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Aug 2023 · 38
Ex. (6-5-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I remember the days we spent together
The memories we both shared
And what happened between us was already over
And there’s nothing that I have contrasted or compared

When I felt your touch on my skin
Feels like a venial sin
It was a mistake and I regret it
It was a mistake and not worth it

I can still feel your body next to mine
The way you look into my eyes
Baby, you so fine
This love is accurate and precise

I can still smell your scent
I still yearn for your presence
Maybe it was for you that I was meant
Life is such an essence

Your lies, I admit it
They’re deceptive, I’m gullible
But I have learned a lot about it
It’s intuitive, infallible

You think you can fool me
You just don’t know it yet
You cannot easily fool me
I hope you deserve what you get

I can still feel your body
When I touch my skin
With you, I go crazy
Please stay with me through thick and thin
Aug 2023 · 37
I want you. (1-21-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Eye to eye we meet
Life’s getting discreet
As we keep things private
And being strangers in public

No need for me to panic
If you are a little too late
You know I could understand
But I can barely stand

We keep behind closed doors
And our clothes fallen on the floor
You know baby I want you
I wanted you all alone

You know baby I yearn for you
I never want to make things done
I want you all mine to myself
I just want you for myself

24/7 baby, I just want you here next to me
12 to 24 hours, non-stop, just stay with me
Ooh, I want to swim in a deep sea of blankets with you
And I want to wake up in the morning with you

Baby, just love me then until we feel a little high
Be with me until we both get high
I just want to drunk in your love
Oh, baby I feel high in your love

Ride with me, swim in my veins
Baby, if there is no pain
Then there is no gain
I want to let the pain remain

Oh, get it on right and keep it steady
Until we were both ready
Anywhere with you
It’s okay as long as I am in a different position with you

Baby whisper in your intentions to me
Let me clear my schedules for you
I want you to call me whenever you need me
I just want to make you happy too

I want to your favorite hello and your hardest goodbye
I just want to scream in pain and cry
Even if every time you leave me
You will always come back to me

Baby, I got what you need
Gotta gives it all without greed
Oh, baby I want you more than anything else
No more no less
Aug 2023 · 35
DANGEROUS LOVE (1-20-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Ooh, they say you were bad for my health
But baby your love is my wealth
They say I need a diagnosis
Truly needing a psychoanalysis

Yeah, I been imagining things on my mind
But they say love is blind
You are my daily dose of energy
Got to have that synergy

Yet this is both fun and love
Oh, I will always give enough
I need your love
Your dangerous love

Ooh, gotta roll the dice for that
Gotta put ice dripping all over your body
Gotta bet on that
I’ll go crazy on your body

I crave so much for you
I go crazy about it
Your silence is amazing
When we are both moving

You are my vitamins from A to Z
You are my favorite remedy
You are my sanity
You are my expectations and reality

Oh, I am both wild and calm at the moment
Oh, let’s just enjoy this moment
I want to stay in this moment with you forever
As long as we’re both happy together

You are my five course meals
My all you can eat
Buffet style
As long as we never go out of style

It’s not a big deal
Oh, because you knock me off of my feet
Aug 2023 · 36
FICKLE HEART (1-20-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I hate to break it to you
I hate to see you go
I hate the games I’m playing
And this feeling is fleeting

I always put your love on the line
I often cross the line
One more touch move and now were checkmate
I better tell you, I don’t believe in soulmates

Oh, I never loved you right from the start
And I never want to play with your heart
Nor your feelings
Just because of how unsure I was of my own

I never meant to break your heart
I never want to hurt your feelings
Just because of how undecided I was of my own

I tried countless times
Loving the opponent but not the game
But you say, you love the player and not the game
In the blink of an eye, I keep telling myself all the time

I never want to show any motives anymore
But I’m quite dumb, I felt numb
I already got used to it
But it feels like a habit
Aug 2023 · 32
Xoxo (6-2-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Regrets taste like yesterday
Change is what I am today
I can still sense you even when you’re away from me

I’m two steps behind you
No time to talk to you
Now you’re miles away from me
Meeting you was like yesterday

Reminiscing, imagining
Visualizing, glancing

You and me, against the world
You and me, on top of the world

But you let go of my hand
I don’t understand
Loving you was my best memory
Our love was my favorite story

Everything was a mystery
Now history has repeat itself
And I am all by myself

Now I’m all alone
Dancing with your ghost
Now I’m all alone
Now you’re not here when I needed you most

I cannot love someone else greater than you
I cannot find someone better than you
You are the best for me
Cause when you left me

A part of my heart has been with you
And it has left me broken
Broken, oh

I close my eyes, and heard your voice
Your voice is something compared to the noise
I hear everywhere
You are all that I ever want to love
Aug 2023 · 31
midnight feels (7-10-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Give in to me
Lie down on top of me
I just wanna be yours tonight
Until we get tired

Ride with me, dance with me
Bite me wherever you like
Kiss me whenever you like

Until midnight feels different
Until midnight feels different

I just wanna lie down next to you
I feel so tired, so tired
I just wanna be yours every night
Until you’ll get tired of me, me

The weather’s so fine, the ambiance is so cold
You are all mine, now I’ve been told

Midnight hits different
Until midnight feels different
I just wanna wake up with you in the morning
And see your gaze, my darling

Walking with you barefoot
With your hand in my hand
Your wish is always my command
Cause your love can soothe

In all of me
I feel warm, I feel calm
Just give in to me
Until life hits different

Until my love hits different
Until your way of ******* me hits different
NSFW ***** explicit mode
Aug 2023 · 30
Healed. (5-6-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I looked back and recalled my past
Told stories to my friends
And starts to cry
My experiences in the past
Has given me so much learnings in life
To forgive and forget the past
To never plant anger deep within your heart

Every time I think of all the things that passed
I smiled.
Since I already moved on, embraced the acceptance
And began to change
Cause baby, I am already healed.
I’m no longer in pain.
Aug 2023 · 28
Weak (5-6-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
This guy I met online
I thought was already the one
He tested my patience when he crossed the line
I lose control and now he’s all alone

When he’s dealing with me
I felt that he’s ignoring me
Since he thinks I was superior to him
He thinks it is making him weak

And he thinks he was inferior than me
That’s why it made him feel weak
I got a lot of things to deal with him
Since it both made us feel weak

He is ******* up all my energy
He is making me feel drained
My mental health’s breaking down again
I felt depressed again

He was so terrible at pretending
He was so miserable at lying
He apologizes countless times
But repeats the same mistakes all the time

He tries to fool me again
Then tried to manipulate and control me
And no sorry could ever bring me back to normal again
Since the trauma, betrayal and trust issues in my head remain
Aug 2023 · 38
Ocean of Love (94-24-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I have crossed the ocean of time just tryna find you
Yet, here you are, unbothered and unaffected by the things you always hear
“Still single?” “When will you be getting married?”
My apologies for not arriving in your life sooner than you expected
Since I travelled for miles, swam in the vast oceans of experiences before I got here
Not knowing you’d be my destiny
Since now, I already met you, I wish you would not leave me
Please stay, if you wish to leave
Then leave, if you wish to stay
Hence, if your will is never to leave me, I expect you to be together.
Aug 2023 · 45
Angel Pt. II (4-24-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I’ve always been yours
And I cannot find another this heart will beat for
You walk in and my heart beats different
I can still remember how our first conversation went

First you made my heart beat and then you beat my heart
It won’t stop beating right from the start
But when it breaks and heals again
Due to the pain, it remains

My heart will always beat for you
And my heart will still beat for you

I lost my way all the way to you
And it’s you I found all the way back to me
Maybe we were meant for each other
Maybe the heaven wants us to be together

I lost my way upon going to meet you
But you led the way just to see me

It’s here in my thoughts that you’re perfect
I always thought that you’re worth it
You’re worth the wait
And it’s here in my mind that your mine
And I think about you all the time

