"mammas" poems
raised on words of Jesus's bible
given examples to follow from street bible
people in fancy clothes and houses
we were the joneses
the Lords word flowed like spit
with hearts black and cold like real street gangster
raised with loyalty to i am my brothers keeper
together we die
together we ride
together we carry the cross
knew no other way and i believed it to be righteous, the path
joke was on me
what a fool i was
i truly believed, " i am my brothers keeper and they were mine"
believed with my life, soul, blood and, heart
i believed, i believed
walked straight into a trap
was lucky when i fell
i fell on my knees
God carried me out of the misty,cold, dark woods
psalm 23, hallelujah
now i have been blamen daddy for this drama
lets for once put blame were blame belongs
both papa and mamma had mothers, both alive and well
he matriarch of each family
they stood and watch as i was fed to wolves
torn apart i was left to die
of course they had to wait for mamma to die
11/01/2013 God caled her home and open season was declared
God, I never knew i was the trophy
2 years later
i have succeeded in leaving behind the street life
still got mammas husband
a father who love his daughter, but a love i can't take to the bank
i finally got to know the author of the bible and know i'm not alone
i realise in silent moments, to my despair
i may not have made mamma proud
i dropped the code
and i am no longer my brothers keeper
pray for me
please
Oct 25, 2013
Oct 25, 2013 at 4:52 PM UTC
I feel like my head is being held under water right now
except drowning in a sea of narcissism is a lot more dangerous
than drowning in water.
water doesn't say she loves you before she swallows every living thing inside of you whole.
One minute you're born miserably the next, it's almost over,
Life I mean
I have always been in control;
just never of my own life.
It was always,
"Sit pretty, keep your mouth shut, and so help me god don't even breathe funny"
I have NEVER even dreamed of talking to my mother about any boy
Boyfriend? what's that?
Do you have any idea what kind of HELL this hormonal teenage girl was put through? Growing up with all kinds of teenage boys that were into the girls with endless attitude? The same Not-So-Little boys who learned that the phrase, "I need you." could earn them a spot in between
Not-So-Little girls sheets... you know? When Their mammas were too faded to even find out? Don't worry about daddy, he's nowhere to be found.
Growing up, all the wrong boys asked all the right questions. She always said "yes" just because she was raised to say no.
She was only 13 when she left home. Mamma was 16. only a year later, Mamma was pregnant with a failed ****** But the Not-So-Little girl, well she was busy picking up the pieces for the other three little hearts, running around outside of her chest. the same little hearts that were born into a big house with an empty fridge, The same fridge that this Not-So-Little girl had to fill while doing homework on her lunch breaks. So yes. I do get offended when Great aunt lotus says....
You are so much like your mother.
May 5, 2017
May 5, 2017 at 11:46 AM UTC
mama always knew when anything was wrong
she cuddled and she kissed me kept me feeling strong
mama she was there to love and comfort me
always by my side thats were mum would be
she would wipe my tears as they began to weep
she would stroke my brow and send me off to sleep
mama always knew and she would understand
mama she would listen as she held my hand
mama was always there to always guide me through
mum she always knew things that only mammas do
May 31, 2010
May 31, 2010 at 6:14 AM UTC
ME! YES! MYSELF….
He told me to write for me,
He knows it’s impossible for me,
Me a dam maverick girl always fought,
Just for my mammas sought.
I didn’t played with dolls,
I always used to kept in bawls,
Thinking of always to sleep on mamma’s bed,
She threw me out to cover her ends,
Was even able to understand;
That she actually hates me,
I always wondered to know,
How she cry for me,
But as a wondered, cant be a truth,
My dreams also don’t have any hook.
This is what with my mentality grows up,
In seeking of mamma’s hug,
Today, I know she’s full of grievances,
I know she’ll not give me chances,
My cares didn’t depended on her,
Nor in childhood, or today either.
My head is now full of having tension,
But still I am away with my mamma’s attention.
I found myself very alone when she left me,
In that depression.
I stopped having my careful things,
I stopped thinking about my being.
I never saw myself in been,
That time I was 9,
Today nineteen.
Yes I lost myself in between,
Wanted to be a daughter not queen.
Yes I lost my everything with her,
Left with me is only tears.
Yes I cant care of myself,
With these drastic scenes I cant help.
Today found myself abused,
Coz she left me be, for here to confuse.
But in little time, I found some another,
Not mumma but yes my mother.
Care too much to make me stronger,
I cant care myself , I told him further,
I think I bother him always,
Coz, he teach me and I doesn’t stays.
Foolish me!
Where I and where’s he,
Look for me, where I stands,
Took steps for where I splash,
Know me well to understand my breath,
Pamper me his underneath .
I have my soul in him,
There’s nothing else that I can trim.
He don’t let my eyes to cry,
He cares like a newborn whenever I shy.
I hate myself to being.
Coz’ I cant do the same for him
I frighten of loosing my mumma again,
Thn there will no one to whom I can claim.
So I’ll end up with finishing myself!
Yes ! and from than
I’ll never ask god,
For my mamma again.
