I always thought
I want to be the voice of a generation
Until I realized
This generation is *******

I was born
Without a voice
And given in its place
A way to feel differently
About the things we perceive
To see the bitter crush of reality

I was young
When I found out
What finding is all about
A way to believe differently
About the things that we need
And the reasons behind necessity

I was born
Without a voice
But I found one

I was born
Without a voice
But not by choice
By harsh and dark reality
This light I see I need to share
I found a voice if only to say I care

Because when you feel
No one else is there
I wanted to tell you that I was
I was born
Without a voice
But I found one

Its hard
To be vulnerable
But for real trust and love
Its necesarry

So swallow your pride
Show someone your weakness
So that they
Can show you their strength

It is a frozen night
Shattered cold and colored stars
And a frost lays on the ground
The world gone numb
It is a long winter
Barren trees face the icy wind
The birds don't sing
All is quiet

Still waiting
In the soil
It is not a grave
It is new life

It is a seed
And it knows
Even when we don't
Spring will be here before too long

And the seed becomes a rose

The flower never grows
Without the rain
Maybe its just a summer mist
Maybe its a hurricane
it's all the same
The flower never grows
Without the rain
And all my grey clouds
Turned to black
And brought raindrops
Only in lightning
Its all the same
I was begging for your water
However it came
Quench my thirst
Or make me drown
I will be happy
I was only waiting on the rain

The clouds have opened up
I'm growing now

Wake up and know I love you
Wake up as I'm falling to sleep
Walk in dreams today
Knowing I dream of you

Wake up and forget the nightmares
Wake up to the rising sun
That me and my tired shoulders
Struggle to lift above your soul

Wake up and feel my light
Wake up to the songbirds
Singing you the songs
That I taught them to sing

Wake up and forget the darkness
Wake up to glorious morning
And let my hand be that of an angel
Guiding you to your destined peace

Wake up
And live the dream
I'm having now about you
A truth that I will always love you

I don't want to sleep
But how else can I wake up?

I'm afraid I'll turn into a wall
The land that the walls
Are made from
I know you're in pain

Fall into love again
Fall into me

I'm afraid that the walls are speaking
They call your name
Louder than I can
I know your in pain

Fall into something new
Greater than you
And me

It was building up to this
Day by day
A mountain top
Steb by step
We reached the highs

And now the moon wanes

It was growing to be
What we want
A light to see
What we need
We saw it once

And now the moon wanes

And all the pleasure
All the pain
The truth understood
Unexplained
But never forgotten

Now the moon wanes

Let's fight a war we don't believe in
These dinosaurs rule the earth
These bombs are not solution
These bones, these books
These boxes
This angry ammuntion

And what will I believe in?
What will I be?
When its only war around me
And death is by design

Let's die for no reason
These dinosaurs never sleep
These bullets are empty endings
This blood, this breath
This love
Being torn to bitter pieces

And what can I believe in?
What can I be?

Love
Just like eyes
A world away in the stars
Words in the sky
Hearts in the night
This life is a moment
A way to remember
I know the sea
I say the moon
I have sun hands
Maybe waves of light

Things fall in the ocean
Rain falls on the lost

Comes a small day
People feel blue skies forever
Time took a left
I touch a mind
I hear summer air
I think about a girl
Who looked to be breaking
But when the earth is gone
She'll finally whisper

"Despite the pain
My soul walks in dreams"

I won't waste my time
Fighting never ending wars
I know I can't win

Someone spoke the word "love" and it gave me a flashback to watching elephants in the circus so I decided to start teaching goldfish to do backflips as an interesting parlor trick similar to pulling out a deck of cards and always randomly choosing the queen of spades

I have a flashback to a flashback in which someone spoke the word "love" and it reminded me of the Blurred Crusade and a trip to the circus and an elephant graveyard, my brain is a goldfish in a fishbowl (watch me turn) it's like the old parlor trick of pulling out a deck of cards and always randomly choosing the queen of hearts

My intention was never to be reasonable

Only in the places where there is shine with no sun
I feel thunder with no rain
Half-afraid to come back again
And still returning every night

I see in the valley the curious cause
Its only water
And always water
Some middling stream as loved as any ocean
When I love the sea
I love the power of the waves
And the feeling of a grain of sand
On an endless beach
Holy poeseidon
I can never know you
You of the gods
Still I know you very well protect a faithful sailor

I travel on alone
Travail against the rage
Speaking more truth
Seen with more hate
Until I'm drowning in the waters which grant me life

