a couple dancing under the stars
chemistry unavoidable.

The stars hold them in place
the universe is guided by their love.

forever unavoidable.

"you have the right to remain silent"
"freedom of speech mr.officer"

Beautifully, scattered, broken dreams
merely brought on by curiosity

in the ruins, and broken faith
lies a reality we can't escape

for the world is dark, hopeless, and shallow
and in the memories of deceased, we wallow.

what frightens me in the world today
is that nobody knows
nobody is aware
people are suffering

everywhere

what frightens me in the world today
success in unreachable
nobody is ever happy
we are trapped behind our faults


bring us to the times where
generosity wasn't a surprise
where soft souls walked into our lives
just to simply bring a smile

where in this world today shall we look for happiness
where can we find a path where humility bridges over
the pain
suffering
anguish
loneliness
hunger
death
and the broken hearts of this world

we need to rise up in this new year
bring upon change that inflicts joy
a simple smile

let our resolutions not be for OUR own good
but for the good of OUR surroundings, our neighbors, our enemies

for when you learn to love and wish for the better of your enemies
i believe in that time, you can truly find peace

i find comfort in you
in the ups and downs
the ins and outs

in the odd places we rage against
the tide only reels us in
an earthquake that bonds the earth together
in all the places that are meant too meet closer
than they already are

our destruction is beauty
the rain on a sunny summer day
the boldness of the trumpet in a parade

the harmony of the honk from one rage-ful car to the next
you are my best, the best within the chaos of our  noisy
mistuned life

i open up my mind so my feelings can unwind
im caught up in the bind of our lives so intertwined
we flow like the nile, steady for a while
then we rage like the pacific with no problems in specific
you light me up like the rays from the sun
you break me down like a tidal wave and earthquake in one
once more we remember what we are in this for
trust like the promise of a tomorrow
strength like unbreakable metal
we are immensibly perfect
imperfectly worth it
we grow from eachothers depths in our souls
you know
we show our colors, as they shine luminescent glows of perfection
we know our worth, working on our work
working on our worth
you for me
me for you
a bond that can never undue.

wait for me
im almost there
your running far ahead
i run at my fastest pace
still unable to catch up
you are almost out of sight
i give it one more push
your out of sight
all i wanted was
for you to wait
for me

I lay here in this lonely hour
with nothing but an empty memory
and a crowded heart

memories we once had
but i cant piece together
to much has fallen apart

you left me without a second thought
did you even love me

i question who i was as a person
was i not enough
was there something i didn't do?
a lust i didnt attend to?

a relationship without communication is bound to die
because you become immune to the consent of silence that lingers
in the unprotected heart

the shadows of the empty days only linger away
until i realize why you left
me alone

without you
what do i do?

It seems like forever since
i have found true happiness.

It feels like a spark within
me has vanished.

I am not what i used to be

a once carefree, crazy-spirited
girl

Turned into an uncontrollable mess
of binging, purging, hunger, anxiety, unworthiness
and anger

i feel like i am never good enough
or ever good at anything

everybody looks down on me
                        i am nothing in their eyes.

As i sit here and try to be clever
make things rhyme
make the lines linger together in a rhythmic pattern

but the truth is sometimes there is no pattern
no necessity for rhyme
and maybe the words just wont be "GOOD" enough

the words just need to be genuine
heartfelt
sublime
open
closed

however the hell you feel
write it and to someone
it may seem real.

with you:
length of time is irrelevant
i can't focus
i find myself frustrated
im unbelievably joyful
i learned love is a value
patience comes with practice
tolerance comes from strength
love isn't hidden
i have no shame
life is valuable
and true
and thats all because i have you.