Apr 10, 2015
Apr 10, 2015 at 6:18 AM UTC
gonna take a train to memphis tennesee
place where i was born that is home to me
had enough of drifting time to settle down
going back to memphis back to my home town
place i was raised with ma and family
home again once more where i long to be
visit all my friends that i left behind
change my drifting ways to the homely kind.
settle down for good in the place i love the best
no more roaming ways put them all to rest
get my mammas love like i did before
settle down in memphis home again once more.
with my family and friends that i left behind
change my drifting ways to the homely kind
settle down for good that is home to me
in the place i love in memphis tennesee
home again to mamma and her loving way
that she gave to me every single day
had enough of drifting now its for home to me
settle down for good in memphis tenneesee
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 1:49 PM UTC
Like a Lovely Heart
You Don't Send Me Lovely Hearts Anymore
Mammas Don't Let Your Babies Grow Up to Be Hearts
Stairway to Heart
Can't Take My Hearts Off You
Good Heart
Like a Heart
Goody Two Hearts
I plead Heart
Amazing Ohhhh No
Have You Met Ohhhh No ?
Mad to Sing
I Sing in Your Arms
Heart Autopsy
You Think I Ain't Worth A Heart But I Feel Like A Million Hearts
There's A Good Reason Hearts Are Numbered, Ohhhh No
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 2:37 PM UTC
when i was just a baby lying in my cot
one thing i remembered and i have not forgot
that was mamas lullaby that she sang to me
she sang it very softly. as gently as can be
her voice it was so lovely gentle and sincere
i could hear her singing softly in my ear
then she would rock my cradle rock it too and fro
till my eyes were closing then off to sleep i go
Nov 25, 2013
Nov 25, 2013 at 12:53 PM UTC
turn out the light
Her wrath is blinding me
bring on the night
save me from the monster... I used to be
let my true colors shine
put my life on the line
please don't let my mamma see
what her criticism does to me
I have spent all my life
trying to be that perfect angel
my momma raised me to be
but I threw that to the side
became what I wanted to be
but I should have listened to my mommas advice
being grown up is not what it is cracked up to be
Apr 4, 2014
Apr 4, 2014 at 10:54 PM UTC
We must be on a shoot first ask questions later bases
Especially when you see black faces
Do you think we are all thugs on drugs, who mug for a living
Or all non working baby mammas on the warfare system
But when we bring up the question of our oppression
All of a sudden you start neglecting
Centuries of terror for murders in Chicago
Or fake statistics that leave remnants of non compassion to those who don't resemble our situation
This is blatant black chaos
I didn't feed it, I only admitted it exist
Hard truths die slowly but fast lies sink heavy
Burden left on the chests of the youth
Who get persecuted for standing in truth
So it looks to not appeal to the morale of those who are oppressive
But it wreaks through the souls on the receiving end
Now you want to hold hands in hopes to keep the power you murdered for
It is power you truly adore, you worked hard for it
But someone worked even harder
My ancestors built this country
And our youth will run this country
One day we won't see black chaos
Rather the faces of JUSTICE
Sep 24, 2016
Sep 24, 2016 at 9:56 AM UTC
gonna take a train to memphis tennesee
place where i was born that is home to me
had enough of drifting time to settle down
going back to memphis back to my home town
place i was raised with ma and family
home again once more is where i long to be
visit all my friends that i left behind
change my drifting ways to the homely kind.
settle down for good in the place i love the best
no more roaming ways put them all to rest
have my mammas love like i did before
settle down in memphis home again once more.
with my family and friends i left behind
change my drifting ways to the homely kind
settle down for good that is home to me
in the place i love in memphis tennesee
home again to mamma and her loving way
that she gave to me every single day
had enough of drifting now its home for me
settle down for good in memphis tenneesee
Feb 4, 2020
Feb 4, 2020 at 6:07 AM UTC
i was raised by mamma there was her and me
always by my side mamma she would be.
she took me to school each and everyday
made sure i was safe that was mamma s way
when ever i was down she would hold me tight
give me all her love made everything alright
always there for me when ever things went wrong
hold me in her arms helped me to be strong.
she was always there to love and comfort me
wiped away my tears so my eyes could see
there to make me smile when ever i was blue
with her loving way she would pull me through.
now im all grown up mammas she is there
still giving me her love and her tender care
a mamma in a million she will always be
always by my side to love and comfort me.
give me all her wisdom and her loving way
tell me that she loves me every single day
with her mammas love she is there for me
a mamma in a million she will always be
Feb 23, 2018
Feb 23, 2018 at 10:12 AM UTC
when i was just a kid mamma she would play
her favourite christmas song every christmas day
we would sit and listen as she began to sing
joy to our hearts mammas song would bring
a song that she wrote to sing on christmas day
that mamma used to sing sang in mammas way
we all sang along around the christmas tree
as mamma sang her song in perfect harmony
now im all grown up have a family to
i still sing her song like mamma used to do
we all sing along every christmas day
to my mammas song sang in mammas way
Oct 11, 2023
Oct 11, 2023 at 9:36 AM UTC
heading down the road my old dog and me
on my way back home to memphis teneesee
place where i was raised with my family
in my home sweet home in memphis tennesee
to the memories i hold. thats there in my mind
home again one more the place i left behind
back to mammas love that she gave to me
back to all my roots is where i long to be
settle down for good home again once more
in memphis teneesee where i was before
to the place i know that is home to me
back to all my roots and my family
home again once more where i long to be
the place i know well in memphis tennesee
to the place i know that is home to me
settle down for good in memphis teneesee
Nov 19, 2019
Nov 19, 2019 at 9:04 AM UTC