The worst part
About finding someone
Who can make you be strong
Is knowing
They can make you be weak

We are all we have
And sometimes in this life
What we perceive stands in the way
Of what it is
And we can be proud
Too proud to see
When our wants and desires can't be contained
We can't have control

We are all we feel
Still sometimes
What we want
Keeps us apart from what we need

We are all water
Flowing ancient rivers
Enveloping whirlpools
Subtle still koy ponds
Wild raging rapids
Geysers
Underground lakes
Dew on the summer lawn
Natural springs

Some of us are tears
We are all water
Some are felt as rain
We are all water

And we will all reach the ocean

Fiery ***** of combustion
Illuminate the void
The empty spaces in between
Where we are

Vast open stretches
Awaiting the footfall of man
Wilderness and outer space
Lights in the city

We are people
And we can be anything
Cold hearted cruel lovers
We are here

And whenever you need
Whatever you need
It helps to believe
We are here

Isn't a flower music plucked from a stem
Blooming eternal in a moment
A sweet note
A lonesome night
I imagine love lasts forever
Still seeds will grow
Or simply fade
Still a night will fall
Only sometimes is the moon new
I want to feel
I want to be
To be real
Like hands can know
Like the hands hold
Isn't a cloud music that covers my sky
Only eyes that fight the ocean
Beautiful
Ephemeral
We can never die
Not with such dreams we hold onto
Still the rain will fall
Put me to the ground
Only sometimes is it the showers of may
That bring the flowers of april
I want to live
And believe
To be real
As the way your heart beats
The way your heart knows

No
The dandelion is not beautiful
It's choking out the life
Of the tulips and daisies

I wouldn't mind to hold the rose
Even though thorns may cut me
How can it live
Amongst the crabgrass and creeping charlie?
How can I watch symmetrical bloom
Amongst purslane and velvet leaf

The ivy and the thistle

In a garden where weeds will grow
The years of our toil
Our hands in the soil pulling weeds
But leaving the root

I'm sure the stars creation
Held only a little of the feeling
We have
The stars no longer fleeting
We gave the stars their meaning
Here and now
Is everytime
And anytime is only what we make

And should those stars not shine tonight
Should they ever collide
Would they fall into black holes
Or simply collapse
We are
And all time is now

I'll be waiting for you
At the ends of time
And the edges of the universe

It once was darkness
Once was light
Its all your thoughts
Its always right
Its all gone wrong
In all ways right

And would those stars all shine tonight
Should they bring us light
Would a galaxy surround them
The stars that gave life
Give us music
And the song that plays forever

All time is now

I'll be waiting for you

When the light
Is to bright to see
We go blind
Believing its darkness

We go blind
Running through the night
Hoping for the best
That we can

When all me need
Is each other

We are lost
Wishing for the best
Expecting the worst
We are lost

And all our love is wasted

When its dark
Too dark to to see
We need to feel
To know what is real

We are blind
Running through the night
Wishing for the best
That we can

And all our love is wasted

Only by light
Moon and star
We found our greatest dreams
To forget what they are
Is the road good?
Is the car good?
And the north star we follow
Is this our beacon?
Hollywood
The sunset boulevard
Broadway
Full of neon signs
Is the road good?
Is the car good?
Does it take me where I want to go
Or lead me to an end?

We must start somewhere
And I'm starting from the lowest point
A mind full of everything
But hands completely empty

We must start
Else we will surely never reach an end
While I'm sleeping in my car
I dream of mansions

And its hard work
Its the ability to be strong
When my words can change worlds
And my music can make the people dance

We must start
And what better time
Than right now
I'm ready to take the next step

One by one
Elevation
Still I know the next step
Leads me closer to the tops of mountains

And one day I know I'll reach

West was a flower
Life growing from the feet and the hands
Reaching up into space in favor of god
In bloom
That the king may answer us when we call
A flower
Vines and roots
And sweetest nectar
With petals of radiancy and perspective
Of many thousand years
Colors and perspectives
But I don’t die when I’m supposed to
Only when I’m meant to
And the years of blood are not an issue
Surgery and scar tissue
Still blissful
Because the flower was plucked and left for dead
But at the stalk near the root
There is new life
And it will grow in the light in the favor of the lord
And it will grow

Unsteady at the brink of history
Unfeeling hands
Conflicted thoughts
The brother of my brother
My brother
Hates me

