Acrimony ☄☄☄

Due to covid i kept my distance from you.
While i thought your new job was stressful..
Gave you much more than space to fix yourself..
How could you do this to me?

I sacrificed my time to keep you happy.
When you lost your loved ones i was there with you.
When people insulted you and said you were worthless i was there defending your honor.
Apparently the worthless one in your eyes was me.

You spoke in riddles and you said it like a joke.
But those were loopholes that needed to be filled.
While i was planning our engagement and to celebrate our two year anniversary.
You were celebrating a year relationship with someone else.

The liver you had to visit me and kept getting butterflies in your stomach.
They were all a smoke flame to get me out of the way.
Finally someone confirmed it that every time you came home you always had someone by your side.
You even said he was the last person love of your life.

So what was i too you?
A fall out guy.
Someone that has to be there for you in your dark days.
I applaud you for taking me for a ride.
You don't have remorse you kept calling me and making plans with me.
You don't know that all your cheating schemes have come to the lime light.

I even introduced you to my circle lately.
You were even excited to meet them.
But geez i was a dam fool.
You made me weak as clown.
Finally now that i know the truth.

I decided to drink all night.
But alcohol couldn't make me drunk.
I kept me anxieties feon it.
I remember everything and how awkward suddenly you were acting.
I can't sleep and something inside me is eating me a live.

Thinking about all the girls i turned down.
Thinking about the opportunity i let pass by so that i can support and show you love.
You don't have even an once of mercy to tell me its over and that you have moved on.
You keep coming back to me.

What is it that you want?
You said you always have to have options available.
Well since you don't want to meet me.
Let me write this letter and make sure since I am your option.
I am not going to confuse you anymore.

But letting you visit me ever again.
I don't want to be your friend..
Let alone to fix whatever you called what was happening between us.
I have never felt so hopeless.
Don't know whether to run or cry.

You stole my time.
You wasted my dreams.
You made me a laughing clown in your friends.
You made me a puppy in your family.

I used to read about it on social media.
That being cheated by someone you love more than life can make you lose weight in seconds.
Here i have become a testimony of it.
Life has no regrets.
Time waits for no one.

I regret that I can not get you out of my mind.
Your face linger in my mind..
You played me like a prepared soup Oprah.
I can't get out of bed.

When i look at the guy in your pictures.
I only pity you.
Because you will never get a love back from me even a second chance.
Its over between us.

Although the heart doesn't want to accept.
I made my mind.
To start again and find someone that will mend this broken man.
So that i can start to love again.