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Jared Eli Aug 2013
Maybe Dylan's right, so I'll ****** my hand up high
And try to grasp an answer 'fore it blows across the sky
He warned me once of how the unchanging never fit
Into this world that always has to change at least a bit
Oh Dylan how your words can gently lift
My head from down where it has been in the darkened mental rift
I need your songs, your words, your cheer, because you've given me
The Vague Hope that I've needed to have the strength to be
An aged oak, a sapling pine, a brush of little mind
Thank you for your wisdom, Bob, you're always much too kind
Jared Eli Oct 2016
Melancholy midnights spent waiting on your touch
But the head on my chest is nothing but mem'ry
As you stay away and I stay alone
Waiting and waiting
Til you break this stone
Emerges the heart from out of its case
And there you stand, hammer in hand
Breaking through to me
Melancholy midnights imagining your touch
But the feeling of warmth is just in my head
The truth of the night makes the stone fill with lead
And cemented, encased in a lead-fashioned jacket
The ***** within is protected from your radiance
As portrayed by my mind
And I stay alone
Waiting and waiting
I ache for you
Jared Eli Dec 2023
There are moments when I don't think of you.
When I don't remember.
I am blissfully whisked along in the swirling eddies of forgetful fog.

Always when the fog clears, you are there.
Rather, you are not there and I remember.

I remember the way a silhouette remembers— the outline of the place you once were stands stark against the background that is.
I blend into the background and you pop as a silhouette.
Your figure cuts me, sharper than knives and deeper than the despair I feel at having lost you.
Can you lose something if you know where it is?

I spend so many moments thinking of where we used to be and remembering where we are now.
Jared Eli Dec 2013
I accept the challenge
With open arms
And loaded gun
Jared Eli Aug 2013
Mirror, mirror
On the wall
Who will catch me
When I fall?

Mirror, mirror
In my room
Why'd they take me
From the womb?

Mirror, mirror
In my sleep
Who sees my tears
When I weep?

Mirror, mirror
In my head
Show the Me
Who isn't dead
Jared Eli Nov 2013
Take up your arms , boys, down at the ferry
Purge the evil with the blood
Blood of us
Blood of them
Blood of my father and your father
And our father's fathers
Tainted with turning the other cheek
Or openly accepting
The life degraded through *******
Take up your arms, boys
For martyrdom is a far better pedastol
When formed of the bodies of the innocent
Jared Eli Dec 2012
Mr. Steele bit my hand, but Mr. Steele knows
Where the poison lies (inside), though it never shows
Mr. Steele showed the way, to cope with things unfair
From anything to everything, like hate, hurt, or despair
Mr. Steele is my friend, he's wicked and he's cruel
Can't he be? Or mustn't he? Is that not the rule?
Mr. Steele makes me be, a smiling, caring soul
Regardless of my mental state, regardless of the toll
Mr. Steele and Mr. Wall are two figurative characters I use...
Jared Eli Aug 2013
Mr. Wall if I needed you ever, it's now
I've lost the want, the drive, the spark
Mr. Wall I just need you to please show me how
To avoid the inevitable; build Noah's Ark

Take me away from this drowning feeling
Mr. Wall take me somewhere that's warm
Steady my head, for my poor mind is reeling
Harbor me now from this storm

Mr. Wall, I'm afraid of what I might do
What I might, in bad judgement, decide
Mr. Wall keep me safe. Please! I beg you!
Grasp firmly and stand by my side

