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Ria Aug 2018
Why
Why do I still fcken care
I see you in my dreams
I see you everywhere
Your eyes , your lips pink
Your caramel skin
Oh how you know me so well
You spit a couple of words and touch my skin
And my skin fcken burns
Full of passion and desire
I lose it all completely
You kiss my body like you admire every piece of it
From my forehead to my toes
Slowly working your way around me with your nose
Kissing me slightly
Something inside me wakes up
With every bit of your soft touch
How can forgetting you be something I was willing to do from the jump
This feeling I feel I never felt before
No one was irreplaceable
Everyone was easily discard
But with you . . . I believe I'm still in love .  .
Ria Aug 2018
Tired of the lies
Tired of the weakness I feel inside
So many years
So much time
Effort to just get fcked
Wouldn't it be my luck
Lucky enough to fall in love with my best friend
Took me three years to let you in
Didn't immediately allow the love to flow
Scared to lose a friend
But ended up gaining a lover
3 years together and you made me a mother
Beautiful daughter
Smart as fck
Then you started fcken up
The lies just to get what you want
What was the purpose
Of making me happy to play me like a game
Being in love wasn't enough in your brain
I'm tired of the mistrust and hurt
I don't think I will ever love again
But why did you do this to me , my best friend ?
Why does it feel like I belong in your arms but you hurt me and drive me insane ?
Why does it feel like regardless of all the games when we touch we are meant to stay ?
No one attracts me in any which way
But I'm letting go of all ties
I never want to get hurt with all the lies
Time heals all they tell me
All the same
How can you forget someone who impacted your life in so many dramatic ways . . .
Staying strong and never looking back cause what the heart wants hurts me real bad . .
Sleepz Sep 2014
How about for one day we all just kick it,
Without hating anyone,
Without talking **** or wanting to fight,
Asking our enemies how they're doing,
Not have to walk out the door of our
home worrying whether or not our
family will be alright.
Count on one another,
Get into a relationship without the intention of
******* on the first date
and ******* people over.
Whether you think it or not,
all this **** rots your mind.
And because of the way society is raised,
we are all guilty of doing these things.
There's no longer such thing as a pure heart,
kids are ganging up on kids because they think it's a joke
people are picking on those with autism.
Have you ever seen a kid with autism cry?
You think those you call "retarted" have no feelings
and are just happy all the time?
You're wrong,
and that's an excuse that runs through everyones mind,
saying **** you don't mean destroys others.
Not only others but you as well,
How about you walk up to him and give him a hug,
and when you do you'll know what real love is,
that person with autism should charge you a grand
so that you could know what real love is.
This person doesn't need to know you,
doesn't care about how many people you've hurt,
i guarantee he will hug you knowing he better
make it worth it because he just might
not see you again,

Your mind rots,
that is why you think it is okay to seek revenge
on those who do you wrong,
you seek to ruin their life,
but that's okay,
it's normal,
cause that's the way we were raised.
Have you ever thought,
maybe i shouldn't care?
Maybe these people already suffer enough as it is.
The truth is,
everyone suffers,
just in different ways.
The problem is that when you speak of kids from
Africa who are poor with no clothes,
you swear to be on their side and you swear like
you don't suffer the same.
But when that person comes to the U.S,
where is the help now?
You see him with eyes that judge,
and you say,
"I'm glad i don't live that way."
While he is thinking:
"I'm happy im alive,
i'm happy i'm not blind and i could see these
people with big blue eyes, green eyes brown eyes
light skin, brown skin,
and many different races."
Well you're really fcken blessed aren't you?
How about putting some clothes on his back,
and inviting him to your home to eat;
This kid was raised to ****** with a machete against his own will,
and he was saved.

You,
You're mind is full of dirt and you don't even know it.
You think you don't suffer the same?
You think that you are blessed because you have
clothes on your back?
Help those around you,
Pray for them,
and pray for God to fix your problems as well.
Cause you don't have the power to fix them,
and the only way your rotten mind will
think they are fixed is by putting those around you, under you.
This is the ideal world,
the ideal day,
but it will never exist how sad is that.