This is not my city
This is not my neighbor
This is a stranger
Heart full of anger

Wavering close to the ledge
Eyes can only see so much
We can see the end
Only so many steps
Can we take
Without looking

There is no holy war
Yet wars are raging
In the name of god
Seeking blood

Falling bombs
And silence
Explosions in the street
And silence
Bullets
Death
The religion of peace
And silence

Its a battle lost
In silence


"Guide me now
I'll be not afraid of darkness
There is no God but he
The God of love"

We will live,
In the sun burst that guides us through morning,
In the song of jubilant worship,
In the arms of the light,
In the hands
And the mind
We will live

As I couldn't ever touch without the feeling,
And I couldn't ever feel unless I know,
We will live as the dreamers of bodies,
Surrounded by shadows

We will live
In the scars of constellations,
In the beauty once wrought with despair,
In the hair of a sunrise,
In the skin
And the heart
We will live

As I couldn't ever see without your gaze,
And I'm only ever painted as your eyes,
We will live as the truth to believe in,
Surrounded by lies

We were lost
Caught in the blowing wind
And putting your head in the clouds
Feet no longer on the ground
I couldn't hold your hand
I didn't want to hold on
I lost my nerve
We were lost
Me plodding my way
One foot and then the next
On a dark and lonely road
And right now is all that is
Everyday is forever
Forever without

We were lost
But we will meet again later

We were lost
And your clouds turned to grey
But the rain never came
Just anticipation
And you can't be patient
You can't be blamed
I can't be there
We were lost
Me alone in a crowd
Finding lodgings every night
Just someplace to sleep
Never to be known
And not sleeping to dream
Not waking to be

We were lost
But we will meet again later

Talk to me
We were lost
When we shouldn't have let it go so far
Let me know
We were lost
And it was the last thing I ever wanted
We were lost
But we will meet again later

We were lost
You falling down as rain
From the clouds you use to hold
And upside down
As a face I try to forget
It's your face
I remember
We were lost
But I know that I journey
Not for fortune
And certainly not for fame
I journey endless roads
To find a place
To call my home

We were lost
But we can't be
Because we know
What we have found
We were lost
But we will meet again later

Talk to me
I'll let you know
We were lost
But we will meet again later

When George Michael sang
"Wake me up before you go-go"
I can't help but wonder
If he was referring to spiritually
In Buddhism called bodhi


Probably not though

An impossible silhouette
A candle's flame
A shadow without edges
The space between stars
                  The sky, the rain
                       The ocean between
                           Where I end
     w                           *And you begin
i                           t                           An imagination
          h                        y            ­      A dream
                    o                                 ­ A ghost finding peace
u                                                     ­ A star being born
                                 The wind, the wing   f
                           The currents between       o
                       Where you are                           r
                   And where I'll be                              e
                              ­                                                     v
                                                               ­                       e
                                        ­                                                 r

I have an option
To fall into darkness
A black so deep
It stains a mind
I have a hope
My words can touch you more
Than any pair of hands
Ever could

I have no reassurance

I have a fear
I'll fall down
To fall though the ground
And be buried alive
I have a light
I follow through the night
The inky bitter purple
The sour blues in revolution

I have no expectations

I barely have control

Sweetest angel, what have I done?
The mountain, the river, what have I shown?
Heavens mercy coldest stone
The wind with no direction home

With my stomach now spread open
As her eyes some desert still unknown
Saw the valley never alone
But to never belong

Sweetest angel, what have I done?
My feet search endless, where have I gone?
The dying of the light once shone
The wind with no direction home

With my scars left unfeeling
Lest its pain my broken bones
Saw the road never alone
To never belong

Bridges I built
To destroy
Islands I watch from a distance
I decide to swim
I drown

And even through all the pain
I never had a doubt
Evrything will work out
The way it should

The strongest man
That you ever did see
Was once a baby

The tallest tree
That you ever did see
Was once a seed

And we can talk about
What should be
But what should be isn't real

Let us realize
What it is
And how we can make it change

Its not the vocabulary
The extravagant phrasing
And imacculate meter
Its not the originality
Of the metaphors
Or the identifiability of the similies
Its only the way
And nothing more
That that feelings are expressed

And understood

Can be anything at all
A king
What kind of king doesn't have a home?
A great home
A castle to protect his empire
A king protects his family

What kind of king has no nation?
Seperate the states
Form the boundaries
Don't let them form you

And the greatest king
Is the loving king
He has no fear of being open
Because those who he loves
Love him