There will always be room for your hand in mine
But I see the way we shine
Because I love you for all that you are, for all that you have been and for all that you will be
I love you just the way you are, for all that I have witnessed and seen and for all that you wanted to be.
Aug 2023 · 43
Angel pt. I (4-24-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Boy, you keep me sane all the time
How you made me feel relaxed and calm all the time
Your voice sounds like a symphony in my ears
That I always yearn and long to hear

Your voice is like an angel
It sounds so sweet and beautiful
Rest assured, you are my one and only angel, baby
All rights reserved, you’re mine and I’m yours only

Forever I am yours
For all eternity
Together, we will be as one
This love and moment are ours
Since I know you’re the right one
You are mine faithfully

No one in this world is all I could ever compare
You stand alone, you are rare
There’s a couple billion people in this planet
But you are all I ever wanted

Started giving up on the word “forever”
Always holding back with commitment
But to me, you are Heaven-sent
That’s why I wanted us to be together

We deserve each other
So don’t worry, there’s no other
It’s you, the only one I adore
I never felt this way before

There’s no heart for me like yours
But I was convinced that my heart knew
It belonged to you long before I met you
Yet, I was always yours

Whenever I hear your name, I start smiling
Whenever I remember you, I start thinking
Do you miss me too the way I missed you?
Do I ever cross your mind all the time?

A part of my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything
How you walked into my life like you had always lived there
Oh, I would do everything, love you, give you my time, my attention, my everything
So just stay there, stay there

Like my heart was a home built just for you
You can treat me like a home
Where you can come and go home
Rest your worries and fears to me

I would do anything just to keep you
No need to worry about me
Aug 2023 · 42
Doubts. (03-05-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You only loved me when it's convenient for you
Need me when I'm always there for you
Call me when I'm always available for you
Because you benefit so much of what I gave to you

Now you take me for granted
I ain't the one you wanted

Aren’t you tired yet?
Now I hate the player
And the game too
But baby, not what you see is what you get

I’m already a man-hater
Been deceived by a player so

Now I am questioning my worth
We go back in forth
Round in circles, round in circles
We go round in circles

I have been living in my misery
Not in my best life so far
Everything seems to be an untold story
I’ve had enough living like a star

Can’t get out, can’t leave you yet
I’ve had enough but you
Still keep lingering on me
I want out

I wanna bury you underneath yet
Yet you can’t blame me for not wanting you
You still like me
I still want out

I healed you yet you broke me
Loved you when no one else loved you
Understood and accepted you at your worst
Crowned and praised you at your best

Trusted you even when I doubted
Made you happy when you feel blue
I never knew the moment you
Feel empty and in doubt

You only want me because I am always there for you
Yet you never saw me
I gave myself the benefit of the doubt
Oh, I don't comprehend what this love is all about

You cannot give me the bare minimum
You only give me lesser than the minimum

Trust issues, betrayal
Like a broken mirror, cannot be fixed
I got my emotions mixed
Oh, I was like a mirror broken by trust issues and betrayal

I trust so much
And gave them all too much
Love until there's none left in me
Trust until there's none left in me

I crave so much for attention
Love was both my habit and addiction
They said "How can you love when you're afraid to fall"
Oh, said she, I gave them my all

Until there's nothing left to take
Until there's no more left to give
You got a habit to break
As long as you live

But karma doesn’t need maps
It does not base on the address
Time will come this mess
Will be a trap

Karma knows no date
Cause it attacks on its own, mate
So, say your last words
Before he disregards your worth
Aug 2023 · 85
Better (04-02-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Baby, you deserve a love that stays
Deserve a girl that stays
Not that kind of love that comes back
That makes you distract

You deserve a love that remains
A love that gives inner peace but not hurt and pain
You deserve a love that never leaves
And a heart and mind that never deceives

Baby you deserve better
I don’t want to see you with someone better
That’s why I wanna be better
Better, better, better for you
Oh, better, better, better for you

Baby, come here
I will kiss it better
I just want to be with you forever
I want us to be together

I just wanna be better
Better, better, better for you
Oh, Promise I’ll be better
Better, better, better for you

You deserve to be loved
You are more than enough
You deserve a love that lasts a lifetime
Babe, you are the best thing that has ever been mine

No wonder why everyone leaves you
I don’t know what’s their problem
But let me stay here with you
Until we will make it an official

This love is not artificial
This love is like an emblem
I just wanna treasure you forever
I will give up everything so we could be together

Cause baby, you deserve a love that stays
You deserve a love that never goes away
No ghosting, no clout chasing

Just love, pure love
No pressure, not a leisure
No need to rush, if this feeling is just a crush
You deserve a love that remains

A love that stays and never goes away
A love that never demands pain
A love that is not forced usually

It is not a fleeting feeling
This feeling made me feel like I’m on the ceiling
This love made me feel crazy
I’m going crazy, I want to be your lady
Aug 2023 · 33
Questions (01-02-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Why do I keep running away from the truth?
That all I need is you
Why do I keep myself being blinded by the truth?
That all I see is you

Why do I keep myself being numb from the truth?
That all I have loved is you
Why do I keep hesitating to know the truth?
That all I want is you

Why do I keep denying the truth?
That all I am missing was you
And why do I keep hiding the truth
That all I want to be with is you
Aug 2023 · 26
Truth (01-02-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
What we had was a rush
We started off as strangers
Then next up is being each other’s crush
And thrilled to see us being together

Too many times I let myself fall on the ground
But then, protected myself
From the people that surrounds me
I let myself down
And people started judging me

But you held my hand
My worth was nothing grand
Yet I never let you fixed me
Healed me

But you did fix and heal me
You repaired my broken heart
And caught me when I fell apart
And wanted to protect me
Aug 2023 · 29
Promise (01-04-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Didn’t know when to start telling you
The truth about what I feel
About this enchanting feeling I felt for you
Didn’t know where I began to feel

That it has always been you
That the entire universe conspired to help me find you
Heaven is in your eyes
I was left mesmerized by looking into your eyes

Please love me more on my bad days
Please stay with me before, during and after
My bad or better days
You and me together

I promise you will always have me right by your side
And I promise to never leave you behind
That feeling I cannot explain
And loving you in ways I cannot explain

If I know what love is
It is because of you
If I know what love is
It has always been you

I fell for you and I still am falling
And this love is worth remembering
Oh, the moon in me finds a sky in you
And, the star in me finds a dark in you

It has always been a pleasure to be drunk in your love
All I want is your time and love
I crave a love that drowns oceans
Got me feeling mixed emotions

Both of us are enough in every way
I love you in all ways
You are enough
A thousand times enough

For you are enough for me
Enough to be loved by me
Your eyes hold everything my soul thirst for
Your hands touch every part of my soul I long for

Your lips parted every part of my soul I want to miss to
Your love made me feel the love I want to

I promise to have and to hold you
To cherish and to love you
From this day on and for more years to come
Until lifetime comes

I love you.
Aug 2023 · 36
Repeat.
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Shattered dreams, wasted life
Life is such a messy but beautiful rhyme scheme
Tucked in with a bullet or knife

Cracked door, wounded fists
Black and white tilted tiles on the floor
Our existence is a gift

Stop the urge to commit felo-de-se in a feverish haste
Life is too precious for you to waste
Hoping if there is a switch to turn off or on
Depressed mode, traumatized all alone

I’ve been in therapy for too long now
Talking to myself somehow
I find glee and sorrows in medications and IV
Been astonishingly reminiscing of enchanting poison ivy

In my deep sleep, I lie in my deathbed
Don’t ever weep
I will forever be in your head

Praying for my soul to depart
I’m not in my right mentality
Been experiencing aching heart, irrational personality

I’ve got swollen eyes
Due to your intoxicating lies
My whole life seems to crash
I’ve had a painful and traumatic past

