I consider June 2, 2012, (the day I found Korea) one of the luckiest days of my long life.  

"Serendipity The occurrence and development of events by chance in a happy or beneficial way."  However, I had to experience tragedy before discovering one of the most beautiful places on Earth.  But my pain does not even come close to the pain the Korean people have gone through to achieve the Miricle of Han.

Let's see. After a tragedy in my life, the loss of my bride days before we were to be married, 40 years ago seemed to send me on a path  Far to the East that I never knew existed.

Four decades of not caring about anything, just waking up going to work. Maybe celebrating the holidays with my family.  Never finding anyone or anything to love again.  

Until that day in August of 2009, When I stood in front of Heavin's gate.
That day when my heart stopped, and I thought but only a dream.

That day, I saw my wife with Angel wings, My mother standing beside her.  Telling me, “We miss you, but your must return to the Earth".  Your adventure is just beginning.

On September 1, 2009,  I met my Guardian Angel Sarah.
Sarah taught me that anything was possible.   Never give up! Dreams do come true. Just look at the starry sky and believe each star is a dream that will come true.

Three years with Angel Sarah by my side.

Sarah introduced me to a beautiful Angel named Tiffany.
On June  2, 2012.  Tiffany was singing with a voice of an Angel.

The curious thing about this is, Tiffany was not singing a Korean song or in the Korean language.

But Tiffany bewitched me.
Her beautiful eyes told me to look to the Far East.  Look to Korea.
To a place called a Miricle. A place you loved and lived in the past.

Tiffany made me dream of Arirang. A sad song but a song of never giving up. "A song of love. A song of faith!"

"Arirang, Arirang, Arariyo...
Crossing over Arirang Pass.
The one who abandoned me
Shall not walk even 4 kilometers before their feet hurt."

Tiffany took my hand and lifted me up to surf the Korean wave ("Hallyu".)

I began to fly above Korea.

I started to remember impossible things in dreams; Memories of Queens. Remembering, I was shipwrecked on a beautiful island.
Remembering, an enchanting dark-eyed princess with long soft black hair.

Waking from a dream, thinking of a future;

A future of a United Korea,
A future of redemption…

Copyright © 2016 Ronald J Chapman All Rights Reserved.

Today my head is full of beautiful memories.......but my heart it aches because of the woman for which they were made.........all the health and all the wealth just for her hand I would trade
For money can not buy the love that we shared........it was straight from a fairytale I was told by the ones who cared
So it was written that it would last forever.......our souls still connected but we are not together
There are so many nights that I will never forget......not even a moment together for I have no regret
For in my dreams these nights will last......I know a terrible curse on me was cast
Every minute with her will stay with me...........
And even though I had to let her go.....inside of me her presence still glows
So from now until my last breath........the memories of her and us will live until my death
There is not but one day that does go by......that I do not think of her and us under the moonlit sky
So as the first night approaches as we all sit and wait........I look up at the moon in the sky .....and I hope and I pray that we will be reunited before I reach heavens gate.
Night after night the tears they still fall.........for I am not the strong one after all
So to my princess and her family....may the holidays be cheerful and Merry

I think of all the memories we have made and the miricle of our love.....and I will always remember .............it was sent from above

HaPpY hOlIdAyS

Baby you are my miricle
When I first laid my eyes upon you
I fell in love on the spot it is true
That song was made for us I do believe
Your love is something I was happy to retrieve
The way you held me I was under your spell
From that sparkle in your eyes I could tell
The way you move front to back side to side
I knew I was in for one hell of a ride
My love is strong for you
There never will be another I think that is true
Right now my life is full of sadness
And in no time it turned to madness
In the song it says my mona Lisa makes me smile
Baby that was you all the while
You are my miracle and you always will be
I love you so much I wish you could see
Nothing in this world matters to me
Not riches ..not beautiful woman there is nothing but you that matters to me
I think Of you twenty four seven
I will not wait to see you again when we go to heaven
That warmness in your soul and that beautiful smile
My heart and soul belong to you
I must make you see how much I really do
The promises I made and the dreams we had
It all will be reality so please don't be sad

Lost-
Looking for home
Sun ablaze in his eyes
Such heat he feels it will take his soul.

