Anybody gets
Talking to DEchon’e
It’s could be a friend or
Baby mama
You won
His all yours now
See what type of person you are
You will do anything
Even his own blood
Just to have him
The Victory is
You’re

why must you lie to me
is it for my attention
my sympathy
or a addiction

do you want me to chase you
so you can ******* off
be mean to me
or **** me off

im too tired for this game
we are both too old
this game needs to stop
before one of us explodes.

Thank you god
For listening to my prayers
Thank you
For bringing back
My sister and her
Family back in my life.
Thank you
For everything.
Without you
I probably won’t
Make it.
But you gave me Strength
To just realize
What’s most important in my life.
I got this far in my life
That I could say
I feel good about myself.
Because you gave me
Loving family.
Who love me for who
I am.

The first you said
You started looking for a
House.
Than I just did you a favor
By saying
It will be easier
If I look for the house.
When I became quite
You put out my business
Out there, you doubted me
You told someone I was tripping and
Lying about the house.
When I show you the picture.
Everything turned around
Not only that
Your best friend wth benefit
She had a lot to say.
Than you started to lie to me
Not once’s
To many times.
I know I said I
Forgive you.
But all though of
Respect
Stop blaming for everything.
God knows why
And what’s my reason.

Don't try to hold back, the
laughter or the tears, for
all of us at times, have
irrational fears! We worry
about, what may never
take place, but still, there's
always a doubt. If it remains
too quiet, we'll find, something
to worry about. I guess, that's
the way, of human nature, we're
always afraid, of what lies ahead.
We're much better off, if we take
it one step at a time, instead! Go
along with your feelings, if you
want to laugh, shed a couple of
tears. Don't you think it's a much
simpler way, than bottling it up,
for years?

So, done fighting
No, matter what
I say.
Doesn’t mean **** with you
You want to fight
Fight with yourself
Not to blame
But your own self.
I don’t move my life
With people are so
Negative energy
I stay positive
Everyday
Positive energy
I could be more myself
Negative energy will
**** you inside and outside
Done fighting
Doesn’t get you anywhere

Frankly
I’m lying to myself.
I wouldn’t be giving you
Another change
If I don’t still
Love you.
What I say
Is different
What I’m feeling inside.
I’m fighting with
Myself

My mind is lost in galaxies
Don't know which way to go
Confuse about a lot of things.
Some people makes hard for you, by making fun of you.

My body is floating in Universe
Can't feel anything,
So much had happened.
Still people makes fun of you.

Just can't fine to put my mind and body together.
Where am I at.

Nobody is perfect
But if you walk on the same path
I walk on
You have the right
To say
Your life is hard
Do you have four kids
That you raised with a woman
Or man in your life
Then you could say
It’s hard being a single parent
Have you lost
Two of your parents
If not
You have no room to talk
Did you ever left one
Your kids
With a babysitter
Turn around your
A child got 30 Degree
Burn with hot water
Because of the babysitter
Left your child in
The tub. While
She when answering the
Phone.
Have you been
Rap before
From your own family
If  none of the above
Happened to you
Nope, your life
Is hard enough
You don’t
Know what
I have been thought
So, don’t tell me
Life is hard

There’s no right and wrong
People’s will always listen
To someone
Because people has nothing else to do
In this world
Doesn’t who’s older
Who’s been done everything
For sure it’s not about
They been in same path you been in
That’s life’s
It’s up to you to listen or not
I rather go with my guts
My guts never turn me down
What I vision
It’s always told me the truth
Listening to people
To me that’s cheap
I must not have a Brian nor a heart
If my life is controlled
By others

Did you feel sorry
When I was pregnant
Did you feel sorry
When you push me away
Did you feel sorry
When you denied my pregnancy
Did you feel sorry than
When you put me into
Your drama.
Nope, you
Only worry about
Yourself. My question is
Why should I
Be worried about you.
Move on
Next

Be honest with me.
I rather hear the truth
Than the lies.
The truth I could handle
The lies.
I don’t
Do

Our Lord knows how we are feeling and what we are thinking. You don’t need to hide your struggles in this area. Instead, bring this to the Lord. Pray that He allows you to see things that are affecting your thought life in a negative way and pray to be more positive in your thought life.

