i don’t understand
where all of this pain is coming from

pain i can’t contain
flowing through me

pure hurt
i feel inside me

my heart is heavy
and i feel weighed down

having never cried over someone,
why now?
why you?

you, who has left me with nothing but pain
you, who has me feeling like refuse
you, who has shattered my worth

why are you so different?
moreover, why have i changed?

me, who knew my self worth
me, who knew the right thing to do
me, who was playing it safe

yet this happens
shattering every part of my being

i’ve left me feeling empty,
i’ve left me judging myself,
i’ve left me feeling hatred for myself,

you made me hate myself
you made me hurt myself

you make me wish i never met you.

We're fragile
Just like glass

Every time we break
I'm left to pick up the pieces

Every time I share my joy
You say I'm acting like a child

When I share my troubles
You say I'm being ungrateful

I do something wrong
And you raise your voice

I do something nice
And it goes by ignored

Now I lie here
In a pool of my own blood

Will this go unnoticed too?
Will you finally see my pain?

But don't you worry amor

A place far from you
Is a place where I can finally be at peace

You ask me why I stopped talking to you
You ask me what's wrong

How do you not realize
I can't do this with you
You're not for me

We're so alike
And yet so different, don't you think?

You would never leave to start an adventure in a new city with just your backpack on your shoulders
But I would.

You think dancing together at a party is embarrassing
But I've been dying to do that.

You think museums are boring
But I could spend hours getting lost in it.

You don't like meeting new people
But I find it fascinating.

And I need to be with someone,
Who gets me,
Who wants to do things I love,
Who laughs at my stupidest jokes,
Who I can spend hours with and it feels like minutes.

I'm sorry but I have to let you go
It's not you
It was never you.

I am sorry that
someone you loved made you think
it's so hard to love

6:35 PM
30/1/21

Those words you say
Gives temporary happiness

But your actions
Make me hate love