I was told just a bit ago that the woman i love with all my heart said she thinks she loves me and wants to be my wife and wants to start a family with me. she wants to stay single to get her mind clear and i will respect that because i could never imagine my life with anyone else but her. shes the first thing on my mind when i wake she never out of my thoughts ever shes always in my dreams and shes in my nightmares where i loose her and never get her back and then i die alone because if i dont have her i want noone then i wake up and its all a bad dream. all i ever want is her in my life forever. i know in the past i messed up bad but noones perfect and if i ever do get her back and we do work things out i will prove to her that i was the young guy who made mistakes and from them i have become the man who learned the hard way and am willing to do any and everything to prove to her ive changed and will be the man i should have been to her before. (To her) if you ever read this and you will i want you to know i love you and want to be the man i should have been the year we were together and if you can ever find it in your beautiful heart to forgive me for being a blind fool i do love you i do want you to be my wife and i do want you to be the beautiful wonderfull one of a kind mother of our hope to be children. i really do love you. you are my soul mate, my other half, my peace, my one of a kind, beautiful, ****, georgious gift that i so blindly pushed away. please forgive me and hopefully one day i will get down on one knee in a crowded place and and when i ask for your hand in marrage you will say yes and when that day comes i will hold you and never ever ever let you go or repeat my mistakes or make new ones.
For the love of my life every word is true and its how i felt and how i have ever felt. You are the only one who can tame the beast within me, you keep me calm for the most part and when i dont have you with me i dont feel like me. i feel as though im just an empty shell and if you will allow me i will prove to you that i have changed and will be the man i should have been. im so verry sorry for the way i was and will be till the day i finally pass away weather that is with you or alone because if i dont have you i will remain loveless and die alone because i have never clicked with anyone as hard or as much as i have with you. you tame me and a certain someone who you know like noone else has and the both of us just want you and noone else in our lives. you are all we think about.
