She’s one girl no guy can get out of their mind
The one girl that’ll make any boy step out of line
Just by looking at her I can tell she’s different from any mortal
She has the power to go up and turn a cold heart really fertile
She strips on exotic clothing everytime she goes out
You know she’s the woman that all the guys talk about
Recently I found her name, it’s Tiffany
You can tell she dosen’t need sympathy
She looks like a bad girl by the way she smokes a blunt
The way she seduces men, gonna make you struck dumb
She’s a ***** woman but plays innocent when she’s with men
You can easily see why many boys want her as a girlfriend


If I had a shot at her I’d ask for romance
While most guys want to get in her pants
She’ll make your skin shiver by the touch of her flesh
The most exotic and permiscious girl that I ever met
The kind of girl that will make your heart stop
Just being in her presence will mean a whole lot
You see her hang out with more men than girls
As girls get mad when she really rocks men’s world
To a lot of girls here, she’s only known as a ***** or a ****
In reality they’re jealous because they wish they had her ****
So their man will actually charish them all day
Instead of worrying about taking their man away
Her bright blue eyes are hypnotizing wheels
She’s an ****** princess that’s how I feel
Any guy can fall victim to her intense lust
The desire to know who she is is a must


No doubt her looks can attract any man
A fact that most girls can’t understand
In pictures she actually reminds me of a supermodel
Even when she constantly chugs down beer bottles
Constantly showing off her g-string to please guys
She’s even got me hooked on her I’m not gonna lie
Rumor is she sleeps with ten guys a night
As men will just **** to have her in their sight
Just win her affection they will go and fight
It’s hard to ignore that she dresses real naughty
Every night she always has a guy inside her body
She says she’s not a ***** but she only dresses like one
But the way she shows her breast gets a lot of guys stunned


A little coconut as she only stands at five foot four
She gave you action in bed you’d begging for more
**** straight she loves to party, she don’t want you to judge her
A true statement that nothing in this world can be taken from her
She’s a total sucker for R&B; and hip-hop
There’s no way you can get her to stop
Well it’s true almost any guy can get a shot at her
Just hope your attempts don’t send her to laughter
Sometimes she’ll go by the nickname “Baby Girl”
The moment she touches you your blood will curl
Don’t let her pretty face fool ya’ she rolls like the boss
Guys will say that in the bedroom she dosen’t play soft


If you give her some liquor she’ll go off the wall
She’s so energetic she won’t leave you appauled
She’ll turn the dance floor in the club into her own nasty world
She’ll give you so much action it’ll be too much for you to endure
She loves Spongebob and Marilyn Monroe
And yet she denies that she’s ever a **’
On myspace she has five thousand friends
And most of them on that friend list are men
Blue eyed bombshell taking over the room
A blonde ******* bunny is what you assume
Four out of five doctors say that she’s insane
So you can say that she’s far away from lame


She’s every guy’s new obsession
She can get you out of depression
Her upper legs will easily remind you of thunder thighs
Can’t take your eyes off them you know you can’t lie
You can never wake up without an overdoes of her
It’s pratically impossible for anybody to just shun her
Anyone can get lost in her eyes
Finding no exit inside her sight
You don’t know but she’s got you on lock
Not being in her presence is really a frock
Makes your heart fizzle when she calls you honey
She says to every guy dosen’t that sound funny?


She can easily lead you on
And give you what you want
But don’t expect to keep her because she’ll just slip away
Not that hard to tell girls like her will go and not actually stay
So charish the moment while it last
Chances are that she’ll move on fast
Everyday she’s with a different guy
Had tweleve boyfirends, not a lie
She’s like a bomb getting ready to explode
As the most exotic girl that is ever known
Guys will just **** all to feel her sweet kisses
But no one wants to be a victim of her disses
Having her is like having a trophy that’s hard to find
No doubt that she’s gonna stuck inside a guy’s mind


She can easily be mistaken for a member of *******
Boys are struck dumb by the way that she shows her smile
No man alive can resist her temptations
She turns you down you’ll feel devastation
Some guys just want her for the respect
Other guys just want her for her ***
Hotter than a stripper what do you expect?