I feel myself slipping, Mr. Wall, my good friend
I need you to show me the way
To stop all these thoughts from achieving the end
Please Mr. Wall, let me stay.
Jared Eli Aug 2017
My baby and me, we dream together
Of life beyond the green
We dream without the holds of now
We dream of life unseen
My darling and I prepare for life
That eventually will be
A life together, a life forever
With just my baby and me
Jared Eli Apr 2013
I want to be a butterfly in a hurricane
The winds will surround my fragile body
Every raindrop will be as a bullet, ripping through my silken flesh
The hurricane and I will become one and I will feel its power course through me
We shall rip the Earth into a new shape befitting our anger and love
Every uprooted tree, every split open house will be our songs to the world
Our songs will echo through the ages and I will show them all, that a butterfly can make a change
If only with the help of a hurricane
Jared Eli Aug 2013
One day I'll write a book and it'll be a comedy
The world will laugh, and I'll just cry 'cause it will be all about me
My autobio that I'll write may make the masses smile
But deep inside my ****** heart I'll be hurting all the while
What chuckles! And what laughs! As they read from year to year
About my killer migraines or about my secret fear
They'll list their favorite quotes as if they'll keep them in their head
To tell with knock-knock jokes to kids when the conversation's dead
Yes, I'll become immortal as I always wished I'd be
But immortality in jest just equates to misery
Jared Eli Jan 2021
Open-window beauty
           I see through
Your windows
           I see you
Let me in on all
          The stories
Let me see you
           Always
c. 2019
Jared Eli Sep 2013
Trouble in paradise, they all say
But there's no trouble in my little rowboat
I'll row my way
Through Banality Bay
Past the pain and humiliation
Of being duped and duplicated
And it'll all be fine
So long as I'm at the oars
And you're at the tiller
Jared Eli Dec 2012
I'm keeping my soul in a little red book
The cover is torn up, it's true
Some pages fall out when the poor thing gets shook
But I'm keeping myself here for you
Jared Eli Dec 2015
I used to write words a mile a minute, like my mind was on fire and nothing would stop the burning except words
And then you
You stopped the burning and I lost my breath and the words stopped pouring out of me. . .
It was because until you, I had no voice
I was coasting on the momentum of a thousand hands before me, pushing a thousand phrases into the same old form on the page
I was a copycat thief, stealing what I knew, because what I knew was safe
I thought what I knew was safe
What I knew. . . But I knew you, and I fell in love
And falling in love is not safe
Falling in love is like every other version of falling, except people don't believe it can happen as easily as they believe that falling down stairs can happen
Falling down stairs happens every day
Falling in love does not
But the vulnerability is still present in each, and I knew it and it was not safe
I knew you and you were not safe
I lost my stolen words, and I had to find new ones
New words that I did not steal, but these new words are still ******
These new words are a six year old taking the bike out for the first time and scraping his knees ******
These new words are a trip to Disneyland when you're very young and you've lost your parents and you can't enjoy the park because you're terrified that they'll leave without you
These new words aren't worth ****
But they're worth everything
They're worth everything because they're new
They aren't stolen
They are harder
I can't fit them into the shapes I have seen
They're a DIY project gone terribly wrong, but I keep at it, because it's a project we're both working on
I'm burning my hands with the hot glue gun, and you're coated in glitter glue
But we're doing it together
And these new words are part of the process
Part of the danger
Part of what I knew, but what I know now is you
I know you, and you're showing me the ropes, as we read the manual
Jared Eli Oct 2013
Let me kiss you
Just once
On the cheek
So my curiousity can finally be
Satiated
I want to feel your soft skin
Brush against my lips
As I pull back from your face
"I bit your ear," I say
And you laugh
Because I only kissed you
No biting here
Jared Eli Oct 2013
I've been sitting on the fence too long
Too long have I allowed myself
The luxury of not committing
Of simply sitting
Sitting on the fence

I must commit to something
Anything but myself
For I am too far gone
An untamed lawn
Filled with broken bottles

