There is no love lost
And no profit gained
Nothing good has come out of this
Nothing but pain

I made a promise not to fight anyone today
So instead I fought myself
And every basic instinct I had
Now I'm a tired warrior, a hollow victor

Words I had once longed to hear
Have arrived so late
They seem to have lost all meaning

Half baked smiles
Bitter, deceitful wiles
True contentment is not really in my fate
But I need to keep up this illusion of grace

Bricks and mortar
Cinder and stone
An empty house is not a home

The smell of new paint
A dark blue undertone
An empty house is not a home

Streetlights shine bright
On an untrodden road
An empty house is not a home

Crisp green grass
A pathway of cobblestone
An empty house is not a home

Old regrets buried in the yard
New seeds are sown
An empty house is not a home

Searching through every room
Aimlessly I roam

Something I had lost
Something l'd never known
An empty house is not a home

Lost in deep thought
Resting on my throne
In a quiet corner
I sit alone

How close have we come
How far have we grown
An empty house is not a home

A roaring fireplace
Cold shivering bones

Apologies!
If my good luck
Threw a wrench
In your plans
To torture me

When life gives you lemons
Make lemon meringue pie!

The bearer of bad news
Let me be
Proceed to **** the messenger
Set him free

I wish for nothing
Because I am nothing

There's an itch at the back of my throat
Something you said today
I find it hard to swallow
My stomach is turning knots
My tongue too flaccid to make a sound
The poison of your vile words
Have left a bitter aftertaste in my mouth

Someday, not far from now
You'll choke on your own words and die

I'll be done being mad at the world
When I get some good news

Dare to take a second glance
There is more to me than this
But you don't want to know
For you ignorance is bliss

When life knocks at your door
No matter how unexpected
No matter how inconvenient
Don't forget to answer

You had turned into an appendiceal being
So I decided to cut you out of my life
And it wasn't even that difficult
You didn't put up much of a fight
I thought I'd miss it, talking to you
But I don't, I don't miss being talked down to
I cut you out of my life and it was so easy
You slipped away quite seamlessly
Made sense, after all you served no purpose
You were nothing now but a rotting old mess
Vestigial people, they're always meant to be shed

Trying to keep the hope alive
Is killing me

I've decided to stop fighting it
Turn the music in my mind up, let it play
To the rhythm, let my thoughts sway
I achieved nothing yesterday
I won't be achieving anything today
But hey, it's all okay
Just another day of wasting my life away

You keep asking me to put myself out there
Um, where is that exactly?

Everytime I manage to accidentally climb my way back on to that pedestal with you, why do I fool myself into thinking this will last forever, why do I forget my true place. Lost in my dreams of greatness by proximity, why don't I remember how bad it hurt to hit my head on that last fall from grace

Losing my hair
Losing my mind
Losing all sight
Of what I want
down the line
Sanity, I fear
Is not something
I'm ever meant to find

When people ask 'How are you doing?'
They don't really want to know the truth

I'm not disheartened
I'm disillusioned

Colour between the lines
Watch for the warning signs
At the first glimmer of sunshine
Close the blinds
Be wary of the good times

The scent of freshly brewed coffee
A slice of deliciously moist chocolate cake
Basking in the winter midday sun
An entire day without having to see your face
I'm enjoying these simple pleasures of life
Can you blame me!

Unworthy
Uninspired
Unmotivated
Unwanted



Unwilling
To feel like this forever

Is this your notion of a fair world?
Where everyone should suffer equally
Well, my definition of a fair world
Is one where no one has to suffer at all

There is no hope for change
As far as the eye can see
I did not fail in this system
The system failed me

Distance makes the heart grow fonder
But only if the distance remains
The moment I see your face again
To me, it's all the same
We're strangers

Distance makes the love grow stronger
But only if the distance remains
The moment I hear your voice again
I know it's all the same
We're strangers
Like we've always been

Dear friend,
I swear I tried my best
I held out for as long as I could
But I had to resort to the pills

Hope is not dead
It's on life support
Sure hope it pulls through

Love in the time of cholera
Hatred in the time of covid-19

You can rest in peace
I have forgiven your crime
I am still alive
But you killed my spirit

I'm not afraid to admit now
Mistakes were made
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Just not by me

If you can't pull me back from the edge
Won't you atleast have the courtesy to push me off it

Money can't buy confidence
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So I got no desire to be rich