Today I got a hug, out of the blue                                                             ­     
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and it even came with an "I love you''                                                            ­    
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Such a simple kind gesture                                                          ­                                                  
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  It brought me such pleasure                                                         ­                     
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It picked me up when I felt down                                                             ­                       
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  turned my day totally around                                                           ­                 
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  Just when I thought no one cared                                                            ­            
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someone loved me, someone shared

I'm the one out there for everyone else,                                                            ­                  
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who is there when I need someone myself?                                                          ­      
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I'll go to battle for those that I love,                                                            ­
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  if you bring the push, I'll bring the shove                                                            ­      
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  I am the strongman, the rock, the tough                                                            ­    
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  but the world on my shoulders is rough                                                            ­  
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  Sometimes I need someone to take the wheel                                                            ­                    
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  Let me catch my breath, I need time to heal                                                             ­ 
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  I am the one to rise up to every cause                                                            ­                  
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   but it would be nice to take a pause                                                            ­                  
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   It's hard for me to ask for the help                                                            
­                                                                 ­                                                       
   that you would offer to anyone else                                                             ­           
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  You want to watch me to struggle,                                                        ­              
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  trapped inside your controlling bubble                                                           ­   
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  while you stand back judging me,                                                              ­  
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  your hand on your hip so haughtily                                                        ­              
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  but you have still failed to see                                                              ­              
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  you have underestimated me

Sometimes I want to run into the sea,                                                             ­                           
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let the cold-water wash all over
me                                                               ­                   
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as the waves pull me into its
midst                                                            ­
                                                                ­                                                        
as the sand buries my feet in its
drifts                                                           ­                                             
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I'd open my lungs & **** the water
down                                                             ­       
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saltwater filling me up until I
drown                                                            ­        
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  I'll fall into a blackened deep
  sleep                                                         ­                                   
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it will wash away the secrets I
keep                                                             ­                                   
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at the same time, it swallows me
whole                                                            ­                      
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I allow it to cleanse the darkness of my
soul                                                             ­       
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  Cover me up with the grains of
  sand                                                          ­  
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  making me a part of the sea & land

I have to laugh when you rush up to my walls,                                                           ­                     
                                                                ­                                                   thundering mad, trying to make them fall                                                    
        ­                                                                 ­                                               
   I think there's something you need to
know,                                                        
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they will never come down, they will never
go                                                  
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You've broken my heart so many times
before                                                           ­                   
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  that you will never get that close
  anymore                                                    
  ­                                                                 ­                                                   
It doesn't make me happy or
proud                                                            ­    
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to have to say those words out
loud                                                             ­       
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but you've given me no reason to
trust                                                            ­    
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   and without that, there will be no
us                                                               ­   
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  I've given you chances that you mess
up                                                               ­   
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  and I have taken more than
enough                                                          
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  So, that's your cue to turn & walk
away                                                          
  ­                                                                 ­                                               
  I'm no longer a partner in the games you play

I was trying to control everything,                                                      ­            
                                                                ­                                                
answer the phone on the first ring                                                             ­                               
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That way of life became exhausting                                                       ­               
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and it didn't accomplish
anything                                                         ­   
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I admitted that I didn't know it all                                                            
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Surrendered & fell into a free fall                                                             ­           
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Free from my trapped head
space,                                                           ­     
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everything began to fall into place                                                            ­                  
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Released from all my mental bounds                                                      
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I had survived being buried
underground                                                      ­      
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I armed myself with a new attitude                                                         ­ 
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and a newfound state of
gratitude                                                        ­                            
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I let my worry fall to the
wayside                                                          ­              
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and learned to really start living
life                                                             ­             
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I found out I love who I am
inside,                                                          ­                      
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  I urge everyone to give it a try

I am still a work on
progress,                                                        ­                      
                                          ­                                                                 ­       
some mistakes but no
regrets                                                          ­              
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Pushed myself through the
unknown,                                                         ­       
                                                                ­                                                 
 proud of this person &, how I've
  grown                                                         ­     
  I hold my head up, stand up
  straight                                                      ­                      
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doing my best, no inner debates                                                          ­            
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No excuses made as I forge ahead                                                      
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Learning & changing everyday                                                         ­                 
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loving myself, I'm on my way

I am going on a journey, I don't know where,                                                      
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I'll let you know the details, when I get there                                      
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You call it running away, I claim escape,                                                      
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anything to put a smile back on my face                                                             ­         
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You call it self-indulging, I say it's a
need,                                                          
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this deep-rooted hunger that I have to feed                                                             ­                                         
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See, I have been trying to make myself believe                                  
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that your sparse love is all that I need                                                
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Now I've awakened, that doesn't satisify me                                                               ­           
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and I'm the only one who can make me happy                                                    
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If my leaving hurts you, know I am sorry                                                      
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  but I'm long overdue for this journey