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I wasn't programmed for this
To feel, to need
What doesn't fit, and what I can't see
In my mind it's soft to the touch
Yet hazy and misleading as the night
Shadows dance, but not with me
Emptiness even after sun down
The whole time I've been scared
Not knowing if I'd be here tomorrow
So I smoked it..
Fuzzy memory, smoked to the nth degree
So high, so high
Our minds touched the sky
Raining down thoughts of who I was and what I wanted
Far gone, Far forgotten
It didn't do much, few laughs here and there
Got **** to do, but I didn't care
I had my chances, burned all my  bridges
Up in smoke, unclear; my path ahead
Sifting through I push on, what do I see?
The end of the road; the end of me
Will it come down to this?
Death's holding my hand, but I'm holding it loose
Inhale the dark and free your mind
You say that you always believe in me
then how come you always be leaving me
heard all the excuses from A  to  Z
the truth is something id pay to see
hold up now im just being honest
loyalty's something that shouldnt be promised
Let's work on this life like an overdue project
taking some time to fall in love with the process
get away from the people thats holding you back
they had a chance now you tell em too bad
investing the time you would normally lack
improving your future to keep it intact
know that this **** could be gone in a flash
i got no time to sit back and relax
steadily moving just getting some cash
itching for it like im getting a rash
over the counter i stay getting the cream
even if things are not what they seem
i still gotta scheme  saying full steam ahead
most of my bars wont go over your head
think about em
when you laying in bed
tip of my tongue all the words never said
guess imma put em in verses instead
wishing me luck like I would break a leg
It feels like a second you someone who gets
The weird and flaws with no regrets
Sharing moments and stupid trends
Wishing the late nights would never end
Pizza, bad movies, with video games!
Things between you both would never change
Distance or time friendship prevails
Until the day comes
Our ship will continue to sail!
Never sell yourself short before you grow
The world is upset but it'll get better though
They told me to dive right in, I only dipped my toe
Where you end up on this wild ride you may never know
You gotta brace yourself  for no matter what it brings
Just know out there are some better things
Rich in money, words, and kindness
Never paid attention to me though
All I wanted was a little time spent with you
Not false hope and empty promises

Like a day of catch between father and son
Looking forward to bonding with my old man
It's how I saw you, but not how you saw me
To hear you say I'd see you tomorrow and leave me to say
Pinky promise?
Yea I see your success,
But no no I won't get jealous
Yea dude, yea I see you schemin'
But you can't knock me down I'll keep on dreamin'
With the power of words, words over power
No note of mine will ever be sour'
I'll sing of the day I make it big
Victory sippin' time to take that swig
I spread my wings not to just fly away.
But fly so high I just might stay.
Out of touch, out of reach, or just taking a day for myself.
Sometimes it's nice to just get way from everybody else.
flakes pour down and surround me
Coldest I've ever felt and will be
Showered with the feeling or better yet
Trapped in the blizzard of my regret
stinging cold to correct my mistakes
Gone too fast life's cut my brakes
blacking out onto incoming traffic
A warm day I can only imagine it
Blue skies turn blue eyes to blue lies to disguise
My run at the planet
Hasn't gone the way that I planned it
But the seeds I've been planting
Did I reap too soon?
Tarnished a beautiful butterfly
Preemptive from my cocoon
In my womb and in my heart of hearts
I know the endings but can never find the start
Just looking for a place to play my part
Still indulging in the art
Yet this feeling picked apart all of my energy
Creativity at an all time low
Still pretending to be a rapper  despite all my efforts
I'm stuck at the start of a zero net worth
Lost connection in a world of Networks
A little more than severed
Here I am lost on another endeavor
How is it possible to suffocate with all this space
Practicing yelling until I'm blue in the face
Just to see what it's like to hear myself now hear me out
Every now and then we need a good shout
This goes out to the ones that bottle everything up
Small things bubble, soon that cork will pop
I need to learn to let it out, take it from me it's not a crime
I've had too much space and time
People who say they aren't scared are lying
They wouldn't be here right now trying
For their easy way out just a few years
some of us try to make it when we're still wet behind the ears
but its ok let me tell you it's alright
we're all in this together through the day and through the night
For where ever you walk we will walk with you
Until our time is up and we have nothing left to do
Too many ideas in my head light bulb
My true feelings won't come out like gulp
Shake me well get rid of this constricting pulp
Word challenge rhyme with bulb
I'm not scared of you...
I just don't know what to say
I see you walking toward me...I see you on your way
I..I...My heart starts to beat faster
Your beauty my obsession
Wanting every fiber of your being...
Wanting...
Needing...
The idea of you...
Gets me so high
You and me
Our bodies melt into one
our minds in the sky
All I ever do is think, think, and over think
How come I'm afraid of you, and you aren't afraid of me?
A FOUNDATION MADE OF GLASS
ALTHOUGH IT WASNT BUILT TO LAST
I DONT EVER WANT TO PASS
ON THE OPPORTUNITY
TO MAKE A STORY
OFF THE SHARDS OF MY PAST
SIFT RIGHT THROUGH TO SEE
THE BLADES OF GRASS
ON THE OTHER SIDE OF
THIS UNTIMELY CRASH
I HAD LAST NIGHT
IT WAS OUR LAST FIGHT
YOU  SAY YOU DONT WANNA
SEE ME TILL I GET MY CASH RIGHT
WELL NOW IM REALLY
EARNIN ****
WHILE I DRINK TEQUILA WITH
THE WORM IN IT
AND  STILL I HOPE TO GAIN
SOME POWERS THAT PERMANANT
BUT ONLY TIME WILL TELL
I HOPE THIS FIND YOU WELL
DEEP DOWN ONE
BUT JUST KNOW  ILL NEVERR FAIL
PUT ME BEHIND BARS
THEN IM BUSTING OUT OF JAIL
GO AND TELL THE WARDEN
I DONT SLEEP
I STAY RECORDING
IN MY MIND IM FIGHTING BOREDOM
TILL THE DAY I...
TILL THE DAY I...
Change
good or bad
Wish I had the time to
Change

