I Saw her beauty
         Its really beyond compare
I hope to keep near

Time to celebrate around the world,
called by many names
from many lands.

A time of gathering,
family yearly, time to caught up,
learning of missed moments of the year.

Looking back with thoughts,
moments and great cheer,
how we gathered around the tree opening gifts.

Coming to this time of year, memories bringing tears.

Thoughts grow strong,
wishing to relive some of that happy life.
But, there is no tree, there are no lights
or friends or family to share the days and nights.

Sitting all alone
on this night as the world celebrates
together in joy and happiness.

As I sit looking out at the world,
Wishing to be with friends and family.
Tears run down my cheek, I'm not at peace.
Loneliness my only friend.

Check on your neighbors who may be alone, you can cause a smile with just a little heart.

Finding ourselves suffering in pain of a lost love,
consider it a life experience, that will help you grow.
For even when you find what you think you are searching for in love,
you will still be searching for the next experience.
No love will solve your problems in life completely.
There is forever, a horizon in life.

Sometimes my yesterday's and today's become one

Sleep deprived with no sleep

Adrenaline flowing on a slow drip

It flows through my veins to my brain

Brings me to a point where I am still reasonable sane

You hear divorce
You get divorced
What is divorce

Is it Infidelity
Is it Lies
Is it Abuse

Infidelity equals no respect
Lies equals no respect
Abuse equals no respect

Stop lying to yourself and have some respect
It fell apart
Due to no respect.

The day bright with sun light
as I think of her dark eyes,
******* the other side of the world.

her ruby lips of red
hair like dark silk,
skin of alabaster.

wanting this day
to be close to her
and hold her near.

My Island Girl Dream.

As young men oft' do,
with thoughts of
places far away and love.

Places seen,
viewed from another
camera eye.....
Sometimes, still;
yet, often moving,
the image of
a beach bums life.

Many years
have passed
thinking back
to dreams of life,
the wishes of youth.

Turning my head to rest.
Finding it all,
in Island Girl
of my dreams.....

laying next to me.

Rain falls on the island,
as she
dodges rain drops
while she runs from tree
to tree,
in an attempt to
stay dry.

Finally she comes
to the meeting
place of her
lover.
They take cover
under the
canopy of the trees.

As they embrace
and trace
their fingers
over each
others bodies.
She reaches
between and touches him.

He traces
his fingers
down along
her body,
feeling the softness,
and curves of her body,
as he kisses her neck.

She guides him
to the soft ground
and they move to
become one
as she opens
to accept the warmth
of his body.

Sitting with my thoughts this night.
Not sure of my future
which seems to not exist.

Taking my time now to check the edge.
Shiny and smooth with the sharpness
of a surgeon's scalpel.

Leaving nothing to chance tonight,
I've locked all the doors and windows tight.
Disconnected the phone, even stopped the mail.

They say a hot bath will do the trick,
feeling no pain as the blade comes down.
Skillfully across my wrist, from the outside in.

Slowly now, but deep enough
I failed before, but not this time
Success is mine, I wait no more, the time is now.

Feeling better now, very relaxed,
drifting into a very dark sleep,
as I say goodnight, but really goodbye.

As I grow older
And look back in time
I have no regret for all time

I have loved and lost
And loved again
And again

As my life past by
And boy did it fly
But then again

That's Life

Now I had a vision
When a youth
Of being 20 and out of my youth

Now I look on that vision
When no longer a youth
Not past my prime and I hope not my youth

But the turn of an ankle the lift of skirt and I remember my youth

I've grown tired of labels in life
Are you White
Are you Black
Are you Asian
Are you Green

There are so many labels in life
Are you Muslim
Are you Jewish
Are you Catholic
Are you Agnostic

They continue to put labels in life
Are you a homeowner
Are you a renter
Are you in an apartment
Are you in a house

They're driving me insane labels in life
Are you Democrat
Are you Republican
Are you Green
Are you Independent

What does it mean in the big scheme of things????????????????

Nothing at all as the only label that matters is

HUMAN

Many words do leave my pen
along with many thoughts,
dreams and ideas,
expressed with ease.