Later then I realized, arson comforts me
The smell of the black smoke soothes me
Counting sheep no longer persuades my sleep
I cry myself to sleep

My soul agonizes and burns
In the scorching heat of Hell
I hope they wish me well
It is indeed a twisted fate of takes and turns

I once remember when I was still alive and breathing
You were glad of my existence, of my undying presence
Those memories we spent together, thinking

Remember when I took you the river
It made you shiver
But you gently flowed me down the stream
I was glowing, shining bright like the moonbeam

I treated you like a king
But you only treated me like a fool
And you only used me as a tool
For you to get everything

I’m so immune already with your unkind lies
Hence, I don’t know how many more turns do I have to twist
But why am I facing this bitter strife?
I wish It would no longer last

I hope this does not last forever
Yet it melts me right through my core
Oh, is it required for me to feel this every day
It still feels like a daydream

I’m still facing this unpredictable pain
No need for me to repeat it
I know I’ll never get over with it

You line me up like domino tiles
If I’m fragile as ****, I’ll know I’m fragile
Then stacks me up like a deck of cards

As I slowly sink from the depths of my despair
And realize that it’s not fair, it ain’t fair

As soon as you let me fall in one place as planned
Like a domino effect
I haven’t realized about its cause and effect
You didn’t even care enough

But for you, there is so many things
That I cannot condone or disregard

Hope you remember the note I wrote in capital letters
“I’LL COME BACK FOR YOU” haunting you alive
While karma seems to knock on your door
Masterpieces and evidence were all laid on the floor
Aug 2023 · 29
I am. (7-14-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I don’t deserve to be in so much pain
I deserve so much more
I deserve better
Guess all of the fragments remain

I am not like this before
I deserved better
Now that I finally am feeling better
No need to be this bitter

Thou shall not fool thee
If your intention was only to love me
Thou shall not hurt thee
If your intention was to keep me

I ran away for miles
I felt okay for a while
You made me feel temporary affection
But made me feel lifetime desolation

I am who I am
And your love was so much more
A burden in my soul
A sucker of my energy

I am what I am
And your lies were so much more
To reach your goal
Got to maintain this energy.
Aug 2023 · 43
Give up. (7-621)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I already gave up
I know it's not easy giving up
I am now letting you go
Now I am losing you

Feel free to go
Please never come back
I am already losing track
Maybe we will see each other again

Maybe we will meet once again
Don't ever come with me and look back
Aug 2023 · 90
INSOMNIA (7-6-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Hindi makatulog sa wastong oras
Hindi rin makakain sa saktong oras
Laging walang gana
Tanging ikaw na lamang ang natitrang pag-asa

Upang manumbalik sa dating sigla
Ang babaeng minahal ka ng sobra
Ngunit pinili **** iwanan siya
Sinaktan at pinaluha mo siya

Ang babaeng tulad niya ay walang ibang ginawa
Kundi intindihin at pakinggan ka
Ngayon hindi mo magawa iyong hinihiling niya
Sapat na sa kanya na makita kang masaya

Ngunit siya kaya niyang gawin lahat
Kaya niyang tiisin yung sakit
Minahal ka niya ng tapat
Ngunit ang iyong isinukli ay walang iba kundi sakit

Ngayon, iiyak siya ng biglaan
At ikaw ang tanging dahilan
Gigising siya ng alas tres ng umaga
Upang tanungin sa sarili niya

Bakit mo ba siya iniwan?
Dahil hindi niya ito dapat ngayon nararamdaman
Kahit masakit tinuturuan ko ang sarili ko
Na kalimutan kita kahit hindi ko kaya

Darating rin ang tamang tao
Na sa akin ay nakatadhana
Aug 2023 · 48
Me. (3-28-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
My mind is occupied lately
Of ******* that **** me up,
My inner demons are controlling me
They can’t shut up;

All the words you said
Keeps on running through my head
All the things we did
Cannot seem to leave my head

All the places we’ve plan of going to
Now I go visit them all alone
All my friends I talk to
Keeps on asking why you’re gone

Now I realize what you did to me
I know I’m no longer that fool
That will be easily fooled
Because baby, you cannot fool me

I am not a puppet on your strings
For you to manipulate me,
I am not a magnet
For me to stick around.

I have a pair of wings
But you cut it and stole from me,
I chose to live in regret
Now I came back without a sound,

The blood in my veins
It stains, remains and I’m in pain
It came from the blood of a sinner
He was once my lover,

Our relationship should be a two-way street
Cause we should take what we both give
And give back what we took
Oh, it is a two-way street.

Life’s not always well like this
Don’t just live in a world like this,
Don’t just give and give
You also have to take and take.

You don’t have to live in a cruel life
It gives you bitter strife,
Just don’t give and give
You also have to take and take;

He told me I was his everything
I was his happiness,
I treated him like a king
But I was only his temporary happiness.

I am trying to pick up the fragments of myself
That’s been shattered also by myself
And bringing back the pieces together
Now I don’t believe in forever

If what we had is already over
I just had the chance to remember
Oh, I’m already back to my old self
I built you up, you tore me down

I don’t want to give up, I ain’t going down

You can’t fix me
cause only I can fix myself
You can’t complete me
Only I will be responsible for myself

You no longer love me
Only I can love myself
If you can’t choose me
I will choose myself

If you can’t make me your priority
Only I can prioritize myself

I don’t need you
I don’t want you
I only need myself with me
I only want peace within me
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
What you’re doing to me
Will always be the opposite of what you are saying
You bet your heart to me
But you’re not even sure yet

Oh, don’t make me forget
Yes, baby never make me regret

How you mean so much to me
Will be useless the moment I’m leaving
You told me I was your happiness
But why have I felt loneliness?

You’re giving me the benefit of the doubt
Cause you made me feel doubt
If you’re busy to chat me
I will understand

If you don’t have the time to check on me
I will understand

But when you see me with someone else
I hope you understand
I have already loved you less
I hope you understand

I don’t have the time for people who have no time for me
Just because I’m strong enough to handle pain
Doesn’t mean I deserve it
A fracture of my heart always remains

I hope everyone sees
That I am worth it

And now I’ll do what’s best for me
With or without your presence is enough for me
I’m no longer your priority
Cause you no longer own me

With or without your presence
Will make me happier and better
With or without your presence
I don’t need you anymore
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
It’s hard to let go
When you’re at a crossroad dilemma
It’s hard to decide
You would ever go or never go

When you’re at a crossroad dilemma
I just wanna let you know

There’s no battle to compete
Nor a topic to be argued
Your presence can only be felt once in a blue moon
Oh, there is more to be told soon

No need to compensate
If it is what you have viewed

I don’t know which way to go
Or where I have been to
I don’t know why I am here
Sometimes I just wish I would disappear

Nobody loves me anyway
So, I’ll just go my own way
Where nobody sees or recognizes me
Cause no one is meant for me

Lost and jaded in the middle of the road
Got so depressed like my mind was gonna explode
I may be quiet but my mind argues a lot
So, what’s the plot?

