It's nice to know you're doing fine,
I see that you're happy and I'm not on your mind.
It hurts that we don't talk. 
But it's good because we would never stop.
The things I wish I could tell you, 
The countless times I've almost called you.
Many nights that I don't sleep,
Drowning in tears as I weep.
Change is good for the both of us,
Moving on like we discussed.

I know that you'll always be there.
In my heart
In my mind
Somewhere.

Stay strong my queen, 
This world has so much to offer you.

Love is always beautiful in the end,
No matter what.

I'm in a mid trap and all I think about you.
Can't sleep can't eat
nothing takes my mind off.
Reality vs Insanity?
you can ask me where I fall.
I can't breath, overrated anyways.
Values of life.
start contemplating every outcome 
Then accept them.
A starting place or a new beginning?
I need excitement, adventure.
Common words from a lonely man.
I can only contemplate death.
never to do a thing about it.
Lives unlike my own.
There is nothing greater than us.
show me what you believe,
I do not judge.
Life's only outcome is death. 
No one will be remembered.
Consumed with power and ego
I live to create a better life.
Not for me but my own.
Not to be remembered, 
But to remember lessons.
Because what is learned can only be remembered.

I know it hurts. 
I know how bad. 
You can't even talk to me.
I can't help but die inside.
Wish things didn't have to be this way.
I'm sorry for everything.
I know you're sorry too. 
You're still holding me down. 
How do I let you to? 
Haven't heard from you in over a month. 
Hope you're moving on.
I know it's hard.
How to love another?
I cannot imagine.
Still.
I am stuck here.
Lonely and cold and weak.
Waiting on someone. 
Someone like you.

I am fascinated with love. I always have been. I want to know someone more than they know themselves and love it. I want to connect with someone, instantly. I want to be holding you in my arms and know that I'll never let go. I want to understand you in ways that no one ever has. I want to be your light in the dark. I will be all of your strength and you will be my weakness. They say when it's real you just know. I'm not looking for love but if she finds me I won't look past her. I need a friend. A lover. Someone who sees and understands. Perfect in her own ways

All is forgotten but not forgiven. 
Sleeping just to pass the time. 
Staying high to block out the pain. 
Been months since I've cried
It's just a high school relationship.
Nothing big, just a broken heart. 
Lonely stoner finding his way. 
Tired of seeing the same people. 
Music is my release. 
It's my temporary escape. 
Sooner than later.
Back to reality. 
We all have demons.
My rage dwells within.
I'm angry and I don't know why.
****** at the world. 
I don't want anything to do with anyone.
Leave me alone.
Please.

Just another someone to make me feel special for a couple weeks. Nothing long term you're only temporary. I don't make plans for us. I tell you from the start that I'm not what you're looking for. I'm not your knight and shining armor. I'm not your best friend. I don't need your help. I don't want to hear what you have to say. I know how it all goes. It's easy to say yes. It's easy to give in a little and like how she feels. It's okay for today and tomorrow. Sickening when I try and feel. Coming here I will not be hurt again. You can't get to know me. You can't change me. I'm not like the others. I crave to be something you can't make me feel. There's no point in this. I just get lonely. I'm not the same man. Drowning in my thoughts. 
Incapable of love.

The odds are against me.
For I am nothing.
Stuck on a road that leads to death. This feeling. The moment. It's killing.
I cannot breath so why am I here?
I cannot see, and I cannot think another thought.
Believe me when I say I am hopeless. Break me into pieces and throw me to the birds.
I am weak.
Let off the gas so I can take a break. This overwhelming heavy feeling on my whole body. I

don't know what to do.