You did not feel loved or valued. You have suffered a lot of heartache and you felt abandoned. Your youth was not always easy, I sense. But this has made you into a very strong person and it developed an inner strength in you to face even the toughest obstacles.

You are the pillar of strength and always lovable for me you are my darling always.

God always loved me, He did teach me loving and always be in a special place inside me.

I wish I could find those special people who were there for me when I really did hit bottom. You are in that special place in my heart.

You may see a happy face
You may see a toothy grin
You may see a light in my eyes
But that is all a thin mask

I want to break down
I want to let it out
I want to stop acting like I'm fine
Because I'm NOT

Behind my smile is pain
In my eyes is a tiny spark of hurt
I hide it the best I can
Behind this daily mask

I want to break something
I want to scream for someone to hear
Will I try to bother someone?
No

I am a burden
I was made only to help
Not to stand in the way
It doesn't matter how I feel

Who should care about me?
Why would someone?
I am the one who helps everyone
And deny myself the right

The problem with being selfless...
You feel like you shouldn't be helped
So you sit in your pain
Behind you smile

That fake smile
Everyone seems so gullible
It seems to convince everyone
Except for the very very few

I sometimes want someone to notice
To ask if I'm all right
The problem is...
I would say yes

I don't know why
Because behind my answer...
I am screaming
Screaming for help

I want someone inside my head
Who can tell exactly what I need
How to make me feel better
I will not tell you

Most have to pry
Ask the right questions
Convince me to trust them
That is the only way to take off this mask

Once you have the real me
It is noticeable
Everything stops
I let the pain show

This pain that is so hard to cover up
And yet I manage day to day
I will sometimes try to hint
But no one gets it

I don't know why
Am I the only one that feels this pain?
Pain that makes you shake
Pain that hurts so much you CAN'T cry

I just want to be happy all of the time
God, why can't I be happy?
I'm tired of acting
I'm tired of saying I'm fine

To open up
I’m not use to sharing
My feelings or what’s
Going on within
My life.
Last time I ever
Shared my feelings with
Anybody.
That’s was used against me.
They hint me in so anyway
You can’t imagine.
So, I learned to be
Silent.

With someone
That’s makes me happy.
But I’m not going to be ruined
By another woman.
Because she thinks, she knows me.
She got something happening
For her.
I’m not going just
Sit there
Let her take something
From me.
I don’t buy love nor happiness.
I surely don’t buy the kids
Just for them to like me

Can you buy love
Can you buy happiness
Can you buy people
No. You cannot buy all
That.
When you buy love
Is not yours forever
When you buy happiness
It’s only for short time.
Never use the power of
Evil.
Remember money is evil.
Money makes people change.
Learn to control it.
Buying love, happiness and people.
It’s not god ways.
But the evil inside of you

Sorry I like to live
In positive life
With god.
I don’t surround yourself
With people are
So negative.
I’m a happy person
Who wake up
Everyday my life
With a smile
On my face
And actually say
Thank you
God’s
For giving me a better life

The night black,
Just like your soul,
And now because of you I'm no longer whole,

The ocean is blue,
Just like my tears,
I'm done hiding my fears,

It runs through my veins,
The color crimson red,
Without it I would be dead,

A soft orange glow,
Like the setting sun,
In this life I'm almost done,

I contemplate living,
My pointless life is in shades of grey,
and I wonder if I should stay,

I'm all alone,
My world has gone from light to dark,
The songs of angels will guide me home,

The pain I feel inside,
White and pure like snow,
Sometimes I wonder does anyone truly know?

Love is truly once’s in lifetime
kind of thing.
We may fall in love several times.
Have thousands of crush.
May have dated several times,
And not met them ever again.
But that one person among all stays alive in head heart soul.
Comes in dreams.
Is there always invisibly.
Not just an imaginary friend,
But strongly he knows his place.
Extraordinary special 1!
Who will always be there no matter what!!!

Believe in yourself -
in the power you have
to control your own life, day by day,
Believe in the strength
that you have deep inside,
and your faith will help
show you the way.
Believe in tomorrow
and what it will bring -
let a hopeful heart carry you through,
For the things will work out
if you trust and believe
there's no limit
to what you can do.