You told me you love me
How come you left me unattended
You said you missed me
But you took me for granted.
Aug 2023 · 25
Sorry (3-20-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You’ve been so unavailable lately
Why’d you just took me for granted
You just said it yourself
That I am all that you wanted

You can’t catch my drift lately
So, am I making a fool out of myself?
Am I too much to be handled?
Is what I’m making you do

Hard for you to do?
So, am I just going to love with abandon?
The words I can’t say to you
Are the words you would hear in my song

Baby, I wrote this song for you
But still my feelings for you were this strong

Sorry if I overthink a lot
If I have been so emotional
If I mess up a lot
If I’m too sentimental

I just want you to know
I will never let go
I promise to hold on
Cause I don’t to go back to one

I’m sorry if I expect a lot of things from you
If I felt too jealous or disappointed
If I felt like I have trust issues
I just don’t want to feel like I’m avoided

I just need your time and attention
Ooh, I just need your love and affection

Maybe I just need a little bit of space
And keep myself busy all the time
Whatever it takes
I just don’t want to waste my time

I tried being so considerate and understanding
I want to give up already
Cause I’m super tired already
It felt like I’m the only one fighting

We’re going round in circles again and again
The pain always remains
But I don’t want to let you go
Cause I just want to stay with you
Aug 2023 · 36
Breakthrough (8-25-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Silver and Gold, that's what you are to me
Black and white, seems like hell inside of me
Red and Blue, peace and war are built in my mind
Oh, I guess I was rare enough to find

You need a target for you to pull the trigger
One bullet is all it takes
Whatever it takes
It makes me shiver

Make it rain
Let it rain bullets now
My life is miserable somehow
I am in so much pain

I am who I am (Fearless)
If I think I am (dauntless)
Then therefore I am (Oblivious)
And I am what I am (Dangerous)

It runs in my flesh, in my blood
Might wanna have a flash flood
My feelings, they are already dried
Like my eyes, they are already tired

I smile like a terror
I scare filled with horror
I grin like Nanno
I just have to let you know

Might wanna see me in the best angle
But you said you wanna see me in every angle
Everyone looks at me
And meets me in the eye

Oh, I cry, I cry, I cry
The way you pity me
The way you work hard to try
To insult me
Aug 2023 · 102
Babalik-balikan (6-29-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Hihiwalayan, babalikan
Bibitawan, Hahabulin
Hihilingin ka ulit na mapasa’kin
Hihintayin ka ulit na babalik sa akin

Hihintayin, Papatawarin
Tatanggapin, Mamahalin sa uulitin
Wag kang mag-alala
Huwag kang mangamba

Ikaw ay tatanggapin pa rin
Ang aking paulit-ulit na hihilingin
Kahit na isang saglit
Kahit na masakit

Dahil ikaw pa rin ay aking mahal
Kahit gaano man ka-tagal
Hihintayin kitang bumalik
Sa iyo pa rin ako ay nananabik

Ikaw pa rin ang babalik-balikan
Oh, ang aking babalik-balikan

Naghihintay sa wala
Umaasa pa rin sa wala
Di alam kung may pag-asa pa
Kung kailan mo ako babalikan

Ako ang naghabol kahit hindi naman ako Ang nang-iwan
Basta’t alam ko
Na hindi ako ang lugi sa dulo

At least hindi ako naging sakit sa ulo
Binigay ko man lahat
Kulang man o sapat
Sa aking piling naman ay
Nakita kitang sumaya

Bakit kinailangan pa na maghiwalay ?
Sana nga ay bumalik ka na

Naging masaya naman ako nang wala ka na
Nabuo ko naman sarili ko
Ng wala ang tulong mo
Pagkat mayroong puwang dito sa puso ko

Na ikaw lamang ang makaka-puna
Dahil ikaw lang langga ay sapat na

Nagbago man ang lahat sa akin
Ngunit ang nararamdaman ko sa’yo
Ay mananatili at hindi magbabago kailanman
Hindi ko na kailangang sabihin:

Na babalikan mo ako o huwag na
Basta’t hindi kita susukuan
Aug 2023 · 27
First and Last (7-14-22)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Our story was written somehow in the stars
Our plans can be viewed from afar
I have asked you to God
And He gave you to me

I guess we were written in the stars
Because you are meant for me

You are my prince
And I am your princess
I ain’t a damsel in distress
And that makes you my prince

You are my everything
That is why you are my king
For you are my beginning middle and end
I hope this feeling never end

For you are my love today, here and now
For you are the love of my life somehow
You are my past, present and future love
For you are my first and last love

I will never keep you like a secret
You deserved to be exposed
How much I have loved you so
How much I am proud of you

Oh, these memories are too precious to be forgotten
You would not be forsaken
Oh, let us not forget
I suppose.
Aug 2023 · 36
Thank God (12-27-20)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You are my favorite feeling
That feeling I'm longing to find
You're that feeling I'm missing
That feeling I'll never leave behind

I have come a long way just to find you
I have gone too far cause you're always on my mind
I hope you'll meet me halfway
And I'll wait for you along the way

I'll never want to forsake you
Cause you're impossible to find

If fate and time will only be by our side
My love for you will never be denied
If you'd only let me love you
Baby, I won't let go of you

You are all the thoughts in my head
And all the love in my heart
Baby, I'm yours for eternity
And you're mine for infinity

Ooh, you're always in my head
And you have forever owned my heart

Thank God, I have already found you
Thank God, you’re already mine to keep
Oh, you’re that man I’d always wanted to keep
Cause you are my answered prayer

Thank God, I already found you
And finally, I already have you
I already had someone to call my own
And I will never be forever alone

Come with me where dreams are born
And time is never planned
Come with me where our love is born
And our future is long planned

Take my hand
Yes, I'll take you to Wonderland
Take my hand
Since you're here with me in Neverland

Baby, you may not know it yet
But I have already loved you
Ooh, I already did the first time we met
Yeah, I do love you, love you, oh

We can make it through the test of time
You and me against all odds
As long as you’re here with me
Our future is secured and long planned

For more moments and years to come
You are the one I want to share my life with
For more ups and downs to come
You’re the one I want to build my home with

You will always be my favorite feeling
That feeling I'm always missing
Aug 2023 · 37
Favorite Love (2-14-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I know I have said it before
I know I’ve said it today
I won’t ask for more
I just want to say

My love, I love you
My love, I love you
Mi amor, Je’t aime
Mi amor, Je’t aime

I know I’ve said it over a thousand times
But I think about you all the time
I just want to let you know
That I love you, I love you

I had a lot of reasons to go
But I chose to stay
I had a lot of reasons to leave
But I remained by your side

There is no need to leave
Cause you made my day
I swore to be always by your side
There is no need for me to go

I’m yours and you’re mine
From today and until the end of time
You’re my hubby and I am your wifey
From today and until the end of time

Time has brought you closer to me
The moment I first saw you
I knew you were the right one for me
And I promise to love you

Till death we part
Till death we part

You run around like crazy in my mind
And I smile like crazy all the time
But do you know you’re impossible to find
But I find you all the time

You’re the reason why I could be this happy
Cause you always make me happy
I may have said it over a thousand times
You’re still the one I’d love to love all the time

Cause you will always be my favorite love
And you will always be my only love
Your love will always be my favorite love
And your love will only be my only love
Aug 2023 · 27
Selfless (2-15-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
If you love me
Just know that I love you more
If you miss me
Just know that I miss you more

If you badly needed me
Just know that I need you most
If you desperately wanted me
Just know that I want you most

You were my first at everything
From first dates to travel goals
You were more than just a fling
But without you, I am just a half of a whole

You were my better half
Yes, you always make me laugh
You’re the reason why I chose you
And you are the reason why I stayed with you

That is why I wrote this poem for you
To tell the whole world that I am yours
And that I was proud to be yours
That is why I love you

You are my best friend
And my lifetime lover
You will always be my forever
I hope this relationship never ends

I’d love to wake up with you in the sunrise
And watch as the sun starts to set
With you, holding my hand
There is nothing more I could ever ask

When I am with you, time flies
This moment is all I never wanted to forget
And right here we stand
I was born ready for whatever you will ask

Five years from now and I’m still yours
Ten years from now and I am still yours
Fifteen years from now and I am still yours
Until we’re old, I will always be forever yours

Three years ago, back to the moment I first saw you
At the back of my mind
I hope I will meet you
And after that, you never left my mind
Aug 2023 · 41
You (2-10-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
You gave me limited time
They gave me unlimited time
You gave me love
They gave me lust

You gave me affection
They gave me attention
You showed me love
They broke my trust

