There are spiders in the corners of my room
They hide in comfort from their impending doom
They have as much right as me
To stay here too
For I hide here when I cant see the moon
I don't think they will be here long
They seem to come and go
They leave their webs
They leave their homes
We are not that different
Maybe that they know
In time I will be gone too

I am not sure what is happening
But surely the rain will make me numb
When it stops then maybe sleep
I hope I dream of love
I am sensitive
Insecure
My emotions take me where they want
The simplest things I overthink
I am as vulnerable as they come

Loneliness keeps me in sometimes
I think I shake too much

Even around the plenty
It sometimes feels empty
These thoughts get me too ****** up

I wish there was an easy way
To get past the hurdles in my brain

But I know deep down
That this sadness is only temporary
Or at least that is what I say

It hurts
It may do for a while
I think i'm just waiting for the music to stop
Because the silence is unbearable
These thoughts do not go away
But I have learnt to let them in
To push them away is to leave this earth
And I don't want to go away again
I know I am young
Sometimes I only see the worst
But I want you to be happy
And I want to be happy too
The pain will stay for a while
But when it has gone
You will be better for it
And I will be too
The sun will shine eventually
We will not always feel blue

In this dream like meadow
Let your legs become roots
Open your heart to the flowers
In time it will bloom
Let the rain tap your skin
And let it nurture your soul
Become one with the forest
Before it is gone

The wrinkles will come soon
So best not to let your mind rot
For at the end of the day
That's all that you've got

This feeling is new to me
It stuns my mind
And lets me be
Empty hope
And lonely words
Is what I used to be
But now I can breathe
Make amends to the anxiety
And make sense of the hollow dreams
There is much more to me
Maybe in ways that you could only see
And when my words don't flow
Just know
Its because
My mind is stunned
By your beauty