Left or right in or out up or down
Where do my loyalties lie?
Some days I want war
But an oath I swore
To be a pacifist eternal
Jared Eli Sep 2013
Someday, someone might find my poetry
And they'll quote me
To me
And I will tell them they are wrong
But you said it here, they say
And they'll point down at the page of my writing
Sorry, I'll say, I couldn't have written it
I sold my hands to buy cigars
Then I'll light a match
And walk away
Jared Eli May 2015
It seems the worst of the waves are yet to come
The rough before the storm
As I sit in my newspaper boat, afloat
In a sea deep with regret
Waves topple, I tumble, boat falls asunder
Can I stay afloat?
Donning cap like Edmund, grab the ship debris
But it's not news to me
And the waves crash harder, deeper I go
'til my feet touch the bottom and I feel Peter
He's trying to go home, but this is not the way
I emerge and here I find, the best for last has stayed behind
And a wave of enormous proportions crashes down
I'm churned like a washing machine
Growing dizzy as the stains are erased
But I loved the stains; they made me who I was
The wave pops me out, and I see who I am
And it's not news to me
No, it's not news to me
Jared Eli Oct 2013
I'm obsessed with the vision's edge
How we look straight but there's always a sideview
Looking right through
The glass of a picture frame
The image splattered my name
On every newspaper, a cheap kind of fame
The sideview shows the real me
The kind of person who I'd be
If I'd sent this body out to sea
In that funeral pyre blazing to the sky
Mom and Dad think that I'm too young to die
But you're never too young to be that one guy
Your friends see on the tv with a nice little snippet
Of how you hated your thread so you got up and clipped it
But your parents will talk to the reporters and flip it
Say you were so great, so happy and nice
Always the one to give the good advice
The one crossing the street as you looked both ways twice
And the truth is you were already cold as ice
You tried to cry out but they nodded with grins
And they looked at you pondering and stroking their chins
And in this situation there's no one that wins
Because there's always a bridge or a cliff to jump off
When the stress level rises set off by a cough
Or you just up and choose to dive into the trough
And get eaten by pigs, digit by digit
And since you don't give a ****, you don't even fidget
When they bite off your legs and leave you a ******
But size doesn't matter, you're dead in a few
And it's not as if you have to choose what to do
In the end your fate is just pay per view
Because you'll be there, it's you that is dying
But the life negation requires none of your trying
So you can sit back relax and just watch it
There's more than one way so it's hard to botch it
Your death is the end, because there's nothing else to it
You once had a life but you up and you blew it
There was **** to be done but you just said "***** it"
And it's true, it's your life, and you have control
But before you eat lead, put the thought on parole
Give yourself minutes or days to rethink
A miscalculation of that size would stink
Set up some goals, some silly, some not
Of things to accomplish before you hit the black cot
Where they stick all the toe-tagged
The black-bagged
The life-gagged
The death-filled
The over-pilled
All those singing from their throats
Bleeding like goats
From the knife wounds like Abraham
Would've done in just seconds, ****
But the voiceless have no spokesman saying
"Hey world, there was no point in staying!"
There's always a point, and you've just got to find it
Once you do, wrap your mind and bind it
Obsess yourself with the point of staying
Remember the steepest price you'll be paying
Sometime in the future, but now be braying
The call of the stubborn, those that won't leave
The ******* with something in which to believe
I'm one of those ******* and we need more members
To warm up the cold of Depression Decembers
Obsessing about the vision's edge
The only thing that kept me on the safe side of the ledge
When I was seconds from falling down
The sideview turned my *** around
Gotta find the source of the curious periphery
Curiousity killed the cat, but the sideview saved me
Jared Eli Aug 2013
Here's an ode to myself, or what I once was
For each day we change and begin
To become different people and it's okay because
Sometimes we need to be different to win

Here's an ode to myself, or what I  won't be
Because I've ventured this path for too long
My eyes closed, I fumbled, and failed to see
All the good deeds in life and the wrong

Here's an ode to myself, for I've never once heard
That it's taboo to talk of one's self
Though truth be told I could use that one word
That I padlocked away on the shelf

