》》I've been really sad lately and drinking, a lot》and I'm trying to make myself happy but it's just not working 》 I get these thoughts that invade my brain》 and I wish I could skip over them, like a bad song 》but I can't, I'm just stuck///

You'll be lonely forever,
If you let the negativity get to you.
You'll be lonely forever,
If you let it eat you up
And swallow you.
So you get stuck.
Your hole is deeper now,
And it's dark,
So dark,
That you can't see
The thousands of hands reaching out for you.
Yeah,
You'll be lonely forever,
While we all reach out to you.

Unneccessary comments,
Sharp breaths,
And sighs.
Meaningless words thrown around
Hitting me,
Accidentally.
Unnecessary comments,
Sharp breaths,
And sighs.
Try not to take it personally,
Breathe in,
Out now.

I wish I was more than a convenience to you
You know exactly what you do
You only come to me when it's easy for you
You know exactly what you do
When you come to me with something for me to do
For you
I wish it was just as easy for you
To come to me when I need someone to talk to
Did you ever think it's not easy
For me
To do everything you ask me to

I'm getting used to not sleeping again.
Their voices, they ring inside my head.
It's getting harder to breathe again.
Each day, it fills me with dread.

You're choking me.
Can't you see, I cannot breathe.
Can't you see, your words smother me.
Almost as if your hands were wrapped around my throat.
I can't swallow,
I try and spit at your words,
But you spit in my face.
You're choking me,
Give me some space.