I'm screaming
Out loud
In my head

But I look around and smile
I don't want people
To think I've lost my mind.

I'm not me anymore
Something else is controlling me
It's not me anymore.

Everything is a joke to me
Nothing makes sense
Like me.

I hate this
And at the same time
I love it.

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Fixed in the sky

Some twinkling
Some still

Reminds me of the time
The world was a happy place

When people,
Actually wanted to live here

When society didn't judge us
When were free to be us

When there was only
Joy and love around

But now,
All I see is

Fire, death, anger
Families torn apart

I see people
Losing their minds

People holed up in their houses
Afraid of society judging them

The world was a beautiful place
Now it just *****.

Sweaty
Running
Panting

Pass
Catch
Turn

Shoot
Swish
Goes in

Turn around
Looks at you
You don't care

Swish
Once again
Still no word from you

Substitute
Catch breath
And promise
To never look at you again.

Cut me open and let all the ink run from these veins,
until my words bleed dry, and only blank pages remain.

They tell me I'm pretty
That my smile is the best-
They've ever seen

They tell me I've got lovely hair
They say they're jealous
And ask me the secret to such beauty

But they wouldn't be jealous
If they saw,
What was inside this pretty girl.

They wouldn't be jealous
If they saw she was losing her mind
And her smile disappeared when left alone

They wouldn't be jealous
If they knew she pulled her pretty hair
From anger and frustration

They wouldn't be jealous
If they looked more closely.

Ever losing sanity
Mind crumbling to pieces
Heart pumping for the last time

This is how it ends
There will be no sequel
This is it

Mind filled with noises
It's never quiet
Can't wait for this to end

Bruises on my body
Pain spreading everywhere
All of it

Will end
Tonight
Can't wait.