It's way too early to be feeling this way
I can't suppress my thoughts
I am nothing
Powerless human
What can I do?
Something is wrong with me
Eating me from inside.
Been this way for months
I need a new life
This one I'm in isn't exciting
I need to run
I need to leave
Before it's too late
Before my mind consumes me
Heart and soul impenetrable.
Veins run cold
I'm something you will never understand
I am lost and chained.
My optimism is gone
Mind has been corrupt
My thoughts are not my own
How did I get here?
I know you dwell within
Deep in my mind you wait
Suppress the monster.
Keep him chained.
He waits and anger builds
I'm breaking away
Stress and pressure consuming me
And still he waits.
Trapped in this cruel world
With only one goal
How to escape?

I am your light
Your guide in the night
Walk with me now
Travel as far as we can
Infactuated beyond belief
Lovely words drive me
You are beautiful
You make me weak
Watch my words speak
Let me be yours
Your power
Your balance
Your hero
Someone you want, and need.
Yours.
My love to exceed
I am King,
Will you be my queen?
I visit you when I close my eyes
Elegant but powerful
Never to leave my mind, 
You see who I am
Your deepest thoughts
I want to know you
The real you
The you no one else has ever seen
Show me your soul
If you trust me
I will not hurt you
Only to serve you
My Queen
Eyes that take souls
Smile that never stops
Beauty beyond belief
Wrapped in your graceful touch
So tight you can never leave
I crave you
Day and night
a fire you started in me
that cannot be extinguished.
Someone who sees. Who understands.
Feeling it's warmth.
Never to leave my mind.

Sometimes I get so worried
Worried that you'll hurt me
I don't mean to
Just how my mind works

Like, I want to put all of my trust in you but it's hard
I know it takes time

Sometimes I just need reassurance
I feel like I'm annoying
I feel my path is not connecting with yours
I get so scared
So scared I'll get hurt

I've been stood up so much
I hate it

Before you I had no one
No one I trusted with my emotions
I couldn't
No one could handle them or even try to understand

I don't want to put all of my problems and thoughts on you
I need to let it out though
I know it's eating me alive
I know I still hurt
The distance is what worries me
I know why people cheat
I'm a psych major. 
I know people
I know how they are

My mind is a curse
Sometimes I hate it and want to give up
Everything is just too much at times.

For someone to walk into my life like you
It's unbelievable
Its scary
I'm scared of what you can do
You have to power
Don't miss use it.
Please don't

If you must, then let me down easy.
I am the person who puts 100% into a relationship.
I will do everything in my power to please you and myself.
I like balance.

Have I ever told you my deepest fear?
Well it's love.
As beautiful as it is, it can end in seconds

I have so much to give
So much to show you
If you give me time I will

I don't mean to be of offence to you
I just want you to undertand

Just a lonely soul
Wandering the earth
In search for something
That can never be found
Cursed at birth
Incapable of loving another
Never to change
Born for leaving

This is me
Gypsie at heart
Runner not a lover
I dine with the witches
A beast of no remorse
Show no pain
No fear
Consume what's in my path
I am lost

I always will be.

I need time alone
time to think
time find myself
I need to figure out who I am
I need to figure out what
The time alone
the time that I sit by myself
It hurts
it's miserable
I can't stand it
because all I think about is you
I don't know how to stop
I don't know why I do
but you're the person I need the most right now
and I can speak to you
how do I stop
who do I talk to
no one understands
no one listens
I don't know how to figure out what's going on my head
its just too much for me
you could make sense of how I feel.
You could help me through this
I know you could help me
but I can talk to you
because I'm scared
scared we'll fall right back into cycle scared of you of what you think of me

but the true reason can't talk to you because I love you
and I know that if I talk to you
it would just ruin everything
I'm sorry but I just don't know what to do

I am what I am
Nothing more
And nothing less
pry at me if you wish
I will tell all someday
I will tell of the day she left
The day my parents separated
The day where I feared no man
The days that made me who I am
The days that made me a man
I will cry in your arms
Weeping my sorrows away
Passing them on to you
Trusting that you'll know what to do with them
Someday you will come along.
To save me from myself
To ease my troubled soul
And to bring light where darkness fell
Someday my love
I will show you who I am
All of my hopes and dreams
Downfalls and surprises
One in thousands.
Just another fish in the sea
Can you find me?
My love.

I feel like I'm in this world alone.
Wandering soul
Looking for another like mine
I cannot love another
Incapable of you
I am hopeless
No one compares
I cannot stop my mind
It reaches out
Wanting you
Craving your soul
Missing your mind
I don't know why
Feels like hell

I. Just wish we could talk.
Sometimes I need you.
To make sense of this world
You were good at that
Understanding me
It was always you
I can't do this much longer
I feel I'll go crazy
But I know
I am patient
I am strong
You cannot hurt me anymore
I am free
Yes I miss you
But I will live
Love was ours
God it was beautiful