Imperial

One day i will not need love anymore.
I will not rise to open the door cause that sound i am hearing is all in my heard.
You loved him the way fragile kids love candy.
You wrote songs and letters about him.
You still sleep with his shirt  to smell the cologne on it.
Anxiety will not let me breathe.
Because i was a fool in love.

When i caught you cheating.
You made my heart bleed.
I attended a nearby funeral procession.
I joined mourners there to cry my heart out.
Than i realized i never loved you.
I felt pity for you and couldn't let you go.
You were suicidal and lost everyone close to you.
I did not want to see you in that dark place.
So i stay to keep watch on you.

It became a devil snare for me.
I got trapped in a situation where you always came first.
I tolerated your toxic behavior.
I had to support your childish trait.
Find myself accepting your drunkenness.

I really wanted it to be you.
I so badly wanted it to be you that i will walk with the the alter.
Until i understood i was never in your plans.
I was your cry shoulder in your darkest moments.
You had someone to entertain you daily.
Until you get bored and came running to me with your problems.

I was never a boyfriend in your eyes.
You loved me because i reminded you of your father.
So instantly i was a father figure you wanted to uplift you..

I loved you when no else did.
I sacrificed my sanity to se you smile.
I can't put into words what that did to my heart.
I was hurt so deeply that i thought i will never love again.

Now that the dust has passed and settled.
I found somebody to help me find myself.
Who appreciate and values my love for her.
I bought a dress and a wedding ring for you.
This person will wear them in your behalf.

I saw that's there's nothing painful like regret.
Wondering what could have been.
In this love month you are sending me messages for forgiveness.
I am preparing a wedding for myself.
I can't worry about spilled milk.
While i have a platinum in front of my eyes.

Finally i realized that i was never asking for too much.
I was with a wrong person to give me affection.
You were with me because i was your therapist.
I am with someone that love and support me whole heartedly.
You gave me a lesson in life..
That don't stay in a relationship because you are afraid of what will happen to another person.
Stay in a relationship because you are loved and appreciated.
Knowing someone out there is praying for you.
I am a living testimony of it.
I have found that one whonis os dearest to my heart and soul.

Acrimony ☄☄☄

Due to covid i kept my distance from you.
While i thought your new job was stressful..
Gave you much more than space to fix yourself..
How could you do this to me?

I sacrificed my time to keep you happy.
When you lost your loved ones i was there with you.
When people insulted you and said you were worthless i was there defending your honor.
Apparently the worthless one in your eyes was me.

You spoke in riddles and you said it like a joke.
But those were loopholes that needed to be filled.
While i was planning our engagement and to celebrate our two year anniversary.
You were celebrating a year relationship with someone else.

The liver you had to visit me and kept getting butterflies in your stomach.
They were all a smoke flame to get me out of the way.
Finally someone confirmed it that every time you came home you always had someone by your side.
You even said he was the last person love of your life.

So what was i too you?
A fall out guy.
Someone that has to be there for you in your dark days.
I applaud you for taking me for a ride.
You don't have remorse you kept calling me and making plans with me.
You don't know that all your cheating schemes have come to the lime light.

I even introduced you to my circle lately.
You were even excited to meet them.
But geez i was a dam fool.
You made me weak as clown.
Finally now that i know the truth.

I decided to drink all night.
But alcohol couldn't make me drunk.
I kept me anxieties feon it.
I remember everything and how awkward suddenly you were acting.
I can't sleep and something inside me is eating me a live.

Thinking about all the girls i turned down.
Thinking about the opportunity i let pass by so that i can support and show you love.
You don't have even an once of mercy to tell me its over and that you have moved on.
You keep coming back to me.

What is it that you want?
You said you always have to have options available.
Well since you don't want to meet me.
Let me write this letter and make sure since I am your option.
I am not going to confuse you anymore.

But letting you visit me ever again.
I don't want to be your friend..
Let alone to fix whatever you called what was happening between us.
I have never felt so hopeless.
Don't know whether to run or cry.

You stole my time.
You wasted my dreams.
You made me a laughing clown in your friends.
You made me a puppy in your family.

I used to read about it on social media.
That being cheated by someone you love more than life can make you lose weight in seconds.
Here i have become a testimony of it.
Life has no regrets.
Time waits for no one.

I regret that I can not get you out of my mind.
Your face linger in my mind..
You played me like a prepared soup Oprah.
I can't get out of bed.

When i look at the guy in your pictures.
I only pity you.
Because you will never get a love back from me even a second chance.
Its over between us.

Although the heart doesn't want to accept.
I made my mind.
To start again and find someone that will mend this broken man.
So that i can start to love again.

🥰

My personality is constantly shifting.
I am the most humble i act different scenarios.
Different characters place in this world.
A piece of me i can share.
But while you hiding your true self.

I am over protective of my hear will not allow you to touch the surface.
Like an insecure girlfriend who knows the hiky.
First you flirt behind my back.
You just another one down the line.
You let me have left overs.

While the whole world had the best of you.
I turned my back on family and friends for you.
How could you play me like an instrument's?
Your name was drag me to hell.
What more did you wabt from me?
I gave you my heart and my time but i was not enough for you .

