I think it's meditation,
But you take it as a distraction.

I think you have more depth than you know,
But you refuse to visualize my perspective.

Teach me.
Drive me in your fast car.
Keep driving me away from the worries that envelope my mind.

Spoil me with metal flowers
And smiles that make me laugh till I cry.

I was stupid to lend my heart to lovers
Who played with it as an object of lust.

I was ludicrous for walking away
Because every time I race back
I realize how lively being in your presence can be.

Overflowing
With uncontrollable self harm.
Not physical,
But a mental means of distruction.

Hopelessness,
It swallows the mind,
Leaving nothing but raw sockets
That pour pain through the eyes.
Blind to what really matters
And a mortifying obsession with what does not.

Mind of a lover,
Yet mind of a hunter,
Along with mind of a victim combined,
A spectacular state of self deprecation
And nothing seems to go right.

Unable to notice the greatness
And a crystal clear vision for weakness
Over and over, a head to the wall.

The personality of a devil
Trapped inside an angle,
And back again with a hopeless head to the wall.

When will she feel the greatness?
When will she see the greatness?

When will she live for the greatness?

The skin is our only layer or armor
Hard to believe
Because it is so delicate
A smile is a rebellion
From the emotions of the heart
You walk through life
Wearing a mask on the streets
And come home to a broken smile
That has been hiding behind your lips
Will your problems ever be solved?
When will your self-hatred come to an end?
No one can help you
You are alone
You are not pretty
What are you thinking?
Put on your mask
Dance among the stars
Just to come home
To cry about the scars
You are not your only enemy
As everyone wants to say
That **** is just fantasy
Everyone gets in your way
You are a reflection of the negativity to come
So prepare yourself
And cover all you have to hide
Again and again
It never goes away

I know these are the things you will never say,
Because your mind is simply not made up this way
But I wish you'd tell me
That you were burdened by the expectations of the world,
And the reason why you let go of the so thought strong rope holding us together
Was not my fault,
But it was from your incapability to find balance within yourself.
I wish you'd explain
That life became a steep climb upon a large mountain
And you seemed to be carrying the weight of the world upon your shoulders.
And to make this journey simple, you let go of the things that were holding you back.
And one of those "things" you let fall behind
Was me.
I wish you'd look into my eyes and say
That you had made a mistake
Because you never seem to acknowledge
That the day I lost you,
Was the same day I lost my best friend.
And it pains me,
That your lost mind can't make sense of how I feel,
And what I say.
You are still lost in the expectations of the word
Because you so easily shattered such a beautiful thing.

Do not wait
for someone
to offer you
their world.
Remember,
you have your own.