Love those around you,
cause tomorrow they'll be gone.
And your wish will come true,
your enemies will be gone too.
Society needs to change
Ria Sep 2018
Might as well and be alone
Fck with no one your on your own
No one needs to be let in
Disappointments when reality sinks
Love is nothing close from real
Working hard to never feel
I don't want to go through this love shxt again
Bedazzle me and make me understand
Understand happy shxt not love that shxt isnt bliss
Fck ya feelings and just call me miss
Nothing real just casual ****** feels
I don't want a wife or a husband
I just need some fcken
Never been the type to pipe and leave
Broken damage can change things real quickly
I might just be talking shxt
A ******* might be what I just might need
Humans make shxt to fcken complicated
To much emotions and attachments
Can we just flow and forget everything

I been in to much shxt to give you a reaction . .
Ria Oct 2018
Never felt this way for nobody
Scared of being played
I just want ya arms
Lips body on mines
Feel our bodies intertwine
No more fights no more lies
No more lonely crying nights
Holding ya daughter hearing her say is daddy alright ( ? ]
No more tear drops falling from my eyes
Sunny skies
Flowers blooming in site
Birds chirping feeling alive
Falling from a cloud looking into ya honey brown eyes
Curly short hair all soft when i rubb on ya head while ya head makes me close my eyes
Bite my lips
While my juices fill up inside
You turn me on Joshua Wright
Make me feel butterflies
I'll climb mountains and surf hurricanes to be by ya side as long as you FCKEN ride
Ride with me rider ride
Please dont leave my side
Make sure everythings better than alright
Ria Aug 2018
A+
Insane
The way things are processing in my fcken brain
Anger and pain
So much pain
You would have thought I was shot
critical condition
Emergency
Why can I be with the one person I wanna be
Sleepless nights
Tear drops down my eyes
Cars and lights are outside
Life is passing me by
Happiness when will you arise
When is it my time
When can I be alright
If depression was a class
I excel +A
Everyday and night you're on mind
No other humans exist
What humans
Who are you
What where and why
Leave me alone I don't got no time
Time for who-rahs and lies
One day I see things being different
Genuine smiles , happiness all around
You by my side hand in hand
Legs against my thighs
Slow breathing and sighs
Wonderful nights and mornings to follow
Everything feels right no more sleepy hollow
My heart flutters at the thought of one day things being better than okay
Jumping over obstacles and making us sane .
Ria Aug 2018
Just bullshxt
Why do I feel so bad
So sad
Glad I let go
But so hurt
Broken damage
With no worth
Yet you're the one who lost out
I ain't perfect
Or ain't got shxt figured
But I would think your brain would be bigger
The shxt you do made you lose me boo
I wonder if I'm still on ya brain
Me not responding to ya phone calls is making you insane ?
Is it bad that I wanna cause you pain
Break ya face & whoever's by ya side telling you everything's gonna be okay . .
Fck everything and everyone in my way  
I will proceed to maintain
Maintain this smile
Maintain this facade
Fck ya life and everything you did
How can I fcken burn inside with pain
Bleeding inside and mask on
No one can invade
No one's allow
Me myself and I
And I'm making me proud !
Taking life by the horns and doing it well
Worried about me and mines even tho I still cry
Manage to wake up and smile in my baby's face
& Pretend like everything's okay
Trying harder everyday to make myself comfortable in my own space

One day I'll get better I'm just taking my own pace
Slowly but surely you will be ERASED
Ria Sep 2018
***** so good you wanna drown in it
Smarts and the looks yeah she got all of it
Type of chick that wakes you up with good head
Makes sure you eating home cooked meals everyday man
Got you looking healthy
Takes care of you
Works too , brings that bread
A lot of bread , a lot of bread
Faithful and loyal
Never betray ya soul
You got you a girl of gold
Hold her close , never let her fcken go
Be careful you might overdose
Don't get to comfy
Lose everything you had
Lose a blessing
Perfect little Queen ready
Fck it up & lose it all
Don't be mad, don't be mad
Don't be mad
Ria Oct 2018
I feel so hurt
Alone
Feel like trash thrown away
Dont feel like the sun shines the same
Waking up early sleeping late not enough sleep in a day
Broken into pieces
Puzzles that never seem to fit
Why is this happening to me
Look at this
You dont want me at all
Ya actions say it all
I feel like i just might fall
I swear i fight with myself
Lying battling inner demons
Biting for some odd reason
Tail gating thoughts of you with some one else
My mind lost in thought
Ya daughter smiling wide
Grinning from ear to ear
Not a muthafcken care in the world
I must stand tall strong and stay invloved
Make sure my feelings are dissolved
Act like everything is resolved
Fake the happiness even tho im broke
Awoke from happiness is now a fcken joke
I said I will pay for it
she said with you life
I would prefer. I said
you fcken out of your mind.
It's just material be real
nvinn fonia Feb 15
intellect wana thrive passion wanna go_high  right combination is what is fcken required
nvinn fonia Feb 14
america is becoming a fcken joke
nvinn fonia Feb 15
the difference engine is finally ___fcken real
nvinn fonia Feb 16
so i ask you a question 1  has to face his ememy is that not the fcken routine
nvinn fonia Feb 17
""cramped i need a whole lot of space to fcken land here

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