Another year goes by...
With some tears,
Some regrets,
And some memories which I hold on tight...

Oh, I believes,
Death is a beautiful woman,
Seducing with blood red lips,
To her forever slumbers

As playful as it is,
Daring you to take the risk,
Like forbidden fruit of eden
Once you get a taste , you fall

She is...
Chasing a heart for years...
A heart that she knows will never be hers
A heart which already been broken by someone
Even knowing that she is chasing a miracle
But She still chooses to chase...

You are my North
You are my South
But suddenly I feels very lost
Had I followed the wrong direction?
But I always followed my heart
I trust both, my heart and you

And here I am, with a bleeding heart
With a dying light
And fighting with the darkness inside
Please give me strength
To hold on tight...

Every step which you are taking back
You are walking away from me
Bit by bit
Step by step
Away from me

I'm a candle
Which burn it self to light others life
I'm slowly melting away...
Can you see it?
Or you only see the light I give?

When I was little...
I wanted to grow up soon
And enjoy the life!
But after growing up...
Now I wan't to go back to the childhood
Where I can sit on my mom's lap
And enjoy the life while doing nothing

The sky is mourning
So is my heart...
I feel the coldness,
Slipping through it's cracks
Into the deep of my broken heart
Making me feels so lonely...
And missing you badly...

Since we were born...
We lived a life,
To others' expectations...
But when will we have a time
To be ourselves?

You are the anchor in the storms
You are wind on my sails
You are the reason for me to keep going
So in this furious storm
I beg you to hold on tight
Even If I am slipping away
I want you to hold on tight
We have come so far together
There will be a clear sky
After the storm pass away
Where the sun will shine bright
So keep your eyes on horizon
And hold on tight...

I were lost
Lost in myself
And lost you in the process...

While others chasing money
Success, health, happiness
My heart chases you...

And now I'm all alone
Wondering where they all gone
Standing in a dark hall
With bare feet, on a cold floor
All alone...
Wondering...
Where they all gone...

The wind told me a secret,
Barely above a whisper,
With a trembling voice,
"This storm will also pass"

I'm bleeding from my heart
Through my pen
On an empty paper...

Yeah, You can call me baby
I will be your friend
I'll be your lover up until the very end
Baby, you don't have to show me your love
'Cause I know you don't pretend

Time is a torture...
When all you can do is wait...

She laughed when I said that I'm writing poems
She told me that I never got that talent
And she said "Don't waste your time"
She just wants me to study
Can studying solve every thing.....?
She never wanted to look at my poems...

People come and goes
But I thought you would stay
Yeah, you stayed as a scar in my heart
A scar that never heals
And hurts in every once in a while
To make me remember that day
The day you broke my heart

It feels like these days are on a endless loop
Where the things keep repeating it self forever
Without you by my side
It feels like life is on a endless loop
Where there is no escape...

We all have that one secret
Which we bury deep in our soul
And hope it will be forgotten someday
So rest of the world will never know
They will never know...

Should there be tears
In every time you feel sad
Can there be times that you want to cry
But the tears also have betrayed you...

It will never be over...
Doesn't matter how hard I try
The voice which whisper into my ear will never be gone
It is always be there to make me bleed
To make me cry, to steal my sleep
It will never be gone...
But with your presence, You are like a light to my darkness
You light up my whole word
But darkness will always be there, hiding behind the shadows
please don't leave me, It comes back when you are gone
And I'm not strong enough to hold on anymore...

Girl, you look perfect in my eyes
But why can't you see your beauty
Why comparing yourself with others
Girl you are unique
There is no another one like you
You just have to see it from my eyes...

Yesterday was too perfect for be real
Too perfect for be a dream
I can still remember your warmth
And your touch
The way you looked me in the eye
The way you smiled
It was way too perfect
For me to believe
That it was real...

Another sleepless night
With you hot on heels in my mind...

Can I light you up
Like a **** cigarette
So once it's over
I'm saved from the poison
Only leaving the ashes behind
But here I am
Wishing and hoping that
It would neveur burn out...

They say everything gonna be alright
But later on, I realized
It's just another fairytale

If it is not a sin,
I have done it long ago...

I used to believe
The things are going to be alright
It will get better tomorrow
But the truth is
It's only getting worse
And I ended up thinking
Yesterday was better than today

Meeteth me at the hour thy soul doth feel not restful
And thy mind becomes silent
At the dawn by the beach
Where we can rest our souls
While our minds keepeth wandering...

Yeah, I thought she would stay
For a little longer with me
But now she got a boyfriend
Who she likes to share her laughs
And tears
More than with me...
I'm feeling kind of down
Because all my friends are slipping away
It's little lonely...
Because It's only me at the end...

I want to tell you
How much you mean to me
But it feels like
Words are stuck  in my throat

I used talk to you often, now we hardly have a time
We used to meet often but now I'm too tired for those things
I always have things in my mind
The truth is I hardly think about you at all
And when I'm yarning for you, You are busy or asleep
I even thought about ending this
But It's hurt to even think about it
Maybe I do still love you
Now I really don't know what to do...

Those black eyes...
They hold me captive,
So pure...
Yet,
So tired...
And I wan't to erase that tiredness
To make them shines
Like the stars in the night sky

It's been years since we met
Been years since we loved,
I knew your heart is glasses
Way before I dropped
Now I see you in pieces
And it really hurts
But there is no turning
Cause I'm already down the road
With these words echoing in my mind,
That I'm sorry, Good bye...

They say forever is the sweetest con,
And now we know the truth...

I'm just afraid
Afraid that one day I will brake your heart
I don't want to be the reason you're hurting
Don't want to be the reason for your tears
I just want to
Just want to love you forever

There are some desires
Once you get a taste,
You can't get enough
Even though you know
It is destroying you
Like a sweet addiction,
To a deadly drug...
Even though it is deadly,
You don't want to stop
Like a moth to a flame
You want to sink and die
On that dangerous desire...

Even with those thousand stars...
Sky still feels lonely...
When the moon does not shine...
Even when I'm surrounded by the people...
I still feels lonely...
When you are not by my side...

Just for a few minutes...
I forgot who I am
And crossed the line you drew
I'm sorry that I overreacted
I just forgot who I am to you...

I always wanted to escape from my life
Have given up long ago
But after you came
I want to stay a little longer
A little longer with you by my side

I got so many things inside my head
But don't know how to tell
Just an open book
Blank page
And me...

I don't have a reason
Feels like now I'm speechless
Don't know what was the problem
But we lost the burning flame...
Somehow...

Now my heart is not beating
And I don't feels anything
Can't even look you in the eye
Didn't you notice the dying light?
Didn't you?

Maybe it was wrong of me
Shouldn't have took you onboard
When the ship was already sinking
Storm was too strong for hoping
It was useless...

Shouldn't tried to give you warmth
When I was already freezing
Now I hope you'll find someone
Who'll make you shine brighter
Till the end...

Hate it when I got some words
Whispering to my mind over and over
But don’t know how to get them out of me
Those words…. Those dark words are killing me inside
And no one can help me, Even I can’t save my self
They make me want to curl into a ball
And cry all day and night
But I have to look stronger right?
Look stronger until I crumble down…

I always dream
Dream about how it felt
Falling asleep in your arms
About how it felt
You resting your head on my shoulder
How it felt
Walking with your hand in mine
And always dream
Dream about your smile
When it lighted up my whole world
About your voice
When it helped me to keep my sane
And I always dream
Dream about the time
The time when you belonged with me