Here's an ode to myself, or as much of an ode
That will ever be written to me
For I fear in the future all poems will bode
An ill sort of meaning for me
Jared Eli Oct 2013
Your face is lit up from the light on the screen
As you type on the only place you're ever seen
Press the control keys, make yourself jump
20 years crouching over gave your back a ****
You're following that woman with long flowing hair
High cheekbones, long ears, and she's going somewhere
You're led to a boat, though you've never been trained
To sail a three-masted beaut, it has been ingrained
For instructions are soon to pop before your eyes
With large flashing arrows hanging in the skies
You grasp at the rope and hoist up the anchor
And you turn to the woman to possibly thank her
She's there for a moment, but gone when you cough
The words in the air spell out: *She logged off
Jared Eli Dec 2013
You've got a lead-filled crown atop your head
Tilts forward and backward
Like a swaying pendulum
Heavy is the head, they say
But you'd know better than they would
So tell me, how does it feel?
To have all the power
All the knowledge
All the glory?
How does it feel
To know that every failure
Every death
Every illness
Every act of hatred on this earth
Is your fault?
To be omnipotent
You must accept all actions as your own
You are the most responsible
For all the actions
That have taken place
Look in the mirror and see infinity
Because you created yourself to create entirety
And the best part is
All this guilt
Will be forgotten
All the shame
Will be forgotten
All the dehumanizing things you feel
Will be forgotten
And the depth to which you sunk
Will be forgotten
And the powers you might wield
Will be forgotten
When you wake
For only in dreams
Can you control as you did before
Jared Eli Feb 2015
Every night, I ask Orion:
Watch over and protect her
Jared Eli Apr 2013
You slapped me today
In the face
On the jaw
And I need to tell you
That you slap like a girl
Jared Eli Apr 2013
It was a night like this, ten years ago
That your mother and I were snowed in
There was no way for us to get out of that cabin
I looked at her
Her eyes were filled with terror
I took her hand
She kissed me
And we conceived you on the kitchen floor.
Jared Eli Sep 2013
Please do not patronize me when I've done it already
Because the two actions compound on one another like atomic bombs
And I can't take the force
Can't take the heat
I'm not the Hulk
And I'm melting slowly inside already
I'm Chernoble
Fill me up with concrete
Cover the mistake with the plain gray of overlooking
Because maybe if w don't look at the mistake
The huge ******* disaster that we figured would happen
The huge scar left, the hole we tried to close
"It'll never happen to us" we said
"It'll never happen to anyone we know" we said
Yet here we are, I'm in here and you're out there
Looking sad because the pain you feel through empathy
Is just the self projection your selfconscience made me into
The extension of yourself
You're sad because I am you
[Hypocrite.]
But that's okay, because that's society
We act as one trying to avoid being the one while claiming we are ONE searching for The One
We are all hypocrites living in the gray of overlooking
The gray matter where electroshocks go off telling us in binary that we are the superior mind
Nothing else will master us
"We are invincible" says the idiot
"We are magnificent" says the optimist
"We are human"
Because we are
We are all human
Though that word is over-used and tied to a defiant and apologetic connotation
Like an excuse we were born to give
Because society wears the coat that says "No Excuses"
But the pockets are filled with slips of paper saying things like:
"I'm just one person"
"I didn't know"
"It seemed good at the time"
We are all suckers about something once
So don't patronize me
Don't patronize my actions
When I give a streetlight a serenade
Kneeling like my leg was taken by a hand grenade
Gesturing out like a grand wedding proposal
Using all the arm length at my disposal
Don't patronize and judge
When my eyes don't budge
Maybe the cloud really is that interesting
The cloud in the gray of overlooking
That overlooks us all
That overlooks everything
Like a reverse oxygen mask
It never felt so good
To suffocate
I love you guys (Evelyn and Sean)
Jared Eli Dec 2013
Maybe someday I'll throw darts at pictures that aren't you
Jared Eli Oct 2013
Petty problems intoxicate
Liberate inebriate
All I have are petty problems
And the petty people
Who began them

But let's not point the finger
Let's not draw comparisons
Let's not do these things
That make me realize
How senseless
These issues are

Because without the issues
Without the conflict
Where can the ****** be?
The exposition
That shows nothing
What point does it all have?

Give me a reason
A flow to my story
Even if it is petty
Just let me have it
The reason moves me
More than the pettiness
Disappoints me
Jared Eli Aug 2013
Mr. Wall, where have you gone?
You've left me here, my friend
I'm not strong enough... I cannot
Cope nor self-defend

I need you now to listen close
To all the things inside
To you I'll make all visible
All things I've had to hide

Mr. Wall listen, please!
Oh, where are you now?
Mr. Wall I just need you
To support me as friends do
For I fear that I might
Be just
at the end
of my rope
Jared Eli Sep 2013
On a night no different than
The others that abound
I spotted six unsavory men
Together, hanging around

I told meself, "Now looks at them
They seem a likely lot
What may have stole me puddin packs
Right out me secret ***."

I thoughts a bit then took a chance
I walked into their midst
I told about the puddin stole
And ask 'em if they didst

They laughed a bunch and thought me for jestin'
But 'twasn't I what told them jokes
And when they saw I was being earnest
They gave me slaps and pokes

I thought I saw a blinkin light
Above me twisted head
But twas only lights of painfulness
Like parts of me was dead

I never found me puddin packs
And it truly made me sad
Cos I was to make puddin cake
For me child what wasn't bad
Jared Eli Sep 2018
They bought up the bands first.
Every half-bit guitarist with some ripped
denim clothing jumped at the chance
to have more than bus fare to the next gig.

They bought up the bands and they
turned them into Spam.
Canned meat that is meant never to expire,
meant to be shipped to islands all over the world,
large and small.

Packaged, processed, made of who knows what.
It says what on the can, on the band, sure.
After all, who’s ever met a label that couldn’t be
doctored or fudged or a flat-out lie?

They bought up the music and the music flowed,
heavy with propaganda pollutants,
and we all changed our minds.

Our minds were worn as riverbeds are worn
as the music flowed through like a river flows through.
And the smokes we smoked were the smokes they smoked,
industry-purchased, paper-wrapped cancers.
And the shares went higher and the music played louder
and the bad that was turned worse
until everything turned from flowing to forcing
and the music was the ocean, large and terrible and murderous,
with things deeper and darker lurking beneath.

