I hope these words
Make you fall for me
Because I don't have much going for me
Maybe the way you heard,
How I speak your name.
Will affect the breaths you take.
And I'll find what I need to spark the flame.
Whisper to me how I can fix your heartache.

A sea green glimmer in the pitch black of repeating breaths and unheard goodbyes.
Something about them I hope I never forget
Stitching up the seams of every broken thing.
The vivid music of silence and mirroring love.

If I Hold Your Hand, I'm Holding On For Dear Life.

You're the cure to this melancholy nostalgia that has followed me through life.
Nothing is as bad as I remember and everything does get better.
We can face this together.

My skin and bones are healed
But can I say the same for my mind?

I'm tired but I can't sleep
I'm hungry but I can't eat
But you
You keep coming back for me
Or is it just what I think
Nothing more than a blink
And you're gone.
Is this the disease?
Or the attention I need?
They say a chemical imbalance
I plead
It's not that but more
But Words cannot explore
The lack
Of what
I'm feeling.

Remember the way the leaves used to crumble between the spokes of our tires?
The exciting monotony of that broken pavement
The stories, the races,
and now,
Just the few paces
That separate us.
For our world is the same,
Yet so different from those years ago
Where life let our happiness flow.

Love and life confuse me
Ive been trying to find the answers
Dangling on the edge of inner security
But thoughts take over like a cancer
And love blinds us, can't you see?
In time, with treatment, it does get better
Until then I will stop with the inquiry.

I'm just a hand me down friend,
You grew out of me like your loose split ends.

I'm scared to say those eight letters

You are my favorite thing to see when I first wake up.
Your voice is my favorite to hear whisper "goodnight."
The perfect beginning
The perfect ending.
You are perfect.

Nothing says
"I love you"
More than
An
Anxiety attack.

In the world we live in it's more acceptable to believe in the Devil than it is to believe in God.

I'm homesick and
there's a monster underneath
every bed
I lay in.

I feel like,
By the time I'm finished preparing for my future
I'll be too old to remember
The things I enjoy.

Will we ever leave this page of hypothetical love?

Whose umbrella will you be standing under when the skies come crashing down

Why is it the "love" I felt with her
Felt quick, we always remarked
"I can't believe it's been this long
I feel like it was yesterday..."
Yet this "love" I feel with you
Feels slow, but evenly paced.
We always remak
"I can't belive its only been this long
It feels like forever."

This morning I fell awake
To dreams of you and I
Entangled together in the night opaque.

I remember the warm nights
The silent drives
The laughs
But not the cries
I wasn't there
You wouldn't let me
Too scared
You had to protect me
So let me,
Take your hand again.
We'll drive somewhere new
You can tell me of.
Let's not focus on the date,
And time ticking away.
Until the storms return,
We'll pray during our infamous
Hydroplane.
That our breaks don't fail us.
If they do, I'll crash with you.

I'm sitting all alone
Listening to blink 182
I can't stop thinking of how I hate you.
But please don't hang up the phone
Don't load the gun
When you're trying to blow off steam
Because I know exactly were to shoot your self esteem.

She's special in how she alters time
Seconds don't matter in the same
Way they do when you're not around.

Sometimes I just
Wish I couldn't
Feel at
All

The feeling of
Dry cracked skin
Simultaneously
Being ignited
And doused
By acid rain
This is nothing.

I want my friends back,
But the thief named
adulthood stole them
from me.

Alone in the dark,
Far and apart,
My mind starts shaping forms in my heart.
All I can see
You and me
Falling fast by the cool ocean breeze.
Your smile by far,
Is my most favorite star,
Scattered along in the galaxy you are.

I hope you're happy
And I mean that.
It seems to me my hair is now longer
My pants are no longer darker
And you live a little farther.
Now happy is not black and white
Happy was spelled with a Y
Back in junior high.
Today it's spelled with a joint
A bottle of jack, Oh, I forgot the exclamation point.
In the end it seems okay.
It's been ten years, for some four, for some less.
Nothing can break us, nevertheless.
It wasn't like the movies and it wasn't like the books.
Some got lost,
and we don't exchange looks.
But I won't forget the windows down,
The music loud.
I hope it meant to you what it meant to me,
And I hope you're happy.

im in the lost and found but no ones looking for me

I'm scared to death of what comes next
But maybe it's not about how I feel.

I struggle to find words that portray the feelings I have for you.
There's more to love than words.
Out of these elaborate languages we've somehow constructed
nothing can grasp the complexity for how you make me feel.

We've spent this whole life pretending
That we enjoy living,
That our smiles are genuine.
I've spent my years pretending
That I'm proud of the person
I see in my reflection.
So tell me again why We can't follow
Our dreams.

I have this weird feeling
The feeling you have when you miss someone
Or when you're homesick
But I'm  home
And my friends are too
I still feel nothing is here

Someone doesn't have to die
For you to lose them.

Maybe
I don't sleep as well
As I used to
Because everytime
I open my eyes
You aren't lying
Next to me

I need you out of my head and in my bed

I grew up knowing what my future held
My dreams crushed by aspirations
I didn't care.
But why
It seems
On the eleventh hour
Do I forget everything.
I don't know what I want anymore.
Please if it's one thing
Don't follow the crowd.
That's it.
Now I walk in a room full of forgotten friends
What happened in these past years?
Just
Don't let
Life slip through
My fingers.

Thoughts hang suspended in the air
Like wires of unrepair
And how im nothing more than a mourning prayer.
Everything is still inside of there
I don't care,
I tightened and set the snare.

You're the sunlight splintering
through the overcast
Behind my eyes.

The last I love you was a waste of breath
that I'm sure I'll be missing as I lie
down on my deathbed
yearning for
one
more
second.

I'm sorry
That you're sorry
You're just so unapologetic,
Why can't you see that I'm being romantic.
Now
Stop.
Listen,
I'm full of insecurities
But nothing you can do will cure me of this disease.
And I'm sorry
That you're sorry
I bring this on myself,
Leave me alone, like a book on a shelf.
I'll,
Collect some dust,
and watch you from afar
Maybe one day
Someone will see me for more than they are.

I have this bad habit
When I wake up all
I can think about is
You.

I want nothing more than to never grow up

No one ever says goodbye
They just leave.

Hold on to the people who make life less scary

Cold mornings like this I wish I  could roll over your head on my shoulder
I wish I was warm again
feeling these sheets and your skin
and I wish you were the coffee that burned my lips because
I'm cold again
The branches are empty
and so are my hands

The clouds disperse in my head
When you're laying in my bed
when we roam
in the same home
Im not scared
For me you have repaired.

It's the time of year again
I can see my breath fade my friend
The way your perfume
Stirred in my bedroom
You stood next to me last year
Why am I still here
I followed you into that dark abyss
Why'd you leave me with a poison kiss

Do they miss me like I miss them?
Am I a voice inside their head?
Or am I just another kid no one gets?

I'm scared one day soon
The skies will come crashing down again
And this time it will be my fault.