It wasn’t too long before she met her perfect match
Soon she found a man who gave her the right romance
A man who will love her for who she was
Turns out she really did find her only one
She ended up marrying him at a wedding chapel
The fact that she was taken left many guys baffled
The girl of their dreams was swept away
This caused a lot of guys a lot of pain
Now all they can do is imagine being with her
While her man’s able to go up and kiss her
Other guys consider her man the luckiest man on earth
Because she left other guys who want her really hurt


Then she gives birth to his child and they became a family
Now you know her and her man will be forever happy and dandy
She loves him to death what do you expect?
From her he’s the only guy that’ll recieve ***
Now men have to find another girl to chase after
As her life is forever away from any type of disater

I have started reading a book that has spoken to my soul.
Eat. Pray. Love
One of the greatest books
I have only read the first 12 chapters and I already have a new prospective on life.
She says in Chapter 9 that she had been "living in a giant trash compactor of nonstop anxiety."
Basically my feelings exactly
There are the motions you go through everyday to keep your mind off of him.
Off of everything you have lost and what you could possibly gain.
But when the night comes
all hope is lost
You find yourself lying in bed
Panicking
Wondering if you should call him
Wanting so desperately to call him
But what would be the outcome of that
Good
Or Bad?
Would you seem weak ?
Lonely?
Stupid?

I have had some of the most amazing experiences in the past few days
I am furthering my knowledge in God
And i feel my heart and my soul strengthening
I have laughed again so hard that i got the hick-ups
I have listened to beautiful music and smiled
I have seen a breath taking sunset and not wanted to die
God is bringing me back to life
"God is an experience of supreme love"

"To find the balance you want this is what you must become. You must keep your feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it's like you have four legs, instead of two. That way you can stay in the world. But you must stop looking at the world through your head. You must look through your heart, instead. That way, you will know God."

I feel my life transforming into something beautiful
I was at church yesterday and we were told in relief society to tell the person next to you about your baptismal covenant experience
And i turned to Liz (since i have not been baptized yet) and told her the floor was all hers.
And she told me of her experience and i smiled because i felt it in my heart.
And i told why i wanted to be baptized
And in that moment i was overwhelmed with emotion
And i cried
And she held me and we cried together
And that connection we made... i will always charish in my heart.

These are the days to make binding relationships
With  God
And with humanity

If someone were to look at me and not know who i am
What would they think?

To me
I am a beautiful person
A daughter of a God

But are others blinded from the truth?
That we are all beautiful and children of our heavenly father

There are still times when i have the anxiety
The fear that I may never be with him again
That the day he leaves to Virginia
Will be the day when my world comes crashing down
I thought it was hard now
He is still here
I can still see him
Touch him

When he leaves
I will only have memories
Beautiful memories

Will he be able to walk onto the plane easily?
Or with he look back in pain
Knowing when he gets on that plane
He is leaving me behind
Or will he smile and be thankful for the distance growing between us
For the following years that pass he'll never have to look into my green eyes again and see the undying love i have for him.
And he'll never again have a second thought that he might be leaving the greatest thing that could have ever happened to him.

When he gets on that plane we are both losing a piece of ourselves
Will i ever get a second chance?
Or will he break that promise too
When he talks to me it seems so effortless
Like he could care less about me
And he can say goodbye so easily
When every time i see him i want to collapse
And every time i leave him i want to scream
I never want to walk away from him
To say goodbye


For now
I am a recovering addict
I am addicted to Ben Stoneking
But i'm recovering

won't make a difference
in my defense
on the things i say .
he turns u like a switch
from peaceful to bitterness.
the fights we have are endless
the memories i even charish
seem like they couldn't of exist
the hatred , the anger,
what happen to my sister?
a sweet cheerleader
with a heart so tender.
turned cold faster
then water in a freezer.
……but cuz of him
yes him ,
the monster ,
the trickster ,
not a father
but a killer ,
what happen to my sister?
to everyone the sweet cheerleader?
replaced by a cold, hearted stranger.
that i now call "sister"
since in my defense
it doesn't matter what i say
ill just have to pray ,
pray that shell come back
back to being caring to my mom
not cursing her with the f bomb.
doesn't matter if i say
to her in any shape or way
that i love her and miss her
shell read it then walk away.
i sit there and pray .
for the day my sister says
"i love you" or
the simple "hey."