Water splashes over the bow
Moisten dry lips for a second
Sun bleached clothes return with color
Heat attacks, they are left brittle as before.

Open eyes look to the horizon
Hope to have the watchful gaze of his love slips
A miricle waits for him at home.
One life that could change the furure.

An abandoned cry
The truth is too much to bare;
Coughing
Thoughts of nurture seem too far in the past to remember

A passing  moment
Shore line in sight
My love waits for me.


Lost-
Waiting to see his face
Sun spots block her view
A haze on the horizon

Waves crash upon the shore
Wet feet for an instant
Hope sings sweet songs in her heart
Not to be diminished for a second

Storm clouds start to roll in
Thunder starts to roar
A stomach full with the greatest joy
A kick and a smile

Shutteing inside for what is to come
When will he get back?
Crying
Too much pain

Storm lightens up
A mast on the water
Family whole again.

Before I leave this earth I want you to know:
That I love and I need you
I cannot let you go
Your the sun when its raining and when hurricanes past
Your my life And I need you I just want us to last
Your a blessing , a miricle
A Angle from above
I don't ever regret you
You've brightened my love
Your the sock to my shoe
And the color to the paper
I want you and all of you
My beautiful heart taker.
I guess you get it now
But I just thought you should know
I love you!

You brought me to life back in 64 .....it was more than a miricle that's for sure
As your birthday quickly approaching the tears they fall from my eyes......you are guiding me through life from the skies
I cry because I miss you mom....you were the only one that good guidance comes from
There was another person that had that gift ......when I saw her smile it gave me a lift
As my tears they will fall....I thank you for the gift of life and the best of it all
You were my mom and I loved you so....I will celebrate your birthday and I was so sad to see you go
These tears from heaven they roll down my face.......you may have left me but because of you my heart is full of grace.

Under a moonlit sky.........I sit in the sand and wonder why
The stars and sun and activity of the planets around us.....this feeling I have in my chest is just so hard to discuss
My hands are shaking and my knees grow weak.......it is the love my life this is what I seek
My mind is in sync with astrology......and if you fail to understand my sincere apologie
As the sun it sets and so do my. Dreams.....but with my confidence I know it is not as bad as it seems
She is in my mind in my nightmares and also in my heart........I have loved her from the very start
She is my miricle and our love lives on in my veins......I am tired of this feeling and all my pains
To regain my love it is in the air........to show her and the world how much I care
The sun will rise on our love again.....and I will make her happier than she has ever been

I am so in love and I don't know what do........I really ******* up and for now we are through
Everyday with her was like paradise......at the time I had a problem I tried to disguise
She came into my life like an Angel to save me from tough times.....I have changed my life around because of my love for her and with the help from my rhymes
Maybe one day I Wil get her to return......I know she will think I will start with the same old lies...........but the the love of my life please hear  my cries
No same old song and dance......the love that is inside my heart has me in a trance
She is my miricle....and if she only knew....I will follow you ...to the ends of the earth .......and together we can celebrate my new birth
And if she will have me...we should be together till ashes of Eden begin to fall

To do this for her love it is my destiny
If not for then it's for me
I have seen the writing on the wall
It must be done for we shall not stall
It is all much much bigger than me
When all of its done and laid out for the world to see
For life revolves in one big circle
We all search and wait for that one big miricle
And when such a thing happens only once in a lifetime
You must grab it hold it ......or it will slip away
We regret some things we do.....
Don't let go or your world will be through.......just make a wish...

Night after night day after day I sit and I pray.........for in my lifetime she will come back to me one day
I know I have done some wrong......but now I sit and I wait and still I hear that same old song
The days are filled with everything but nothing at all.......the nights are silent all I hear is the wolf's call
A howl by the full moonlit skies.......I wonder if she will ever hear my silent cries
In the days away from my only true love.........the feelings I have for her should have long been gone ......but the love for her grows even higher than the heavens above
I will do what I must .......for it is in this miricle of love bond that I trust
I will not give up hope or shall I ever forget.......for being in love with her I will never regret
I say that it was written long ago ......together forever our love shall grow
For if in fact our love was meant to be......I hope and I pray I must not wait an eternity just to see
In my eyes she will always be ......the only woman I will ever love and the only one there could ever be.