I go to speak to God,
with many thoughts
of devotion and love.
But my words to God
seem to be lacking,
in the big scheme of things.

Truth comes forth in my mind,
that I have not given
or felt the love,
that I should for my God.

Speaking words of love
to my beloved,
comes easy as my heart
bleeds my love for her.

But is my lack
of words for my God,
because I have not
shown my God the same love,

That he deserves!!

Many go to war,
fewer numbers return.
The pain after returning
is hard to repair.
Missing friends not on the flight.

Memories of fighting
and of death.
Bodies burned,
mutilated and abused,
residing still in the minds eye.

Go on with life,
going forward to live that dream.
But in the dark of night,
demons come out,
displaying in your dreams the
vision still,

war and death.

You cannot hide the burden
carried of lost friends,
that saved your life.
So now you wonder,
why was it me and not them.

Time goes on
but the burden grows heavy
as the mind grows dark with guilt.
Until the weight is to much
to go on living a beautiful life not deserved.

It will end tonight as I cannot bare the pain beyond this point.

Rain tease us lately
         Baking earth lately.

Lakes are low lately
         Rivers are low lately

Trees die lately
          Grass dies lately

Prices up lately
           Money down lately

Suffering up lately
            Happiness down lately

Prayers up lately
              Attendance down lately

                               Looking at life lately

                                                               Sad lately

Life is but as strong as the love which binds it.

"Up and downs come in many forms in life. One of those that seems to be close to most everyone's heart, according to polls. They just wanted to know life expectancy. How we have improved with our new and improved medical care. The things they found seemed to create a bit of concern you see. Our life expectancy while gaining over a 100 years, over around 40 years of life was not the best.

The fact that brought concern is we were not first nor second nor third. Yet didn't we have the best medicine to be had in the world? They told us that was so. So consider the fact that USA is 34th. Now we can find many things to blame this on. I may be wrong, but I have a thought.

First do we need to improve our medical care, of course we do. Are we that far behind? Second you see, seems to be a small piece of the puzzle left out. They only look at numbers and not the cause.. We as a country for years and years, fight the wars and battles around the world. Right or wrong I do not really care, but a conclusion I would like to share.

While improving our medical care, I think a big jump in longevity could be near. If we stop sending young boys to war to be men. Yet they so often come home broken or draped in a flag.

Well remember “They”, who are close to “Them”.

Well in conclusion and in my view, “They” and “Them”, should be replaced by “We”. Just as the first word of our constitution says. Remember the Constitution, I'm not sure, but I think, “They” and “Them” , have buried it behind the bureaucratic world or our private government world."

My life, when viewed,
Like crossing an expansive desert,
watching the sand, under my feet.

Looking back,
my foot prints have dissolved
into bits of nothingness.

Looking ahead,
there is no path,
to guide me.

Looking down, my imprint in the sand,
This moment is all I really have,
As we all do.

So savor the moment where you stand.
Choose your path wisely.

Savor each moment, not because it may be your last, but because it may be the greatest moment in your life.

Drifting into the nothingness
that I allow my mind to wander to
or at least that is the story
I want to be told if I slip between the folds.

Expectations are small,
a small piece of happiness
for all, with a special place with my love.
Which makes life real.

Ups and downs go by in life,
but if you have a constant
undying love,
only the bright sunshine of day will shine through.

Showing you the lighted way!

Lightning strikes earth
                     Exploding timber and grass
Flames licking tree tops

Have come long distance
                Looking for the light of life
That my love provides

Our children may falter in the journey of life,
Yet, there will always be hope,
Along with a light,
As we await their return.

Falling into the abyss of love.
Lost in the depth of my passion for you.

Finding no satisfaction for my infatuation,
but by holding you against me.

Looking into your eyes,
your soft skin silken to my touch.

Then gently as our lips
touch softly for just a moment.

Bringing fire to my soul, passion to my heart,
knowing your love, for all time is real.

In times of quiet when I think
The future of our life
I think of what would be if you
My love, were lost from my world

In this time I see myself
Lost in a lonely place
Weeping for the one I lost
My love, who has left my world

In present time I know myself
Feeling just this way for you
Weeping for the one I lost
My love, who has left my world