"afeard" poems
I often forget how to write.
Not because I am happy,
and, as they say, happiness writes white.
Nor for any lack of sadness,
for, as I see, sadness is a bottomless ink well.
But for any wild and outrageous feeling,
any like spirit who possesses my hand to start --
with awesome, judging faces sliding on the ceiling,
icons of the mother and god-child
dripping down eternal blue and martyr red,
like arms hanging, waking, pinning!
"Woman, behold your son!"
Behold me, my THC and psilo-sin life,
an endlessly whirling maelstrom of emotion!
flanked by monstrous, winged choirs of Motown
slinging fiery spears, gold rays penetrating!
"Oh, oh, God!" The Ecstasy of St. Philip!
Visions of horse-hung hosts and celestial orbs,
Heaven's dynamo, an **** of screws and cogs!
-- are hid.
I too watched the best minds of my generation,
anesthetized by sanity in a bottle
(id est: pills, pills, pills, pills, pills);
mesmerized by patterns of flashing lights
of digital desperation crying, "affirm me, friend me!" -;
drowned in an endless sea under a twilight of information
or else cats, cats, cats, cats, cats;
and ever afeard of mortal judgment.
“Big boys don’t cry” (so poets do in breathy meter).
A generation asleep
- and though in hopeful dream -
We are placid.
We work obedient.
We speak soft.
Because the whole world is medicated now.
Because the whole world is fixed.
And I wonder if there is a Spirit.
I think, if there is,
We have drugged her.
We have ravished her.
We have wasted her.
And the whole world is silent now.
And the whole world is fixed.
Sep 28, 2012
Sep 28, 2012 at 11:51 AM UTC
(Song title from The Beatles’ catalogue, by Lennon/McCartney)
Miles I have struggled,
Trudged down the manacled streets,
A lifetime spent in misery,
Surrounded in sin and tragedy,
The long and winding road I walk,
Is diseased with pain and hurt,
I bury my heart and evil soul,
To save them from death and wicked sights,
Scarred by rumours; afeard of the light.
Aug 28, 2012
Aug 28, 2012 at 11:09 AM UTC
Far, far away
Deep in the woods
Filled with thick trees and tall grass
Lived a man named ‘Saga’
Short and stout
Noisy and loud
He lived alone
Screaming at the air, talking to the rain
Saga lived in a cave
Posing to be brave But, afraid of the loneliness How naïve!
Living in the wild
Far away from his tribe
Alone through the woods he steered
Saga was afeard
He missed his wife
His old, happy life
And cursed the dusk
When he lost his way, following the musk
He cursed his daughter, Hilde
Deeming her the reason he was lost in wild ‘Why did you have to be so obstinate?’
‘Spoilt as hell, brat, ****** arrogant”
Mumbling under his breath
He was lost in his wrath
Crossing the same eerie desire trail
With misty fog and traces of hail
“What a horrifying path to take
Death be waiting for all treading this way”
Shivering and afeard
He walked rapidly till that path disappeared
Days passed and nights went by
He lay on the grass
Watching the drifting sky
Change its color from blue to brass
The trees rustled and wind blew
As the storm brewed
Sky thundered, rivers creaked
Saga listened to the forest screak.
“Hellish! I am lost in these labyrinthine woods
With cimmerian paths and Styngian brooks”
He started towards his aphotic cave
“Someone come for me and save!”
The forest grew murkier and dark Deafening sounds of storm, hark!
A whip just cracked
Echoing the sound of a thousand claps.
Saga fastened his pace
In terror and haste
Mud laved his feet
As if mocking Saga’s hysterical retreat.
“Oh! Get out of my way you muck”
As he fell on his face – Shmck!
Thud! flumb! squelch! splosh! deign!
He flushed through the water of rain.
For hours he struggled against the gush
Louder and louder grew brus
With each passing minute, the storm soared
The forest rumbled and sky roared.
Saga brawled and bawled
As if trying to silence the stormy howl.
Alas! all his attempts failed
Unconscious soon, he sailed
Where to? He would never know
For the forest had already beseeched his breath
Saga swam through the wild flow
Into the comfortable arms of Death.
Jun 9, 2018
Jun 9, 2018 at 6:59 AM UTC
Be not afeard. The isle is full of noises,
Sounds, and sweet airs that give delight and hurt not.
The Tempest III.ii.129-130
Be not
Afraid
Iambs
Are just
The way
We speak
They are
Our natch
Ural
Rhythm
Or:
Be not afraid; iambs are just the way
We speak; they are our natural rhythm 1
Sometimes they must be squashed a bit, and then
(Hear “natural” as two syllables, a pair
Othertimes “natural” is read as three) –
Be a skilled artist in your poetry!
1 “Rhythm” is a trochee, not an iamb
But let it stay, that poor, little lost lamb
Sep 12, 2018
Sep 12, 2018 at 4:20 PM UTC
Be not afeard. The isle is full of noises,
Sounds, and sweet airs that give delight and hurt not.
The Tempest III.ii.129-130
Be not
Afraid
Iambs
Are just
The way
We speak
They are
Our natch
Ural
Rhythm
Or:
Be not afraid; iambs are just the way
We speak; they are our natural rhythm 1
Sometimes they must be squashed a bit, and then
(Hear “natural” as two syllables, a pair
Othertimes “natural” is read as three) –
Be a skilled artist in your poetry!
1 “Rhythm” is a trochee, not an iamb
But let it stay, that poor, little lost lamb
Feb 7, 2018
Feb 7, 2018 at 7:43 AM UTC
Painted Atelephobia
Inevitable is the oblivion afeard within celadon gardens.
In the center a cerise bloom reaches clouds with ruby fingertips. Not I will touch sunsets as she.
Click is the cardinal heel of white collars which soar in cerulean skies. Still I stand on russet boots stuck in mud. For the wings on my back have been clipped long before.
Aye is the color changing leaf. Not apace is she, yet still grows skillfully radiant. Evergreen bristles with no compare to her auburn tint which gracefully touches winds and sails the seas. A green of dark hue flies not so angelically.
Never will I be the shadow in your eyes, nor the dimples on your cheeks. Never will I stand from the crowd and bloom like her. Never will fly nor soar nor swim. Never will I be good enough for you.
Mar 3, 2018
Mar 3, 2018 at 11:41 AM UTC