wanted it both ways
but i couldn't have that
and now i have neither
yeah i fell flat

my heart is so fickle
and yours so steady
i was trying my hardest
but i just wasn't ready

now it doesn't matter
it's come to an end
i wish i didn't have to
lose a best friend

that's part of the deal
i know that it's true
but i don't really know
what i'm supposed to do

I find it kinda ironic that the people who don't want to see us hurt
Are the only reasons we are hurt in the first place

I make bad decisions
I'm sorry but I'm not
I'm sorry you don't agree with my decisions
I am not sorry for the decisions that I make
I am living life
Let me LIVE

What does this mean?
I'm overthinking again but I can't help it
**** it your smile is stuck in my head
**** it now I can't go to bed
I want to talk to you instead
I told myself to stop but it's too late

It's always the smile that makes me come running
It's just that simple yet so stunning
I found a new girl with a new smile
A new heart, I can stay awhile
I don't know if she sees me the same
But that's not really my aim
I want her, but at the same time I don't
Make my move? I probably won't

I mean I'm trying not to be
But I'm numb
I can't help it