Dusk to dawn, you keep draining me,
Chug me up till I’m the whiskey you need.  
I don’t smoke, but I crave cigarettes after ***,  
Smoke then ****—what’s coming next? 
 
But darling, keep it just between us—because secrets are sweeter when I don't kiss and tell.
Baby, you know I can't control this feeling, but I just want to keep it to myself instead.

**** my soul the way you lick my body,
Kiss the **** out of me, I miss your fire.  
The smell of your sweater fuels my desire.  
When I wear oversized tees, I feel your trace,  
Like your touch still lingers, leaving its place.  

It is making you cry every time
You give your love to me this way.  
Saying you’d wait for me to stay,  
I know it hurts you, but it tastes like pleasure in pain.  

And I’m kissing you, lying in my room,
Holding you until you fall asleep.  
And it’s just as good as I knew it would be,  
Stay with me—I don’t want you to leave.  

You intoxicated me with your love so true,
I fall deep into the rabbit hole with you.  
I fall upside down, not on my knees,  
But begging silently for moments like these.  

I might like it oversized on me, 
But underneath, it’s your hands I need.  
Come and be my pillow, soft and true,  
You look so tired, let me baby you.  

In this vanilla twilight beneath pale skies,
Drop-dead gorgeous, you ignite my highs.  
So hot, I needed an espresso shot,  
You’re my craving—are you feeling what I’ve got?    

I’ll touch myself, but no, it’s not the same, 
I love when your arms play their claiming game.  
You’re **** in person, but do you miss me too?  
Does my body haunt the best of you?  

Are you happy? Or does longing remain?
I’ll hold you close, let’s burn in this flame.

Whispered something softly in your ear,  
A daring thought, yet sincere.  
It made you smile, your gaze astray,  
But I said it—it felt right that way.  

Sunsets glow as we roam this foreign town,  
Quiet streets with no one around.  
You laugh, so free, as your dress falls low,  
By the old swings where secrets grow.  

And when you go, I still see you,  
Sunlight painting your face in my rearview.  

Your voice echoes, a melody of choice,  
A love that no force could destroy.  
Snapshots like Brautigan's cherished covers,  
Memories we share as secret lovers.  

And when you're gone, you're still near,  
Sunlight on your face, memories clear.  

Watching the video where water cascades,  
Hair dripping, shadows softly swayed.  
Your body’s grace has me ensnared,  
But it’s your smile—pure, unprepared.  

It’s so sweet, knowing you love me,  
Words unspoken, yet heavenly.  
So sweet, as I run my fingers through your hair,  
A simple joy, beyond compare.  

Now I see you from afar,  
Wonder who you truly are.  
Dreams pull me closer to your light,  
Certain now—you’re just my type.  

Wanting your love to seep into me,  
A tender dream of eternity.  
Touch me with a kiss, soft and slow,  
Tell me it’s real, let the love grow.  

This is where I’m meant to be,  
So sweet, so close, so heavenly.  
Giving you all my love, my entirety,  
Every moment, for eternity.

You make me tremble, lost in your touch,
Moments so vivid, too much is never enough.
But these photos, these glimpses we’ve shared,
Are secrets I wonder if your friends would dare.

Would they see what we’ve captured in light,
Whispered desires born in the night?
Or is this just ours—a truth unspoken,
A bond unbroken, yet daring, yet open?

Everyone might not get it,
Too many times I rather give up or quit
There’s no one else to commit
No one else to admit

Being bullied many times, sometimes
Feeling like a pantomime
I ain’t a shifted paradigm
Feels like my life is a movie in a primetime

I’m an outcast to the world
Felt like I belong more in the netherworld
Seems like their minds are gnarled
Every time I say I hated the world

Unwanted to the family I never belong in
My worth felt like a trash bin
I prefer not to lose but to win
Even when I get drunk, the solution to everything is not a tonic gin

I see life in ropes and knives
Are they even horrified with their own lives?
When they chose to summon a welcome- hope kicks in and revives,
I see myself sinking instead of choosing to thrive

I see death in this situation I’m in right now
When I send help to thee, then come thou
Said he, “you reap what you sow”
Grab me my arrow and bow

I’m not myself when I see flashing strobe lights
When it’s half past midnight
I know I don’t wanna fight
Even if I’m not right

It got me stiff, jerking, lying on the floor
Once it got me knocking in someone else’s door
Waiting for my turn to get sober
It rots the hell out of my core

I feel delighted in medicines and hospital beds
I wish I could just forget everything what’s inside my head
I wish I was lovable enough to be heard
Unknowingly dumbfounded me, unaware of what lies ahead