Breaking up is not hurting me
As much as that memory
I justified myself not cause of fear
But cause anymore comments on my character I can’t bear
Waited so long but couldn’t make anything right
I wasn’t going to hate you ever but now I might
You don’t scare me if you think so
You have just disgusted me each day, more and more
I wasn’t with the same person since the past few days
I know this wouldn’t be of any use as I know what everyone says
Just gaining attention I am
They might point at that
Then they’d pretend to believe and sympathies with me now
But their true colors would be visible once they ask me how could I allow?
It’s ironic for a girl who was writing against being abused
To have become a victim and was tried to be seduced
I have always heard it’s right if you understand one another and love
But since the third time or so I felt it was enough
Million people million mouths
How will I shut them all out?
I won’t even try at all
Because now I’ve nothing to lose at all
I might even cry for an hour or rather not even a drop
Cause I might have told you to stop
But I never took any initiative to get away from that act
And this might be a true fact
That I let my guard down on my own will
And letting you in had been a part of my sin
I don’t know where to go now I don’t have anything to hold on
Neither do I have anyone beside me to make me feel strong and help me move on
Curse me lord! If I’m anywhere wrong
Cause after all this time I expected myself to be strong
But I’m nothing more than a mindless *****
I just kept on squeaking when I actually should have roared
That’s why now mostly by people I am being ignored
I’m not blaming only that person but also me
How could I lower it so much - my self-esteem?
Believe me, in all this I had nothing gained
I have just been accused as wrong and tamed
I have nothing more now to say
Other than just this that I’ve never had anyone with me to stay
Neither a friend nor any lover
But I think now love is something I’ll never think over
I’m done with society
With everyone’s mentality
I am done with not only that memory
But I’m completely and totally done, with me.

She was broke,
only her heart now spoke.

This was not what she'd asked for,
or wanted to cherish.
But now, she was a pariah
left all alone.

All was not yet lost,
she could still cope,
with a Ray Of Hope...

She struggled and pushed herself through the dark,
and she found it at last,
she no longer needed anyone else's support,
Cause she was now herself- 'A RAY OF HOPE' !

Stay Away!
Torn clothes and swollen eyes,
Messy hair and silent cries.
She kept on shrieking all that while,
But no one saved her from that heinous crime.

Yes, you got that right- she was *****!
Oops! I'm sorry but she told me she couldn't disclose their names.
Each one of those cruel monsters,
Kept on scratching and licking her body like that of a lobster's.

Wondering who that girl was, right?
What would come over you if I tell you it was me- sympathy, hatred or fright?
But alas! I can't name just one girl out of this lot,
But even if I'm ready to fight, would the society accept or let me live with peace, the answer is simple- No, they'll NOT!

Even if I keep their identities no more un-named,
People might beat them up or send them to jail,
But after a while my clothes would be judged,
They’d all forget my pain and I’d just get blamed.

“Every girl, everywhere needs to watch out!”
That’s what they say whenever we step out.
But just ask yourself, have you ever instructed your sons to stop staring or play those stupid eve-teasing games?
Because there’s where it all starts from the idea of planning rapes…

You, being a man might never know this,
But I know, the amount of pain a woman suffers, which you fail to notice.
Every girl gets *****, in some way or another,
What’s wrong in staring right? It’s just another form of a friendly gesture.

But, gestures don’t seem friendly,
When your eyes pierce mine.
But you never look away instead, you wink proudly,
With a wicked smile.

I agree you never touched me,
But that look in your eyes scares me to death mentally.
I know you never ****** me up,
But just that action you did by pulling your zipper up,
Was enough for me to choke myself up.

I know you’ve an excuse ready to defend yourself,
Advise me to dress properly, and cover myself?
If that’s the problem as you all say,
Then why did it happen to the girl in a cloak the other day?

And if you still feel like you were just having fun like any usual day,
Then how’d you feel if, someone looks at your sister in that way?

I might not know what *** feels like,
But I surely know the intensity of the pain you wanted to induce in me at that point of time.

I wouldn’t say stop your feelings and never confess or come forward to say,
But, if she says “No” in any way,
The best way for you would just be to- Stay Away!

Flashing lights and days bright couldn’t be better with you at my side.
I didn’t need anything in rush, but you broke my heart in a hush.
Thought I could never be well again,
when I looked out of the window to take a glimpse at the rain,
Realised that all my feelings had gone in vain.
Was it all a joke?
How could I be left broke?
Couldn’t find any answers,
Lost myself in the late-late hours.

While trying to find my destiny,
Found someone who made me feel love’s eternity.

Suddenly a glittering light flashed from the dark,
It was like a tyndall effect on my heart.

Saw a knight so tall and bright,
Gave me a hand and asked if I’d be his bride?

Shook my head in agreement and went on a long trail.

His presence left me mesmerised,
Cause for I couldn’t see what I had left behind.

All the black memories got washed out,
With the new sounds of love profound.
It was like an ailing,
There couldn’t be any love with such a Great Ending!

You’d be here someday,
Where I stand today,
You’d feel the same for me,
But I’d be nowhere for you to see.

You might even call me out,
With a trembling fear like mine in each shout,
But I’d not answer you,
Making the pain difficult for you.

That day my love, would be just,
When you’d understand how you left my heart covered in dust,
That day you’ll cry over your deed,
And my smiles, kisses and hugs will become your need.

But you’d be there alone to plead,
Cause then I’ll have moved on and a great life I’d lead.
I don’t want to curse you but I know without even showing how your heart will bleed.

That day you’d look everywhere, but not see me,
Laying somewhere far from you I’d be,
With someone who had loved me when you’d not,
And cared for me when you forgot.

That day I’d smile and advise you to move on,
Cause then we’d have actually been torn.
That day you’d realize my love for you,
And you’ll fall the same way I fell for you,
But it’ll be too late later on,
Because, darling by then I’d have moved on!