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tiyaja cianni Jan 2020
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have you ever gotten a feeling like fire?

this feeling is so aggressive and extremely potent,
which leaves me in the state of
uncontrollable uncertainty.
sometimes i think i'm the only one who really feels it,
but here i am finding it in you.
then again, there is so much light within the person you seem to be
and it makes me want to soul search
in order to catch up.
this revolution is clouding my vision
and is keeping me
from seeing things for what they really could be.
then if i break, i at least know
that the blame is all placed upon myself
since i let you
take me
from me
to give me back
and get me again.
i think a lot more than i should.
tiyaja cianni Sep 2021
what could i possibly do
to be able to keep looking at you
without inching too close
to your burning surface

and what could i keep doing
to stay in your good grace
so i can watch you like a movie
and re-read you like my favorite ballad
on a cold winter night

you would be the one to share your blanket


i felt so incapable of feeling
yea there's so much behind this, i feel like it sounds confusing and maybe it is.
#hi
even now, i'm almost as high as i want to be.

indulging in the first bite of the apple was always a thing for me.

and i take my time with it.
tiyaja cianni Feb 21
it'll never be me
as if i could ever pretend to be free
at all

it would ****
and it does

tell me
have you seen me lately?

i've been simple- intertwined with virtue

may i never hurt you
at all
i am always in the trees
and the sky that you see
or the flavors that touch your mouth

there's nothing that can be done about it
tiyaja cianni Apr 2022
god, i wish i was capable of feeling
a little more and
a lot less

god, i wish i believed in you
but you're about as real as i feel
while considering the possibility
that this life is simply
a Wes Anderson movie
tiyaja cianni Feb 25
taking my time on your karma

i know you hate sleeping alone..
you do.
i know you wait by the phone
but for who?

i'm not gonna call you at all.
tiyaja cianni Feb 21
encapsulated, solely in myself
i called it self care

fainting in the spotlight,
pulling my own teeth in your vision
and maybe i needed that

maybe i liked it

i probably still do.

there is no way to disentangle
the grin ribboning its way into my frame

as it was infrequently dishonest

i savor when firing towards myself
yet the impact flirts with you
a unification of intentness

i am the necessary cupidity
intertwining with your poultry

i am the absolution thinning the air

and i forgive you, but
are you truly honest about me?
tiyaja cianni Apr 2022
sometimes when people say that they're empty, it sounds cliche to me.

an oracle
is what you are
to me
until you're
not.

what happens then?
tiyaja cianni Jan 2020
you need to stop leading me on.
you and you and you and you and you.
just leave me alone and grow up.
you boys and girls put a lot of stress on me.
you
tiyaja cianni Jan 2020
you
All I could think about was you

The day you left, I felt uneasy and sick to my stomach,
and the only thing that stayed was your smell and your name floating around my head

so i sing your name in the most humble way i can so i can cherish every single vowel and note.
tiyaja cianni Feb 25
lies all in my ******* face

you seem so fraudulent either way
i cant keep pace with inconsistency
you're always uncomplacent
and i just cant be patient when you're gone for days

replace me with her, i'll compare you to him
and we'll never speak again
but i'm guessing that was your plan

again, tell me why should i care?

i'm useless to you
you're worthless to me
while you were in my bed
trying to find the next person to see

i've got no plans for you.

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