monster

Randomly loving you is so hard to do.
Missing your beautiful smile, the way I feel when you make me laugh. Oh our memories! So full of laughter and love.
I remember when my feelings grew and I finally told you, that I loved you.
Awkward? Kind of, but I couldn't help but tell you.
When I speak about you, it's hard to explain how I fell for that voice. Texting just isn't enough sometimes, but when we talk on the phone for 5 hours!, now that, is something I charish.
How can I not love who you are?
Head up high, you know where you want to go, you know what you want in life. You have a beautiful body, a fantastic smile, and the smooth voice that won me over.
I think of you daily, just to have you on my mind because I miss you being with me.

Throw me in a time machine, let's see if we could've worked out

From the first day I met you, my heart was set on you.
We have been friends for 5 years now and I can't imagine my life without you.
Due to unfortunate circumstances we can not ever be together.
You know our love would be tragic. As much as I have always wanted that, I know we live different lives and it just wouldn't work. I dont mind being there for you when you need me. That is what I am here for. For you my love. To help you, to listen to you, to be there for you.

I just wanted to take this moment to wish you a Happy Birthday. To remind you of how amazing and strong you are. You are perfect in every way and I am entirely grateful to have met you.
I sincerely hope you have an amazing day because you deserve every smile, every laugh, and every special memory.

You are my everything. My dream come true. Only problem for me is that I can not have you :(
You are always in my thoughts, dont ever forget that. When you feel you are alone, know that I am here for you to love you, to care for you and to charish you.
I couldnt ask for a better friend than you my love. I love you so wholeheartedly and its such an amazing feeling.

Thank you for being you. I love you.

Time is irrelevant when we are together, if i could put a stop on time i would. so i could charish the moment of her sweet and tastefull smile. what i do today will affect my life tomorrow,so if i love her throughout the next life/' even though she loves me, do i truly love her back? if i did, would i be holding back. she wants to have me but will she accept the whole package. i dont know how to tell her because watching her face crenge will feel like a neddle periceing through me. if i love her she loves me then why have i not told anyone. why have i been holding back from someone i am sharing my heart with. i have kept this a secrect because i love this girl, she makes me feel like nothing matters when i am with her, when she smiles. its enough to keep my heart filled with blood. when she is sad i feel my aertry getting clogged, gasping for another breath. this girls means the universe to me, if i loose her for careless mistakes i have made in the past i believe i will never feel the same way about loveing another human being on this earth other than my family. there is not a day or a second i think about telling her what might be wrong with me. when i do tell her, should i tell the truth? when i do tell her, should i hold her hands, when i do tell her. will she accept me for the person i am today. i think about this everday i see or talk or reminese on the time we have spent toghter. if i tell her will she leave me? i have this hunting me as if i have a bounty on my head for all the money in the world. i dont know what to do or when to do it, but i know one thing. if i truly love her, i will tell her everything about me and see how we change as a whole, because we are a team untill the end.

Is it pain that you feel when you get hurt?
Is it suffocation?
It feels like you can't breathe?

Do you think that getting hurt is better then healing from it?
From trying to love again?
I think it's worst

It's worst to try to love someone
But can't no more
Because you don't know how .....
It hurts more then getting hurt.

It hurts wanting to put your all into someone
But can't because your insecure
You doubt it
You don't have faith

It's hard to trust again
Love again
Feel again
Because it hurts wanting to buy can't.


So you don't try it
You ignore it
You don't charish the love that someone is giving you
And so you hurt them.


It's all a cycle.
So just try ....
Try to love
To feel, to care....

My heart is filled with happiness and joy
because deep inside me lies a baby boy.
I want to give him all I can,
and raise him to be a real man
There'll be times of rocking ang nursery rhymes,
but I also know there'll be plenty of hard times.
I'll do the best to help him through,
to keep him safe, there's nothing I won't do.
I can't wait to hold him nice and tight,
and charish the occation he sleeps through the night.
I look forward 'till the days I sing your birthday song,
and to teach you right from wrong.
So I tell myself, "Be patient my dear,"
"It's not too long until he's here."

It's the people we charish the most
Who hurt us the most

I HAVE COME BACK,MISSING THE HILL ,
U JUST CHARISH MEMORIES AND CHILL!