How did i end up falling for you?
Like a puppy i followed you into the pit.
You asked me if i liked when you cry?
But those crocodile tears where just a display of your cheating habit.
Did you ever considered my feelings when you lie and cheat?

Honey i am sorry?
Are you joking.
I took you in and sacrifice myself to slave for your happiness.
It clearly shows you choose to ******* yourself around.
Although my heart feels thankful when you hold it.
I wish you can just send me away to the grave.

Into the dagent i keep feeling sad.
You told your friends you don't love me.
You said you sorry it was a mistake.
Now i am here your undevoted feelings are for another man.
I figured maybe i always been a fool in love with you.

Like a *** you marinated me on the fire with deception.
You made me feel so insecure and weak.
You come 25 minutes too late.
Saying to forgive you and give your a second chance.
Go to the man that you whisper his name when you are sleeping ?
You find yourself calling for me.

25 minutes too late.
You knew this is the type of ******* that can **** anyone who love you more than life.
As i load this gun with 3 remaining bullets.
My pride will not allow me to deal with this anguish and betrayal.
My finally words to you.
Hope your consciousness will **** you like the day you put me second to the world.
You cry in the darkness alone and cold in this cruel world.
You just send me away to my ancestors with a bullet in my head.
🔥🔥🔥🔥💐💐💐

💐💐💐

Troubles occurs easy when i am with you.
There's danger in your smiles.
There's pleasure right now.
How do you make this beautiful.
Don't wanna leave you never.
I need you here while its still day light.
Can't you see that in my eyes?

I didn't want to go to you.
I didn't want to go at all.
I just got out of the December days.
I did not expect you in my  one sided fate.
I barely know you, so why did we get all of December?

You don't call at all.
So why would i look for you?
Neither the wax in blue water.
Not the rain outside the window.
Nor the steel in the surface ofbthe sea do not predict you to me.
Even waiting for you is difficult.

In the silence in the endless fog.
In the tiresome passage.
I'm running away from you.
I like you, but i don't......

I wanna hold your hand in public places.
I wanna laugh at your silly jokes.
I wanna snuggle on the couch with you everyday.
I wanna gaze into your eyes and look deep within.
I wanna lay in your chest and vent my soul out.
Lastly i wanna kiss your lips until they become sore.
One thing i know i cannot control the time we have with each other.
But the love i have for you will be separated by the grave.
While i am with you these words you have to hear them when you sleep and wake up.
Because you are part of my heart.

I will build my life upon your love.
It is a firm foundation i am looking forward to it.
I will put my trust in you alone.
I will not be shaken by my insecurities and doubts about us.

..

If you look deep into my eyes.
You may see a sensitive romantic guy with lot of love to give.
So i want to discover your personality and to be part of your life.
Not just in social media world, but in reality..

I have an important message to share with you.
This man craves your kisses and dreams to be next to you.
Want me to say his name?

But firstly you should know that he might be crazy about you.
With him next to you may have endless and restless nights of pure love.
Is this what you looking for honey?

Desirable guy with lips sweet like honey.
Which will give you unforgettable moments and emotions.
Nothing left to do.
Except being with this man all the time and treat him precious.
So he can reciprocate the love back to you.

If you are waiting impatiently for this meeting filled with love and lust.
Then look at me honey.
I am the man which want to receive your cherished attention.
Sudden urge to be next to you.
Overwhelmed my all emotions of my being.
I am caught up by your affection!
Call my name, honey it's a name of your love.
.........

😍😍

Where are you?
Where are you?
How can i find you in the hundreds worlds between which you wander.
Casting these unbearable glances at me?
How can i not confuse you with your reflection in a hundred mirrors.
In a thousand sharp fragments of mirrors?

You're almost gone.
I won't find you.
No matter how much i reach for you.
No matter how much I search for you.
Tell me where are you?
You can hear me and even want to answer.

But you don't know where you're.
So don't utter anything.
Come, lets keep quiet and look at each other.
It does not matter where you are, where I am, where we both are..

I believe that in this case the prospect of meeting you is a sufficient excuse.
As you ponder these words.
How surprised would you be to find out that you are looking forward to spending some time with me.
How you just start to get a deep pleasure from it.
Now that i have finally found where you are.

😍😍

You know, i dreamed about you today.
Mainly sweetheart.
Your hands, hugging me tightly,
Almost to the point of pain.
As if you are afraid to let go even for a second.

Your fingers entwined with my hair.
Your kisses...
You kissed me with an unthinkable greed.
Almost with anger attitude.

It did not matter what was around the universe, cities or people..
If only i could be with you right now.
Just for a moment.
To hold you tight.
So you know I'm there for you.

So that you can feel me even at the distance of ten thousand kilometers away.
You know, i don't want to know anything about what's going to happen.
I don't want to lift the curtain and see the future.

I just want you to be happy today.
Here and right now.
I want and will fight to victory for your smallest happy smiles..
Eveif it is fleeting away.
Because nothing is more important to me right now.
So that you can reciprocate with your love.
Before the last drop of tears take it all away.
🔥🔥🌹🌹