The looks are easy to fall for
but I know I‘m not
they still believe that they love me
while I‘m screaming out loud
and they all overhear it
they think it’s the game
when all I ever wanted
was for my soul to be tamed

You made it to thirty,
but with blood in your eyes.
I made my mistakes,
promise, you were the greatest kind.

Flowers and candles were the last thing I wanted
to be next to you,
now that all of it haunts me.

bitter goodbyes, addressed to your body,
black suits and black dresses,
their songs about sorrows.

In anger I waited,
how is all of this real?
If one of us ever passed,
I was sure it had to be me.

You are still in front of me
holding me in your arms
I still call out your name
“You‘re not gone, You‘re not gone.“

But your fingertips are paler than ever,
your eyes are closed, I can’t deny it‘s forever.
As I lay down next to you,
the world around us turned blue
Yet I have to live in it
finally letting you go.

this house was once beautiful
now it is haunted
my house plants are rotting
the neighbors are talking

every corner reminds me of something
and something‘s not right

a moment I wasted
where her memories lie
buried by tears
that fell down on the tiles

cracks in these walls
appeared long before tonight
but there‘s still heat in the kitchen
no one took down the drawing this time

I can‘t even stand
that the smell isn‘t gone
it‘s woven within me
I admit it, they won