I have come back
to that same place
where I first started
I don’t really know
what to feel about that
Piecing the life,
back to its shape
Tearing it apart
and decorating it again
Every time, in a different way.

The manual they gave,
the directions they made,
I am following it
just the way they said
Despite walking ahead
there is this feeling
in the corner of my head
Why do I still feel so lost?
when I am walking the path they led.

It’s a tested game,
played over and over again
Gave me all the cheats,
on how to win
Told me all the rules
on how to stay in the lane
But all I wanted to do,
was escape.

Some said follow your heart
Some said dream with your mind
But did they know?
The heart gives no directions
And the mind gives no satisfaction.

I knew I was a coward,
didn’t have enough courage.
There were so many words,
but I just couldn’t say.
A lost mind with a scared heart,
there were too many risks
that I couldn’t take.
I repeated like a speech,
all the things I wanted to say.
But I ran out of words
as soon as I saw your face.
It happens more often than not,
sentences like “I love you a lot”
vanishes right before it forms.
I can’t even chalk it up to insecurities
when I know exactly why I can’t get
pass these terminologies.
That saying the truth,
the persona of my love
wouldn’t mean a thing
when all you want is
to quench your thirst,
rather than savor our love.