But none of those matters
Because you matter most to me

Cause you are my cure
You are my pain
You’re the only reason why I remain
Because your love is so pure

You are my happiness
And my sadness

You are the love of my life
In every feeling of bitter strife
That is what you are to me
For you are everything to me

You are my hope when I had none
You are my strength because you are the one
Now, who strengthens me, who consoles me
Now, who loves me and supports me

And that is you
There’s no one like you

Let God be our foundation
And let’s be each other’s motivation
In my black and white world
You are my color

And days have passed as I have loved you
It has grown so much stronger
You are my world
I hope you feel the same way too

Let’s be lost in our own world
With your hand I’d always hold
And in your arms is where I belong
Even if this is all wrong
Aug 2023 · 39
Guilty Pleasure
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Kiss me baby, hold me, hug me
I’m all yours to keep
From nine up to five, no sleep
Come love me, love me

You were both good and bad for my health
And your love is my wealth

I long for your touch
I miss you so much
I crave for your taste
Come and be with me

Come and be with me
Never hesitate
Come, my new guilty pleasure
My guilty pleasure

I just want to be your favorite hello
And your hardest goodbye
Out of curiosity baby, I want to try
I want to know how you taste

I don’t want to see you go
And leave this bed
Just stay here with me, stay with me
And never hesitate

You are my sugar rush
My ******* blisses
My legal and illegal high
I just want to fly

My perfect kisses
You’re my ecstasy
Just please me
But honey, there’s no need to rush

You know I have a sweet tooth
And you are like a forbidden fruit
Provide me all the ways
I can take you away

I don’t know what it is that makes me want you badly
Even the way you stare drives me crazy
Cause every inch of your skin
Traces me back to where we want to begin

Let me worship you
A holy grail that’s hard to find
Let me be your daily grind
Let me take care of you

I just want you here with me
Please stay with me
You have loved me unconditionally
And I have loved you faithfully
Please be with me till the end
Until the end
Aug 2023 · 44
With you (2-22-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Come with me and close the door
Let's celebrate and live our life
I just want to have a private life
With you, I'll never ask for more

Let’s just keep it low-key
Though these setups never made easy
My whole world revolves again
My whole life started again

What I had with you, with you
I don't want to share it with everyone, pray tell
It’s a secret I’ll never tell
Oh, I just want and need you

What I had with you, with you
I just want to keep it to myself
Let’s keep them guessing
Baby, this feeling ain’t fleeting

No more, no less
I want you all to myself
I don't share you with everyone else
No more, no less

I'm bedbound with you
I ain't going to leave you
I'm never going to leave this bed
Just like the way you never leave my head

We'll make love as if it's always our honeymoon
What I had with you was over the moon
I'll never get tired of loving you
And discovering you

What I had with you is timeless
Whenever I think of You
I smile all the time
You are all I want and need all the time

No more, no less
My love, I love you

Let me take you away
Somewhere far away
Where no one sees us
In a place, where it's just us

Come and hold me closer to you
I just want you all over me
Whisper in all your intentions to me
I promise to never let you go
Aug 2023 · 47
Angel of mine (2-22-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I was meant to be yours before we met
It's your face I don't want to forget
I have felt your presence everywhere
As I have looked for you in everything

It's your voice I long to hear
There's nothing left to fear
And you never left me cause you're always there
And this is such an unexpected meeting

The butterflies I have felt inside my stomach
Oh, I have loved you from the moon to the stars and back
From the time I wake up, it's you I always think of
Up to the time I go to sleep, you're the last person I'm praying for

It's you I always dream of
To be with forevermore
No matter what I do
No matter where I go

There's a smile drawn on my face
There's a constant happiness painted in my gaze

You are and will always be my angel
You are and will always be my only love
You are and will always be my priority
You are and will always be my only choice

How you loved to see me in the best angle
I can see it in your eyes, love
That I am more than a fantasy
That explains why I became your first choice

Angel of mine, Angel of mine
I love you; I miss you
Angel of mine, Angel of mine

Distance is just a matter of challenge we face
But always remember that my heart only belongs to you
From the time I met you up to the time that you're already mine
Cause I knew this feeling is real the second I saw you

And everything fell in its place
The way our souls intertwine
I can't promise to solve all your problems
But you won't have to face them all alone

Even if your life has hit rock bottom
You'll never be alone

I can't wait to wake up next to you every day
Be with you every single day
Please don't forget how much I love you so
I just had to let you know

Even if I never let it show
I hate to see you go
I was meant to be yours even before we met
And you were an angel of mine I’ll never forget
Aug 2023 · 69
PALANGGA (2-12-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Look at me, stare into my eyes and never look away
Hold my hand and hug me close
Then hear what I have to say
Love, it’s you I couldn’t bear to lose

I've been waiting for a long time
To be somebody's prayer
I have looked everywhere for a long time
But here you are now and you have answered my prayer

I can't find the right words to say:
How grateful I am of having you
You are God’s blessing and a living gift to me
To have someone like you

Through our ups and downs, you have loved me
And I am glad that you chose to stay

Some people search their whole lives to find what I found in you
And nothing's ever going to change the way I feel for you
Cause you gave me feelings I cannot put into words
But as they say action speaks louder than words

Cause a glimpse of you is all I ever yearned
I know your love is earned
But thank you, for making me feel loved
Because for me, you are enough to be loved

I still love you
I still miss you
I still want you
I still need you

Love me and look into my eyes
Cause love, you made me crazier all the time
Touch me now as I close my eyes
Cause I miss you all the time

You made me choose
Don't worry, cause you're the one I'd always choose

You’re the missing piece who'll complete me
And I have already found a love for me
Look at me and stare into my eyes and never look away
Hold my hand and hug me close then hear what I have to say
Be by my side, hold my hand and hug me close then stay with me
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Singkislap ng mga tala ang iyong mga mata
Sa tuwing ikaw ay nakatingin sa akin
Sa tuwing tayo ay magkasama
Anong saya aking nadarama

Di ko maipaliwanag
Sadyang aking mundo’y lumiliwanag
Ibubulong ko na lamang sa hangin
Ang aking nararamdaman na hindi ko maamin

Aking mahal, sana ay ikaw na nga
Ang aking makakasama hanggang sa pagtanda
Sana ay ako lamang ang iyong mamahalin
Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
At ikaw lamang ang aking mamahalin
Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal, minamahal at mamahalin, sinta
At wala nang iba pa

Hindi man kita kasama araw man o gabi
Walang ibang papalit sa’yo dito sa puso ko
Ikaw lamang ang aking gustong makatabi
At sa iyo lamang umiikot aking mundo

Saksi ang Panginoon sa ating pagmamahalan
Dahil alam niyang sa iyo ako nakalaan
Ito ang iyong pakatatandaan
Na kahit ako ay magkamali man, pangakong hindi kita sasaktan

Singdami nang mga tala ang mga taon
Na gustong tayo ang magkasama hanggang sa huli
Kahit na tayo man ay magkalayo ngayon
Alam kong makakasama’t mahahagkan kitang muli

Sana ay pagbigyan ng panahon
Kahit sa gabi lamang ikaw ay makatabi

Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal
Mula noon hanggang ngayon
Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Mula noon hanggang ngayon

Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal
Ang aking minamahal
At aking pipiliing mamahalin
Sana ay ako rin
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
We never know the whole story
We knew they both had a history
I only know the gist of it
But the mariteses cannot get over with it

Feeling victim for clout
They probably know by now what it was all about

He was a charming young man
While she was a selfish and materialistic woman
He only wanted to give, to love
But he was killed out of mercy, out of hate or love

Saving yourself while killing someone you love
They both seem to know what they need to shove
Forget everything in an oblivious way
An unforgivable menace comes along your way

You should be careful by now about the way you acted or behave
But that doesn’t mean you will be saved
Your days are counted but out-numbered
But you felt guilty, feeling encumbered

