His love cannot fail
I found him through pain
He saw me before I was me.
I know that my words give pain
I know that my words worry
I know that my words sadden
I know that my words hurt
I’ve found G.O.D
I have found the missing piece
Goodness is within me
Over all my fear
Dire is my fortune
He watches me
He keeps me
The silence calls
But he pulls me.
He is with me
I know he breathes within me.

Have you ever felt the silence
The stillness that fights with consciousness
The moment in time where all your pain respond
The feeling of bitterness surface
Still you try to hide it.
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Have you ever felt the silence
A silence so deep all your fear respond
The thoughts of what if engulfs you
The tears drop without fail
The moment you stop the silence cuts you still.
The sound of tear drops is the only thing Keeping you safe.
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It is the only thing keeping you humane
The silence whispers awful things
The silence whispers terrible things
Take a life it says
Take a life it shouts
Whether yours  or yours take a life I say.
The silence kills
Kills more then you’d ever know
But even then the silence will never show

I want to write.
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Where is my source.
My missing item.
Have my feeling set?
Have my problem solved?
I yearn to write.
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Is pain my image?
Painted to inspire ?
To churn feelings,
In ways that brings life?
Is it alright to write for the feel to write?
Or should my new pain inspire my write?
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Oh joy please give me your words.
I love your feeling.
Is so rarely seen.

I could coat it with pretty words
But angers best expressed raw
I’m tired of hiding thoughts
Painting with grammar and lies
Beautifying pain.
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I can’t coat it with sugar
For sugar makes it worst
Body image lowers
Standards that aren’t met
Mentally I’m stable
Emotionally ****,
Literally ****** by not
Even knowing emotions.
Depression hides it’s shadow
Casting it as humor
But I know better since
He runs with my Lucifer.
Days and night restless
What else could it be
Dear god help me
let me lie to sleep

Have you ever given yourself?
With full heart, exposed.
Have you ever felt love?
Deep inside with no regrets.
Have you ever felt lost?
Your efforts all in vain.
Have you ever shut down?
Feeling nothing but pain.
In the end with no remains.
All things stay the same.
Will you ever play that game?

Screams can’t reach you
A place so hidden.
Clocked by last chances
Turned off by fate.
Love cannot touch you
A pleasure so tactile,
Closely ecstatic
A torment to beguiled.
Imprisoned my soul
Under clouds of Pretensions.
I seen the truth
Long before you knew.
Yet my dreams won’t sit
Till it’s all renewed.
I see your thought
And read all your lines.
One thing remains
Is hope in your disguise.
In love I failed
And wish you only best
Yet my soul is tied
Imprisoned to no rest.