They bought up the bands and the music
and they wiggled their music-wedge into
the doorway of the tube, the telly, the tv, the idiot box.
After all, what’s so big a leap that the ocean of
the machine that is industry-music can’t manage?

They bought up the music, they converted us.
They bought up the television, they led us by the nose
like  ducklings, like lemmings.
They made us believe in art, believe in something
with lead-based paint covering the ***-metal caricature
of something that had been, long long ago,
but which never was, not truly.

Politics is pervasive, and politics pushes through.
The biggest stack pushes the players around,
makes the little guy fold even if he’s got a royal flush.
Because the biggest stack bought the half-bit guitarists
and the music and the television and all of us, bit by bit.

The biggest stacks have been buying us, every one.
And each of us has chosen sides, multiple sides,
because we don’t know what we’re fighting for,
but we know we’re fighting and we know we’re being bought.
It’s a difficult war we’re all fighting, alone and together.
A difficult series of seemingly pointless battles,
and we’re being bought and sold all the while.

But isn’t it nice to be wanted.
Jared Eli Jun 2013
Read me first says instructions on the desk
But who reads me first?
I'd be an open book if you took me off the shelf
I love you.
Could you read that on the spine?
I'll say it again, if you think I'm stuttering
I love you.
All these fears, I'll put them away for you
Because, **** it, there's no place in love for fear
Jared Eli Oct 2013
A regret is like a bomb
In your intestines:
I don't have one
I don't want one
I'm not going to be an idiot
And put one inside myself
Nor will I let other people
Put one in me
I will die
Before I allow myself to become
The object of suicide bombings
Because that's what regrets do
They don't just **** you
From the inside out
They take collateral damage
And **** your friends and the
People around you
Regrets are one of the worst
Afflictions to have
Jared Eli Oct 2017
I am a guerilla warfare tactician in a state of fight and flight;
I drop words and phrases like cheap explosives
And I head for the hills when the chickens come home to roost.
99% of all things I have ever said are extinct in my memory,
Having died there almost immediately after their conception.
I am a walking mausoleum of thought, well populated,
And reeking of neglect.
I try to remember, but for the life of me, I can't.
I've forgotten what I meant to say, or if I've said it already.

Just wait, because someday I'll be old and feeble-minded

And as I sit and stare in a hospital chair
Catching the eye of the nurse walking by
I'll wonder, "Do I know her? Is she my daughter?"
And I'll pretend 'til the end I've the answer
Jared Eli Dec 2013
That my breath will always be left at your feet
Jared Eli Dec 2013
There once was a boy who was but a slender
Line in a portrait or a smudge on a fender
Nothing more than would be passed by your eye
Was the boy so young who did nothing but cry

The world was a cruel one, but he wasn't so tainted
His picture more perfect than of David's statue painted
But the world would soon tear this boy apart
It would end in the mind what began in the heart

You see, innocence thrives where ignorance rules
For blissfulness is the kindest of the ignorant's tools
But this boy would be taught to feel and to hurt
His tears turned to ash as they fall from lips to dirt

He was now cold and ****** and swore
His opinions had changed when his brother died in the war
There was no point to heaven and less point to hell
When they called out your name, you either stood up or fell

Chipped bricks covered in posters past
Graffiti from people of phrases that last
Like one-liners, humourless, gaining a laugh
And the three-word with the sketch of a heart cut in half

The best philosophes of this past generation
Write thoughts on the wall from their closed imagination
And the boy with his eyes red grew darker
As he reached in his pocket and pulled out a marker

With a couple quick slashes a ballot was drawn
And he labeled the man in the voting booth "pawn"
Underneath it he wrote what might be a phrase
That just didn't catch on in those olden days:

It said, "A stone cast down as in defeat
Will hit thine foot before the street
For he who gives up his voting right
Will have no say in where we fight."

The boy capped the pen and he walked away
He had written down all that he wanted to say
His hands now were smudged from the marks on the wall
And he thought to himself, "In short time, it'll fall"

Right around the corner he was halted by the law
"You thought no one was watching, but guess what, kid? I saw.
The truth is, you're right, we vote for our wars
But the man up on top of the nation? He's yours."