Consider yourself lucky for making it out alive
Choosing yourself to be alive just to survive

Yeah, because you prolly should have known by now
It is not what god wanted, but something that evil allows
You are the bait in someone’s hook
I hope you let yourself off the hook

Your asukarera de papa is not almighty
Because shiny things are not all shiny
They might blind you; it was indeed too good to be true
Some are pretentious to reassure, while some are real and pure

You’re the prey of the hunter
Feeling like an undercover
Everything was yet to be discovered
Not gonna happen that a lifeless interest was left to be unexplored

You were the precious bunny in his tantalizing eyes
At that time, the spirit of jealousy was on the rise
They said he was in a higher-being position
He got a family, a wife and four children

Hence, He got distracted in the beautiful garden of Eden
But the mistress and the * were in an awkward juxtaposition

But he was not a god, nor was a saint
He was handling any issues like a brief feint
He blamed god for everything else
He was feeling blessed, no more, no less

He said god was on his side
But as far as it gets interesting, the devil was his bride

Now you’re the target of the killer
This phenomenon was an indestructible thriller
He may have pocket knives, guns, arrows, ammo, name it
Best for you to forget or believe it

He marks the X on the spot
He left you there, lying on the streets to rot
He grinned so much now you’re gone
The mission was accomplished and done

But I hope you listened to me, but you never did
You gained so much of what you want to benefit

Millions of blood money were used in the wrong situation
Now that she got her decision, everything is in transition
Now you’re six feet below the ground
Now she's playing like a victim, feeling depressed that you're not around

She may be spending a lot to compensate for the pain
The trauma and the blame have left there in your mind, they remain
To lessen the pain and the burden
It doesn't make you any less golden

To lessen the sins, you have committed
Since you're so selfish, your sins were never admitted

It doesn’t matter if you visit him, any day, any night
You killed an innocent life, that's not right
From your selfish deeds, knowingly you have needs
You only think of yourself, self

You never should have bothered him in the first place
Now he was in a better place

He believed he was holy
But your soul is agonizing, deadly, slowly but surely
Holy enough to involve others
Flushing everything down the gutter

Tasked others to do the crime
It was not god's timing, but the devil's time
He thought he was protected by the saints and the gods
For the sake of their bad blood

He made religion his shield
Everything will be revealed
But makes evil schemes behind the church’s back
Your body and soul, later on, will be the hell's snack

The mastermind was his lover
He said he'll leave his wife for another
Felt guilty enough to care for the dead
Now you're a famewhore, a memer, your issues spread

But it’s too late, stop pretending
You never loved him, you were only good at pretending
You used him many times, **** him all you want
But you were not so nonchalant

Clinging unto your asukarera de papa for money and fame
By simply calling and talking to him, he can sense you are no longer the same

Spoiling you for getting everything
He is such a scary thing
You even fooled yourself about him wanting you
He is just ******* you, getting your nerve out of you

You got the nerve to keep asking him
Singing him praises and hymns
Visiting his tomb, telling him, you'd wish him to be your groom

You never thought of him even once or twice
Now they've pressed you for charges, no running away now
It's time to pay the lifetime price
You've been a spoiled brat, somehow

They said you keep buying him useless things
Now, seeing him in a tux, lying in his casket, unattached strings


But later on, when you feel sad and depressed, it gets funny
You traded his soul for the money
Don’t you know what power it will bring to the world?
Chaos and death are unfurled

You may be pretty and angelic
Being a ****** suit you but not being dramatic or sympathetic
But whom the **** knows what your mischievous attitude and behavior did to him
You were the best actress in the show, trying to fit in the show to look like a film

His worth never meant something to you
Now that you got the best view
His worth is just a dime that fell on the floor
You are not that worth it anymore

A lot of people believed though
You kept on faking it though
You got the nerve to chill and swim in the sea
They labelled you as the pokpok ng *
*, you see

You got the audacity to sleep, eat and work
Well, the best reaction is just to smirk
After the incident, after what you’ve done to them
Now you've got the hellish realm, to protect yourself from them

After what you’ve done to the bereaved family
Until further notice, you were no longer in fantasy

What lies ahead, what lies behind and what lies beyond it all
They will surely blame you all
You never deserve the best girlfriend award, wildcard
But she was ignored, they implored

They only want to give you the trophy you deserve, it was a catastrophe
She treated his family nastily

He was never released or in peace
But let's pay our respect to the deceased
His soul was in misery, in restlessness
I guess you seem relentless

Say your comforting and doubtful prayers
Come and show everyone your crocodile tears
Telling everyone your lies and faking a smile
Just before everything was settled, even the error and trial

Though reminiscing those memories, he left behind
But everyone seems to turn an eye so blind
Your eulogy was only a show
Everyone knows the truth but still, they went to go on with the flow

Whereas hiding your true feelings, feeling glad
Behind the curtains, you tell everything to your sugar dad
While everyone cried their heart out, their eyes were bawling
Got no sleep, tired of overthinking

What do they call you?
You’re a ******* *****, home-wrecker, concubine
Mistress, *****, *******, harlot
That is what they call you
I mean, now that's a lot

Pretend to your daddy, and tell him your intention
Your soul is hungry for love and attention
You're no brainer, just a dummy
Whose soul is thirsty for money

Your soul started agonizing in pain
It is nothing that your self-gain
You are alive but felt hellish guilty as ****
Wait till god plucks your life like a wasted duck

You mask your motives
Thus, everything in this issue we bet seems explosive
You ask for sympathy to gain self-esteem
**** your life, your dream

You do not want to 'fess up to yourself
Hiding the truth like a book on its shelf
You always mess up with everyone’s family
Your foul words are profanity, what you did was an act of inhumanity

You are the mastermind from the beginning to the end of time
You came to his tomb, confessing and repenting your sins from time to time
He keeps visiting you in your dreams
Quit that routine, you're no longer his queen

Asking for mercy and peace of mind
But you never mind
You never thought of loving him was the best thing you ever did
You're a one skilled ***** after all, as fulfilled

How come you **** up and never listened to your conscience
Now you have to face the consequences.
The most trending ****** case in The Philippines
Aug 2023 · 39
Two-faced bitch (8-29-23)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
There is always a different side to every story
But this one's an interesting history
This story was no allegory
But a fact-based tell-tale to tell up until century

It was made up by these maritesses
Feeling inspectors, judges and witnesses
As if, they saw the scene of the crime
Blabbering about nonsense things at that time

Just like the issues fade, people fade
It might take us all in a decade
But they revealed everything
And it gets interesting

We go round in circles blaming everyone
Some scattered hearsays and hoaxes are on the run
Trying to please everyone
That ***** sure had a lot of fun

Who among these people are deserving to be blamed?
Yet, we can't even point fingers or name names
How about a rain check on the situation
Let's ask her for her true intentions

Now you try to walk around losing your head
I heard, the devil is off with your head
But have you seen your head in that silver platter
There's no need to flatter

Now you're everyone's talk of the town
All of the rumors were spread in your town
You let everyone down
In your sorrows, you drown

Well, let me tell you the story of the couple from *
I know you were either interested or intrigued to hear it too

Little did everyone know
She felt guilty, went to his grave and pleaded to him to forgive her
The deceased's kin were too angry to face her
Vengeance will be served, and so is justice too
Karma is already on the upper hand's menu

Moments are capsulized that turned into memory
A congratulatory address turned into an unforgettable eulogy
Beauty sleeps turned into "in the loving memory"

Even my wounds that cut so deep can’t be healed by a band-aid
**** up and forget the promenade
Let me take you somewhere to juggernaut down memory lane
Every grain, every salt, you’re no saint

You’re the mastermind of everything
Every time the pendulum swings
Karma is already knocking on your door
I hope you rot in hell, down to the core

Time flies by so fast, the moment you broke his wings
He can no longer fly away with his broken wings
Sometimes clock ticks’ life away
Whenever we were unaware, it goes to waste or fly away
Aug 2023 · 32
Paradise (2-4-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
What I see is my lifetime paradise
That's what I'm sure of
What I have now is my blessing in disguise
And he's one thing I'm sure of

What we had was a rollercoaster ride
You and I collide through the good times and the bad
I just could not take for granted what we had
You're my groom and I'll be your bride

Baby, you're the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with
You're the one I want to be with
I might not give what you wanted
But I got what you needed

Baby, hold my hand and we'll make it through
Cause I still love to love you

I know what we had was meant to be
And our relationship was tested through time
But the moment I saw you, I knew that you're the one for me
I hope it's your hand I'd end up holding till the end of time

I may not be a perfect lover for you
Although I make mistakes, I promise to never break your heart
With or without my presence, I will always be here for you
But I hope we never part

Your voice calms me like the sea
After a long and tiring day
Your angelic face is all I needed to see
And I can rest my worries with you

In your arms is where I wanted to stay
Cause I never want to let you go
You're that guy I never expected to have now
Now, who is willing to have me now.