If we can’t communicate right
What will you think
In the future
That everything will okay.
You can’t even say
What’s in your heart
And what you have done.
If you have a little respect
Left inside your heart
You won’t left me
In the dark.
I’m a woman with
A lot of respect for others.

True friends
aren’t the one
who make your
problems disappear
They’re the ones who
won’t disappear
when you’re
Facing problems

It's only the beginning now
...a pathway yet unknown,
At times the sound of other steps
...sometimes we walk alone.

The best beginnings of our lives
May sometimes end in sorrow,
But even on our darkest days
...the sun will shine tomorrow.

So we must do our very best
Whatever life may bring,
And look beyond the winter chill
...to smell the breath of spring.

Into each life will always come
A time to start anew,
A new beginning for each heart
...As fresh as morning dew.

Although the cares of life are great
And heads are bowed so low,
The storms of life will leave behind
...the wonder of a rainbow.

The years will never take away
Our chance to start anew,
It's only the beginning now
So dreams can still come true.

If you truly feel
Something for someone else.
You as a man
Will avoid that.
You will stay faithful to
The one you love or care
About.
You won’t let another woman
Ruin what’s
Is waiting for you.

Be honest with yourself about that which you keep hidden.
Express your innate beauty in the way it feels most natural,
For it is your true beauty that is truly admirable.
Live a life that aligns with your true beliefs,
Not one that pleases the elites.
Don’t conform just to conform,
Do things because you choose to; from that you will transform.
Choice is a gift that we were all given,  
Embrace that gift and you can live your vision.
Find the worth that already exists within you,
For no external gain will ever give that to you.
You have deep within a special flow,
Follow that flow and you will glow.
Find your true nature by listening to your heart,
Live a life true to yourself and become living art.

I don’t if you could actually call it
A dream
Each time I have a dream
It always comes true
In my dream
There’s a guy
That I really like
Because he doesn’t know how
To make a decision.
Something else happened.
In my dream I walk away
I can’t see myself
Being with someone
Who can’t make a
Decision of his own.
I don’t like being the second.
If I mean so much to you.
I should be first in your mind

I'm trying to find something to base my life upon,
Something in this strange world that goes on and on.
As the years go by and time fades away,
What used to be "good days" are now filled with dismay.
Tomorrow comes, and then again it goes,
And my ambition to become something more grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
The life I want now gets closer each day.
All I've ever wanted was something to live for.
I don't want to be this little person anymore.
I've been basing my life upon what others think.
I wish I could go back and redo everything, every time an eye would blink.
I've fought to become who I am and what I want to be.
I have to remind myself that one day I will be free,
Free from the rules I followed as a child,
When everything was a game and life was so mild.
Now times have changed and I realize nothing is fair,
And sometimes it seems like nobody even cares.
It's like no one pays attention to what I feel is best for me
And what I think about the way some things should be.
I understand now that I'm pretty much on my own,
And I know a lot of what I can do will never be known.
All the time I think about everything I can't say, what I have to keep in,
And by doing this, my thoughts only get more complicated and deepen.
Soon I hope to find out who I am and what I am meant to become.
I want to know where I'm going.
I don't need to be reminded of where I came from.

You can’t just say something
Thinking that person will never
find out
You keep telling lies on top of lies.
Soon enough
That person will never believe
you again.
Don’t say you
Read the Bible and believe
In the name of God.
But you could turn around
Make a lies

Honestly I don’t care if
Your friend judging me
She will never be
Where I’m at.
Last year with everything
Had happened to me.
I counted my blessing. If I was wrong
In anyway.
I prayed to god
If god see anything I did wrong
I wanted god not to grant
My prayers.
But he pulled me out that dark place
Where my mind
Was doing and thinking.
I ask god if I was a bad person
Why stuff keeps happening to me.
God answered my question
Look at me now

Don’t let anybody
Drag you down
With them.
Best thing to do
Walk away.

I been waiting for
This day
To happen for me.
I finally got it.
Now I’m so happy
Because there’s nothing
In the world
Will ever stop me.
Doing what I want to do.

You wanna stay in the
Darkness’s
You wanna be yourself
That husband I met
Do you want woman
That’s hints you and control your life
Your want to be happy
And stress free
Makes your picks