The boy smiled slightly, for this cop was wrong
And he reached deep past the tears in himself to be strong
"That man isn't mine; he approved of this war
And congress has made my brother break the oath that he swore"

The cop looked at boy and the boy at the cop
They weren't talking graffiti, but the man up on top
Two strangers, two people, agreeing the fact
That the choice on the ballot was a serious act

"Most kids don't realize just what a vote can mean
They don't attribute the choice to the step in between
Old ideas corrupted or improved upon
All they know is their voice can make the other guy gone"

The boy nodded and looked the cop right in the eye
Saying, "This president let my brother ship out to die
If you try to make us think that his empathy wasn't fake
Contradiction in contrite diction will no conviction make

"You can't justify death because the harder you try
The more your arguments fade like the clouds in the sky
But before they dissolve and assimilate with the air
They leave behind pain to show that they were there"

The cop nodded, waved, and went back to the beat
More hoodlums and lost souls to help off the street
He passed a dark alley and his instincts erupted
His mind yelling to him, "Check for something corrupted!"

So he turned down in darkness to check out the spot
It looked like a place where blackmarket is hot
The fungus and mold that once grew peeled off
Leaving yellowish stains and the urge to cough

A voice near the brickwork called out saying, "Hey,"
"If it's not to much trouble, mister, couldja stay?
See honest to goodness, mister, I tried to stay clean
But when you take your own product, separation is mean"

"I don't know exactly who is to blame"
Said cop to the girl he could see but not name
"There's no one to blame," said the girl to the man
"There's things that will happen, and with time they all can

"For a creature that thrives on flesh alone
Will bite through the skin to steal the bone
And he must be careful, lest he find
That he's been feasting upon his own behind"

"Yes, sometimes it's true: Desire drives us too fast
Sometimes to places where sanity's long since passed
But sanity's fleeting and must be sought after
Come; let me find you some lodgings and laughter"

"No, mister! I'm a lost cause, my fate's without hope!
Permit me now to symbolize: I'm at the end of my rope!"
"Now miss don't you think like that, No one's soldered to their fate
Such thinking will confine you like a cage with bitter bait!"

This world's harsh and confusing and you've had the short stick
But don't let hopelessness be the only thing that's gonna make you tick
Like treading water in the ocean, panic makes you die
Find beauty out of terror, spread your arms and fly!"

The girl sat there blinking. She'd never heard such talk
She'd never been another thought on anybody's walk
"Now let me tell you, I'm not short on self doubt
But I've got to say: that's not what it's all about

See I met this boy earlier, who told me his story
About how the status of the world often makes him worry
This boy's actin' out, but he'll turn out just fine
But if you're giving up hope, then you're crossing the line

Because we've never needed Merry Men and Robin Hood
To stand up at bugle-call to turn the world good
We just need to remember: We're in it forever!
Fight the urge to look upward and shout angrily, 'Never!'

The world, good and bad, is mixed unto itself
And you can't take you your recipe book from the shelf
And add pinches of falsehoods like seasonings for a mask
You must fix it internally, for that is your task

See, though you've given up, that's something I just won't allow
You're gonna go out and fix it, let somebody show you how
Because there's more than one way to a proper conclusion
Some ways are hard and still others illusion

But become obsessed with the truth, with doin' things right
Become a shining green beacon to lead others at night
Promise me, here and now, in this alley proclaim!
That you will set forth and make good of your name."

The girl gently nodded and as time's hands were wound
She grew like a flower from that dank piece of ground
It's the tiny conversations that can so alter life
And cut the crust of complication like a peace-bringing knife

The boy with his brother who'd gone up in the fight
Was just like the cop said: he turned out alright
He put his mind to better things, gave up the childish art
And in the realm of history, his bio did its part

Because he realized how tangible the change he wanted was
He set aside resentments as the true reformer does
He spoke of love, acceptance. . . And then switched to compromise
Because when you're just a visionary, the vision always dies

He used the good and bad to weld a better, stronger, net
To catch the lost and lonely, his was the best support to get
He filled the heads of others with the change that he once viewed
And little inch by little inch corruption and violence met with feud

A verbal dispute filled with picketing people
Who shouted, "Change!" from their electronic steeple
And the media members had themselves a field day
As they caught on the camera what the boy had to say:

"Too often we forget, that apathy isn't peace
But we allow ourselves to be served it by the leaders filled with grease
And we skip along, ignoring things that should rightly upset us
Bombs abroad are wholly fine but not the one that's gonna get us

We've got to think of the whole picture, got to figure out the puzzle
Though you think the lion's fierce, it always has time to nuzzle
So let's switch the view and take on that trait
And put aside the thought that nuzzling can wait."