If it doesn't matter
It matters as much
As anything that's ever been
That will never be

If it doesn't matter to you
It matters to me
All the love is gone
Was all I had to give

If I should just let go
I will
If that's what you want
That's what I do

If it doesn't matter
It doesn't matter now
I just hope you remember
When it did

If I should let it go
Consider it gone
Released from my dreams
And from my arms

But all I want to say
I said
I meant
I wasted

If I should just let go
It is easier for me to do
If I can just know
Say one last time

When I said I loved you
I meant forever
Even when your gone
Even still

That when you said you loved me

                The past is passed
                A bridge to nowhere
                Nothing can be changed
                Nothing

If it doesn't matter at all
It matters to me
I want you to know
I will always love you

No one else matters
No one else could give a ****
So why should I?
Nothing else matters
Not sun spots
Or dipn dots
The ice cream of the future
No one else matters
Silver platters
Silver spoons and spoiled brats
Nothing else matters
Except the way you feel
And what you know to be real

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I see
What really happened
Its just a shame
Noone else does

Just glad
To be alive
What's really important?
I wanted to love
To be loved
But being love isn't happiness

Its all you ever are
Its the way noises
Can be joyful or sorrowful
And in that way
That the noises
Become our favorite songs

Whenever I hear this song
I think of you
I've never heard it before
Its new to me
But vaguely familiar
Its a memory I made being made

Desirous of a long continuance
If there is no good beginning
What will be in the end?
Pulling out hair
And punching walls
And picturing the worst
The jaws of hell to swallow us all

Isn't it something?
Knowing each step brings us closer
To being further apart
Breaking of chairs
Windows, lamps, oaths
Promises that would never be kept
The darkness to swallow us all

Each step brought it closer
Until it was closed
The chapter the last one in the book

A book I can't read again

If I say something
You didn't expect to read
Will it make you uncomfortable?
As though driven winter winds chill
And sunny summer days swell
And in the heat we wish to be cold
In the frozeness of the iced over land
We desire only warmth

Or will you respect the unexpected?
Will you understand the limited chance
Being given as if by divine influence
To finally understand
To see through a different pair of eyes
To feel with another poets hands
To pump blood through a strangers heart
To share a soul

Where are you?
Only entering the heart of darkness,
Or gradually ascending
Into heaven
Demons and angels
This is more than reality

Am I strong?
I haven't been
But I always learn from my mistakes
Sometimes that is all it takes
To be what you want to be
To who you want to be it for
And I want to be strong
For you

When its wonderful
When its wicked
When the wild runs stark and naked
Through the attics of my empty mind
I live in a basement
I live on a hillside
I live in a broken down car
With an exquisite view of the stars

When the wonder    
When the worry
When the way is cluttered with debris
The train wreck pasts becoming me
I live in a jungle
I live in a cage
I live in an abandoned mine
Where the meadow meets the timberline

When the world
Is too much to take
I learn to really see
I learn to really be
I live

When I die
No one will know
My stones will fall heavy to the floor
Each one engraved
Chiselled by primal hands
With another lonely sorrow
A cuneiform alphabet
I spent my life carving brittle rocks
In sights unseen

When I die
I die again
This times the last time

When I die
I will die a young man
My skin still beautiful to the world
But my skin grown cold
My forgotten dreams
A short time that was wasted
My rotting flesh
My blood standing still in my arms
That cannot hold

When I die
It will be because I've given up
And God shows me mercy

That was a time
When I died
When all the poison in my blood
Finally reached my heart
And it stops

I won't fight a war
I can't win
And the real battle
Was inside of me
It rages on

Only when I have hope
Does my mouth become a fountain
In central Rome
Fed by aqueducts
As ancient as memory
Only when I have hope
That the water in my words
Will make you want to swim
That you'll be wet
With the feeling that I give you
Only when I have hope
                     Hope only you can give me
Only when I have hope
Does my mouth become an ocean
My thoughts are rising tides
Youre standing on a beach
And my waves will reach you

But right now
Im in a desert
Dying of thirst
          And water
Is but a bitter memory

I'm worried I've lost my hope
                          Hope only you can give me

Those were the territories
We couldn't define the boundaries
We only knew
If we go too far we cross the line

Now they are defined
Now we start to find
What it really is

That was Halloween
It should have been a day we celebrate
Thank the party host
As I become a ghost

Falling to the floor
Knowing the costumes worn
Were really diguises