Baby, you are my best view
I cannot take my eyes off of you
Ooh, you know how I loved you so
Hey, I got my focus on you
Aug 2023 · 33
Waiting (2-4-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Why does it always pay to wait?
If I get all impatient, would I be too late?
I can't understand myself lately
It seems like I want to stay

Fell in love with a man who has it all
Loving me perhaps was his call
Ooh, I would love to let him know I'll wait
No matter how long I would always wait

You are all I ever needed
And all I ever wanted
In this world filled with lies
You’re the only thing that’s right

So, I’ll love you with all of my might
Every time I look him in the eyes
It feels like I love to stay
Every time you look and come my way

You are my lover and my everything
You are my forever king
You are mine and I am yours to keep
That’s why I fell in love too deep

You’re the reason why I keep smiling all the time
You’re the reason why I always cry when I miss you
You’re the reason why I could laugh all the time
You’re the reason why I became so happy every day

Because you’re the one I love
You’re the reason why I believed in love
You’re the reason why I chose to stay
You’re the reason why I chose you

My heartbeat is a melody I always hear when I miss you every day
My mind was always filled with thoughts of you every day
I hope you would still love me the same
I hope you'll never change

Because my love for you never ages
And I will always call your name

I will be waiting patiently for you
I will still love you
And right by your side is where I’ll stay
No matter how long or short the days
Aug 2023 · 135
LAGING IKAW (3-19-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Puso ko’y umaapaw sa tuwa
Sa tuwing ikaw ang kausap buong magdamag
Na para bang sa bawat minuto ako ay napapalundag
Dahil sa ako ay iyong napasaya

Kaya’t sana ay huwag kang magbago
Huwag kang mag-alala nandito lang ako
Naghihitay palagi para sa’yo
Kaya’t walang susuko

Laging ikaw ang nasa isip
Ang nasa aking panaginip
Laging ang pangalan mo
Ang sigaw ng aking puso

Laging ikaw ang gustong hanap ng aking mga mata
Pagkadilat ko pa lang sa umaga
Laging ikaw lamang ang gustong makatabi
Mapa-umaga man hanggang gabi

Laging ikaw lamang ang magmamay-ari ng aking puso
Pangako, mananatili akong sa’yo
Basta’t laging ikaw lamang
Laging ikaw lamang

Malayo man tayo sa isa’t-isa
Hindi man tayo laging magkasama
Basta’t iyong tatandaan
Ang puso ko’y sa iyo lamang nakalaan

Pangako, mananatili tayong buo
Hanggang sa dulo
At kahit saan man mapunta
Ako’y ‘di na kailangan mangamba

Sa iyo lamang akong talaga
Laging ikaw ang nasa aking isip
Laging ikaw ang nasa aking panaginip
Ang puso ko’y sa’yo lang talaga
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Mananatili akong sa’yo hanggang dulo
Kung hindi man maging tayo,
Hanggang sa huli
Kahit ang Panginoon, ang mga tala at buwan sa kalangitan ang saksi;

At hindi ko kailanman maikubli
Kung ano ang nararamdaman ko para sa’yo.

Mananatili akong sa’yo, sa mga oras na kailangan mo ako
Sa mga araw na wala kang masasandalan
Ako ang kanlungan mo
Ang iyong maaasahan

Mananatili sa iyong tabi
Kahit sa mga gabing hindi ka mapakali,
Sa’yo lang ako naging sigurado
Sa’yo lang ako naging kuntento,

Mananatiling sa’yo
Sa’yo hanggang dulo;

Pero hindi payapa ang aking mundo kung wala ka
Mahal, ikaw ang aking pahinga, ang aking payapa,
Sa mga panahong ako ay pagod at gustong mapag-isa
Sa iyong piling, ikaw ang aking tahanan

Ikaw ang aking magpakailanman
Ang aking tahanan
Ang aking masasandalan
Ikaw at ako’y nasa kanluran

Ang iyong mga kamay ang aking gustong hawakan
Ang iyong tinig ang aking gustong marinig
Ikaw ang aking kasiyahan sa mga araw na ako ay nalulumbay;
At ikaw lamang ang aking mamahalin habangbuhay.

Hindi kita papalitan
Hindi kita bibitiwan,
Hindi kita susukuan
Mananatili akong sa’yo,

Hindi kita iiwan
Dahil ikaw ang aking ligaya,
Ikaw lamang ang nag-iisa
Mananatili akong sa’yo.

Huwag kang mag-alala
Hindi ako mawawala;
Sasamahan kita kahit saan man tayo mapunta
Basta’t ikaw ang aking kasama.

Ikaw ang natatangi
Ang kailanman na hindi ko kayang itanggi,
Ikaw at ako’y isinulat sa mga bituin sa kalangitan
At dahil sa ating wagas na pagmamahalan;

Hindi kita ikakahiya
Ipagsisigawan sa buong mundo
Kung gaano kita kamahal sinta
At dahil ang puso ko’y sa’yo.
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Kulang ang mga bituin sa kalangitan
Na kahit minsan ay kay sarap pagmasdan
Kung mawawala ka man ay kulang rin ako,
Ikaw ang nagsisilbing aking katahimikan

Sa aking maingay at magulong mundo,
Para kang isang tanawin
Na kay sarap titigan
Sana nga ay makuha ka sa tingin,

Tayo ay may walong planeta
Ngunit sa iyo lamang umiikot ang mundo ko
Ikaw ang aking paboritong pantasya
Na ayaw kong kalimutan

Ikaw ang paborito kong panaginip
Na kahit minsan sana ay hindi na ako magising
Makasama ka lamang kahit ako’y naka idlip
Pero ayaw kong mabuking

Na ang talino ko sa klase
Pero pagdating sa’yo nabo-bobo at nata-tanga ako
Alam kong wala kang pake
Dahil bihira naman na ako ay magugustuhan mo

Ang isang tulad ko
Nakakasagot naman ako sa oral namin
Pero pagdating sa’yo nata-tameme ako at ‘di maka-amin
Dahil suntok sa buwan lamang ako pagdating sa’yo

Ka-babae kong tao
Pero kapag ikaw nababakla ako
Hindi ko alam bakit nagkakaganito ako
Pagdating sa iyo nagiging abnormal ako

Ikaw ang ilaw
Sa madilim na landas na aking tinatahak;
Ikaw at ang pangalan mo ay sa aking puso't isipan nakatatak
Wala kang ibang kaagaw
Aug 2023 · 32
I miss you (2-15-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I wish you were here by my side
So that you can hug me closer
Cuddle with me and let us stay in bed
Oh, darling I will never leave your side

I hope we will stay like this forever
Cause I can’t seem to get you off my head
Cause, I miss you love
Oh, I miss you love

I miss your eyes, the way they stare at me
I miss your lips, the way they smile back at me
I miss your voice, the way it calms me
I miss your face, the way it relaxes me

I miss your hands, the way I used to touch them
I miss your hug, the way it keeps me sane
I miss you, please stay, remain
And never listen to them

And how I miss your presence, it feels like home to me
And I miss you, the way I fell in love with you
The way I am crazy in love with you
I know you always think of me

All I ever dreamt of was to be right next to you
How I wish I could be this close to you
We’ll talk and plan of things we could ever do
And go to places we love to go


With you, right next to me
There is nothing more I could ever guarantee

Your smile is all I wanted to see
The way it bright up my day
For you are enough to me
And right by your side is where I will stay

Through the good times and the bad
I’ll remain right by your side
I swore to never leave your side
Even if I am both mad or glad.