The cop saw the boy who was on T.V.
And said to himself, "that kid talked to me!
He smiled a bit, "his speech is pleasing as a wren
And in the case of my boasting, I'll say I knew him when!"

The girl wasn't taped, but she was out changing lives
By having conversations that we've likened to knives
And so it was when time was up on the impending revolution
Armed with words she voyaged forth to fufill her resolution

The boy and she stood side by side and led the people on
And using power words of choice, the old regime was gone
What started out as compromise, effloresced to peace and love
And the cop the two had talked to nodded at boy and girl above

A change in heart, a change in mind, can spark a worldly change
Though originality is difficult, ideas can rearrange
To fit the modern times, and indeed to mold it best
And the answer's sometimes difficult, but as we all know: life's a test

This boy and girl were lost, then found, and so was their whole world
And their string of conversations were around their finger curled
Reminding them that there was out there a better way to live
And revolution was the message that the cop had had to give
Jared Eli Mar 2013
Room 3327 had a 'Do not Disturb'
But that didn't stop the maid
She walked with her shoes lightly scuffed from the curb
To clean up the room and get paid

Room 3327 reeked foul
And the maid reached to cover her nose
The coth that she grabbed was no cotton towel
But rather a dead man's own clothes

The lights had turned off when the old man died
And the town seemed to wonder the cause
They said power failure but all knew they lied
It was just that the time was on pause

The old man had locked all his files away
And though through his belongings they searched
They still cannot find, not even today
The things that in his mind were perched

The old man was magic, or maybe a god
Whatever he was, he was dead
The coroner came and wrapped up the old ***
Without knowing the gold in his head

The man never slept, and the irony shouted
To all those who knew him awake
The perpetual slumber that they had all doubted
Was now taking place as they spake

He had turned the lights on
And let the town live
But now that he's gone
He's nothing to give
This was inspired by Nikola Tesla
Jared Eli Aug 2013
Sand and glass, glass and sand
In my face, in my hand
Sculpting me as I demand
Sand and glass, glass and sand

Sand and glass, glass and sand
Dancing with me, feeling grand
Ace of spades and a big brass band
Sand and glass, glass and sand

Sand and glass, glass and sand
Crushed beneath my soggy feet
Tip-toe gently, what a treat
Biting more than you can eat
Thought that she was oh so sweet
Never mind, I can't be beat
Here, the bodies hit the street
As I cut them down like wheat
Sand and glass, glass and sand

Sand and glass, glass and sand
In my face, in my hand
Sculpting me as I demand
(just a dream, it wasn't real
wasn't true, how can I feel
a beating, rushing, flutter-pulse
my mind and heart as one convulse
cannot stop the great illusion
leading me into confusion
what is real what is fake
have I made a grave mistake?
cannot be, it mustn't be
bring forth my reality)

Sand and glass, glass and sand
Falling from my bleeding hand
No more follows my command
Sand and glass, glass and sand
Jared Eli Dec 2012
Santa's on the corner, ringing the brass bell
Roast is in the oven and a family starts to yell
Snow is lightly falling, like sugar-dusting for a cake
People wrapping and re-gifting someone's small mistake
Counting hours, filling glasses, mirth is overflowing
Fixing up the house's lights, now it's really snowing!
Adding up expenses and then checking inventory
Reading as the children watch their favorite Christmas story
Snuggled up or stretching out, reclaiming lost couch space
Sliding under mistletoe, caressing lover's face
Living in this moment, drinking it all in
Trying to remember just what a year it's been
Jared Eli Dec 2012
Second Best is hard to be
Second Best is lame
Second Best has come to be
My other middle name
Jared Eli Sep 2013
I hold a secret deep inside
(no, not syphilis)
I thought it might be false
But it's true and not a lie at all
And this causes a problem
So listen up and listen well
Just ignore all the signs you see
Because they'll lead you wrong
Just promise to try
Try and avoid the secret
Because it is a problem
If you would read its lore
Jared Eli Oct 2013
I want to be a blade
Held down to the grindstone
Enduring a long
And near endless
Pain
As I am ground away to nothing

