regret*
regret is the entity that only wanted my body
my body; my body; my body
once a battlefield
oh the enmity that still lingers in my bloodstream
i had learned to love that battlefield
i planted flowers on my scars and pretended i had never known the definition of pain
when i met regret he had on the most beautiful mask
it was made of crimson skies and caramel clouds
he called himself infatuation
and slowly without knowing; i let him de-root my flowers and pick at the scabs of my healing wounds
for the longest time i called the numbing pain in my mind *my fault
because how could infatuation harm me, he was beautiful
beautiful things are the cause of happiness,
he made me happy,
i think
,,,it was not the crimson skies and caramel clouds that derailed my mind for the last time
it was an unexpected storm,
it never stopped ******* raining,
his name was,
**regret