"It's hard to pretend that you like someone when you don't, but it's harder to pretend that you don't like someone when you really do."


Staring at me like
it has those meanings,
Staring back at you
when it doesn't have meaning
at all.

Can't get you off out of my mind,
Insane feeling and let it bind,
Liar to myself,
Why can't I be true to myself,
Maybe I'm Insane to you.

You like someone else,
But I'm not inlove
with someone else,
I hate it when I don't recieve the same amount of love that I give to others.

I stared at you but I saw
you staring to someone else
and I saw the girl you like staring
at someone else too.

The truth tried to hurt both of us,
And it succeeded,
We develop feelings to someone
we know we can't have,
We're like living in a rusted chain.

Love me before I gave my
heart away,
My mind is already blown away,
I continued to chase you,
But you kept running away chasing
the girl you like.

Slowly trying to get you out of my
mind,
I know that you will never be mine,
I'm not a fool,
But it feels like I'm swimming in a
pool.

Someone drowned me,
I kept on sinking,
No one saved me,
Just like the feelings from me
that you didn't save.

I wan't someone else to
save me,
My mind kept on shouting
for someone to save me,
But my mouth kept on saying
I'm fine.

I think I need to stop,
I don't want to hurt myself anymore,
But my mind kepts on wanting you,
My mind can't stop thinking of you,
When my heart already wants to stop.

My mind told my heart to go on,
My heart told my mind to stop,
It kepts on beating,
And it hurts,

Suddenly my mouth
murmured that I want you,
That means I don't know
what to do,
And I know that doesn't have
value to you.

Dark sky, cold days
Beautiful thoughts I say
Feeling better in silence
Writing poems
Keeps me happy
And helps me escape
This **** reality

Everyday feels so endless
Secrets kepts
Distance hurts
Spring passed
Mind doubts
Cried in a corner for hours
Regret everything that has began

Our love fades
In a shadow grey
Suddenly, you fall asleep
Without knowing my condition
You didn't give me affection
You kissed a girl
I smiled bitterly
I hope the both of you were happy

Snap!
That is just an old sad memory
I spend a stupid time for love
Tears dried on my cheeks
Drowning in sadness
Questions left unanswered
Shattered thoughts
Played emotions
I hope I will be numb
To forgot all ghost memories of ours
Thousand of precious
moments were wasted

i thinking of you when i'm on bed
you always lying in my head

this is not the way i'd used to be
thinking of something that it can't be

i don't want to think of you anymore
because i don't want to lie to my self no more

when i imagine those beautiful smiles
it kepts me wake up everynight

i wish i can control what will happen on the present
so that 'YOU' loving me 'ME' will be existed  

and i can tell you what this heart is wanted to say
that you are the most beautiful disaster has god ever made

even i know your heart is belong to someone else
i'm not goin to stop loving you until my one last breath

i love you ....
i love you .....
i love you ......

that's the only thing i ever knew !
on my life that is only true........

When the pen dies,
pages keep turning in its demise.
To read what will never be written,
by the pen with no ink,
and a man who is missing.

Where has the man gone?
Where is his mind?
It is not being held withing the leather binds.

No more thoughts,
Ideas
Or questions.
Secrets are kepts hushed,
no more love letters,
no more confessions.

I long for that man,
who placed his heart in a book,
only for my eyes to see,
only for my lips to read.

Another page turned,
another felt beat,
resuscitated,
as the pen and pad meet.