I want the stone to tear at my body
Destroying all semblance
Of the life that once was
I want every bone broken
Every vein
Every artery
Every capillary
To be torn open
That the blood of my life might seep forth
Wetting the stone
Slicking it down
To more easily cut into me
And make my existence
Turn to the dust of stone
Jared Eli Apr 2015
You may marvel at my mind
The growing neurotic neural network
Fraught with contradicting folds
Making it more of a maze than a viable brain
And it's taken me this long to realize:
My fragility is not a phase
Because the eggshell cracks do not erase themselves
When the sun comes back around
And I may tell you I am Atlas
But at best, I am the collection of books that stole his name
All I can offer you is the guarantee that I will fall again
And when I say I will fall, I mean out of sanity
I will lose it all at the snap of a finger because the real me
Is three seconds away from a mental break
Two points away from failing
One is the loneliest number and one second was what I needed
A voice to split the darkness and weave it into a rescue rope
So I can belay off this high rise instead of jumping
Because I didn't bring a parachute
No matter how many times I tell you I did
I would rather leap with this knapsack
Than ask for help
Because where I came from, asking for help was admitting your stupidity
Where I came from, asking for help was a whimper escaping your body after you had nearly died
Where I came from, help came at the cost of dignity and self-worth
It's selfish to say that because I know you
You were the one-second sound saving me from certain doom
And the more you know, the more you care
I bury you in my sorrow because I am selfish
Try as I might to hold everything in, I can't
Your mouth says "Tell me"
But your eyes don't want to hurt anymore
And I am Rex Dolor, knocking on your window
Praying you'll be strong enough not to open
Because I was not strong enough not to knock
Jared Eli Mar 2018
Tie up your newspapers
Throw down your caps
Settle in deep
For the rat-tatat-taps

Think awhile, drink awhile
Leave your brain in the sink awhile
For a while it will be before I’m back again
And a while you must stay, apart from me, my friend

So tie up your newspapers
Throw down your caps
Settle in deep
For the rat-tatat-taps
She
Jared Eli Apr 2013
She
Kiss me with your poison lips
You lichen-covered stone
Gaze at me and your face slips
Revealing rotting bone
I see you as you really are:
Driftwood burned and damp
Your beauty's as this road is far
When your portrait is a stamp
Jared Eli Nov 2012
She swayed in the breeze
Beneath those wide willow trees
Like a fragile, fallen angel in white
But though I had started
Her lips remained parted
And I knew then that she was all right

She called to me lightly
Cooing, and, brightly,
I closed several inches of space
I stood as though touching
This miracle clutching
My arm and the side of my face

She pulled me in, then
And I did not know when
The earth had stopped twirling about
But when locked lip-in-lip
And when tongues inward slip
There's no want to find ways to get out
Still in progress... but it came to mind and I had to write it down, lest it slip away...
Jared Eli Jun 2013
She loves me! I read it! Right here in this text!
And it wasn't all sensual and way oversexed!
She said as if it were general knowledge
This thing that I'd never have learned from a college
She said it right now, right before she slept
I'm gonna make sure that this message is kept!
If only I'd courage like she's got to say
"I love you, my darling. Now let's run away!"
But alas, twas not I that courage lay in
I alone am least able to stifle this grin
That appears on my face when I see her at school
I'm stupid and nerdy, and she's so **** cool
She plays in a band and she rocks on the bass
Her sunglasses are never to have left her face
I know that she loves me, and I love her too
But I still feel I'm wary and it makes me blue
To know that she's awesome and I don't add much
Don't bring out the music or talent and such
I'm just like, this guy who  some people might know
Because being outspoken makes a comedy show
But she loves me, she said it! And though I may doubt
That one's on me and you can't help me out
I've got to get through to myself and just say
"Hey kid, you're so young! Take these worries away!"
But I can't so I won't and so they shall stay
To lie in my brain and come out someday
But the point is she loves me! And I love her too!
And no one should doubt it; not I and not you
Jared Eli Dec 2013
I will not see you differently
If that is what you fear
Because I only see you as beautiful
And everything else is just a part of your beauty

I want for you to be happy
Even on the saddest of days
When your eyes so big that they could hold the moon
Hold only tears

If I could hug you for every second
From today until the end of it all
I would
And I'd bite your shoulder slightly
Because that's my way of saying something like I love you

I don't know your truths and lies but I trust you
And someday you might trust me
To contain my odaxelagnia, and bite me
Because science has a sense of humour, and that feels good

So please just talk with me, whenever and for whatever
I know I'm not much help at times
But I will try so hard to not be the opposite of help
Let me in, gorgeous. I want to earn your trust
Jared Eli Aug 2013
She says that she's alright
Instinctively, I ask
"Promise?"
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