Because I dated you to marry you
I vowed for Commitment
I vowed to be your lifetime partner
I want to be yours

Because I do cherish you
I want to be your fulfillment
You have also vowed to be my lifetime partner
I want to be yours

I miss you
You want to be mine
I miss you
I want to be yours
Aug 2023 · 28
Never Knew (04-24-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
I never knew when my pounding heart started racing
Every time I see you walk around the place,
I never knew when I first fell for you
But it was when, I first laid eyes on you;

It was as if I can hear angels singing
Every time I see your face.
Every time you walk in the room
My mind was imagining that someday you’re going to be my groom

I never knew when my mind started thinking of you
Or when did your name started to resound on my mind,
You were too hard to find
But now that I have you,

I wish you would look my way
And let me hear you say;
Don’t run away, don’t walk away
I hope you would want to stay,

Dear love, I don’t even know your name
But you’re still the one I want to aim,
Only your eyes and mouth, they smile
Oh, I love to see them just for a while;

My feelings were like lightning
It came too fast but we’re not rushing.
This feeling is not fleeting
I never feel like reeling,

Hit the vibe and come with me
I was too scared to talk to you,
But come here and sit beside me
I just want to let you know;

That I never want to let go
I just want to stay here with you.
I never want to see you go
I just had to let you know,

The way you move makes me fall
Fall harder and deeper into you,
The way I tried to never fall
But I caught myself falling for you.

But you weren’t even there to catch me
I was kept on falling,
And one day I’ll be crawling
Next time, I’ll be walking;

Another day passes by
Didn’t know what time is it,
Feels like time flies
Every time you look into my eyes;

I hope you feel it
Cause I don’t want to say goodbye.
Say your sweet goodbye
I hope it’s worth it.
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Time once told me, that he alone, is karma
He alone will come along and hunt us all down
He will soon partake everything you did in my town
Time is tired from all of our drama

Time indeed tells when I will be able to forget you
It took me time to realize how blessed I was when I met you
It took me time to savor the love you have given me and made me
felt
I admit it, I was once held captive in your arms and it made me
Melt

Therefore, I conclude, it took me time to digest those flowery
words of yours
It came from that intoxicating and disgusting tongue of yours
Hence, time is always on riptide
My time has come to tell you this from the bottom of my heart
Time is indeed the truth teller of all liars

The universe, the spaces and everything in between conspire
Time always told me the truth you could never tell
Time has always been on my side
In the slightest touch of your fingertips

I have forsaken you amidst the troubles and woes you have given me
You gave me nothing but pain
You gave me nothing but heartaches and misery
You let me slip, away from the tip of your fingers

From every word I hear coming from your foolish lips
Everything still keeps on staying, it lingers
Though it was already in the past, but the pain still drips
It still drips in the back of my mind

Thinking why you left me behind
I wrote you poetries in exchange of your betrayals
I wrote you songs in exchange of your lies
I loved you right in exchange of you, leaving me behind

It’s true when Miley Cyrus tells that “Misery loves company”
But I pity you as I envy the girl you replaced me
How come you tell me things and repeated those mere words to her
You chase me now without forgetting you worship me instead of her

Can you not feel déjà vu by remembering your first compliment
I admire the confidence and I judge the poor sense of character
development
I curse you from now on until the day you rejoice on your deathbed
Get that **** inside your head
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Time will only tell
When I will be okay
Time will only tell
When I will be able to forget you?

It took me time to understand why we have to let each other go
It took me time to move on, it took me time to let you go
It took me time to hold on, it took me time to forgive you,
It took me time to accept the fact that you’re no longer mine to keep
It might take me a lot of sleepless nights counting sheep
It took me time to be happy

It took me time to accept and move forward
It took me time to stay in one location
It took me time to slow down
It took me time to resent you

It took me time to think it through
It took me time to ignore you
It took me time to decide
It took me time to let things go

It took me time to master everything
It took me time to rest on love
It took me time to smile
Until it was now my turn to smile
To laugh, to be happy and everything

It took me time to socialize
It took me time to adjust
It took me time to smile back at you
Until I learned to smile back at me too

It always took me time to love myself first
And never entertain any suitors yet
Before forgetting you
It took me time to talk to you
And ask for closure

It took me time to heal, it took me time to feel
All the pain first before moving forward
No more walking backwards

I’m not going that way, I’m moving forward this way
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Pretentious. I was never that type of person
Liar. I never lied about it, but are we in unison?
He told me already yesterday
He had unclear explanations, faulty reasons

I admit it, he is a walking red flag
He might not admit it, but he cheated on me
Caught him red-handed, put him on a pedestal
I might **** him in a heartbeat, no tag

Got no label for that, you see
Who wouldn’t believe such a loser like me?
When he ended things on purpose
He said, he got nothing to lose

My life is a bit candid
I never caught him red-handed
Those moments were unforgettable
True, but lies were unforgivable

He is indeed a wolf in sheep’s clothing
He put himself up in everything
With all the lies, betrayal, and tricks
Let me tie him up in a joystick
Aug 2023 · 48
Rebel
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
Can’t keep up on my level
You created a monster out of me
That makes me a dauntless rebel
Soothing affairs and comforting lies, they got me

You told me what to do, though I never asked,
Said it’s just advice, but it feels like a mask.
You don’t see the pain that I silently bear,
Unrequited love, but you don’t seem to care.

Ready whenever I like to buzzkill
Don’t be such a bitter pill
I’m one to talk, I thought it would give me a rain check
Fooled me once or twice

But I once returned to 2021
Back to where and when you first met me
It caught me reminiscing on something that was already gone
Though everything has been said and done

It was treacherous and killing me
A global pandemic arises
I regretted every moment slowly fading
Slowly turning into a reality of memories

Heard different sides of the stories
It seems tempting, too unrealistic to believe in
It took me back to when you first loved me
It was heaven, but it felt hellish too

You were kept on love-bombing me
I highly doubted it though
Told me comforting lies and unbelievable truths
Yet you made me rot in hell, like my dignity and worth

But now, you keep coming back
You keep wanting me back
How do you sleep at night?
Do you still think of me?

Do you have any right to keep me?
I think not, I want you out of my sight
(3-22-21)
Aug 2023 · 34
Ghost of you (12-18-21)
yndnmncnll Aug 2023
They say you cannot be a prisoner of your own past
But mine became a habit that last
I remember when you called me mine
Asked me if I was doing fine?

I bought a couple ring for us
I remember those times we had, I missed us
I still hope one day you will remember me
You will talk to me and apologize to me

I was handcuffed by your presence
You seem tormenting me
It all made no sense
You keep haunting me

But you lied to me, you used me
Fooled me many times
You have committed a crime
You broke my heart

You broke my heart apart
You tore us apart
But I still am hoping for you to come back
To come back home to me, to come back

Now I am still here, here, waiting for you
Dancing on my own with the ghost of you
Reminiscing of our glorious past
Leaving me all alone miserable in the past

I still am, caught in the glimpse of us
Thought I’d die for you, for us
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