What's done is done
It's time to move on
and change

The way I see the way I do the way I
Change
My perspective my life and my friends
I can't change them but I can change myself

Change
Cigarettes and friends, so much alike,
Both leave a mark, an addictive strike.

Friends become cigarettes against the skin,
The longer you hold them, darkness creeps in.
Temptation grows, to smoke or see them choke,
Cancer sticks, ignited, a deadly yoke.

Many indulge, finding joy in the haze,
Inhaling warnings, a toxic craze.
Strangers' words are mere sticks and stones,
But with friends, pain accumulates, silently groans.

Deep into the lungs, the heart, the skin,
Friends can harm like cigarettes, buried within.
We smoke our friends, blinded by the wrong,
Forgetting the regret that will come along.

Lungs collapse, hearts fill up with despair,
Friends and cigarettes, both burdens to bear.
Quit cold turkey, but relapses sting,
Anything to escape the toxic clinging.

Friends or cigarettes, a choice to savor,
Both leave a bitter taste, an uncertain flavor.
In this dark dance, where toxicity thrives,
Choose wisely, for your soul to survive.
Cigarettes and friends have so much in common
Friends are cigarettes to skin
The longer you hold them temptation grows within
To smoke or watch others choke
Cancer sticks, worse when ignited
So many people smoke and are delighted
To inhale the words of warning
Strangers are sticks and stones their words never hurt
With friends, this expression disappears
As if the pain doesn't accumulate every fiscal year
Running deep into your lungs, skin, and even the heart
Friends can do as much as a cigarette
We smoke our friends as if nothing is wrong and forget
Until our lungs and heart collapse and fill up with regret  
Quit cold turkey, suffer relapses try again later
Anything to soak up this toxic flavor
Friends or cigarettes?
Your choice of flavor to savor
Sipping on these moments, like you could never get enough,
Let me whisper in your ear, I'll be your morning cup,
Brewing a smile on your face before your eyes are open,
Add a pinch of sugar, though the sweetness not important.
I still sit here, it has only been an hour
The very earth itself heavy after the slightest shower
Your words ****** out of me all the love and power
This silent garden shows to me only a dead flower.
Wilted away my worries and sorrows
In hopes for a brighter tomorrow
So until the quiet comes and washes me away
I'll count the minutes until the light of day.
The moon sings to me the sweetest lullaby
About fairy tale endings and a sky full of lighters
Meanwhile, you leave without a goodbye
Making my world a shade less brighter.
An eclipse to my love to block out my heart
Ignite my fire, the arson in my veins
Compassion so smokey where does is end or where does it start
Dormant the flames until we meet again
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Wondrous and momentous, why does this hurt?
Evanescence of your taste, as sweet as dessert
A delicacy you told me only I understand
I can count the times you said I love you on one hand
Thoughts of you boil my blood down deep
They unfold the lies which succeeded in haunting my sleep
A ghost of my past present and future I'll never forget
The day that fate decided when and where we first met
With just a smile, you savored my attention
Just a mere touch vanquished my world without convention
No time to bleed, to wait and see
What you're trying to hide, just want a peek inside
Don't wanna rush, push, or shove
Don't gotta show me no love
Just don't keep me on the counter, and forget about me
An old game you don't play, gathering dust, stored away
Stop taking pieces of who I was, to build who I am now
No clue how to feel, if this is real
We've grown too similar it's pushed you and I away
Take it from me stay away it will bring us closer apart
The further you are away the more I can feel my heart
You can't sit there looking at yourself
When you're standing there wishing you were somebody else

Don't change your shoes, until they've been filled
Years of experience takes time and effort to build

The the comfort we all felt inside a pillow fort
Like motherly foundation, call it moral support

Looking in the mirror unable to see yourself
It's okay you're still looking for that book on the shelf
Nothing is meant to last

Flick to renew this tattered ash

Preservation costs in cash

Just a little longer

Pennies for my thoughts
Always be yourself, together
I've made it but there is nothing left
To claim or to see
What once was a reward is dead to me
All this effort, all this pain?
Will victory ever feel as good as fame?
When do I shoot for the stars? Do I even take aim?
What once was my claim to fame is yet again another game...
Have you listened to the sound of the crowd?
Of course you did, too loud to be ignored
Nothing but harsh words to keep you  from what you love
Whether it be friends, status, or even relationships
The crowd controls the water your ship is sailing on
Never smooth the current always against you
You can't help but pull back
"Don't tread on me"
You know they will.
Trust real people, the crowd ain't no one
But many made up of a lump some
My mind travels to the darkest depths within itself when I've got the time
Time I've got now it has me
Stuck in the grasp of that which cannot be reused
I've become it's personal charger
A slave of time caught somewhere with my toes in its sand
In awe, time has its way with all of us
Nothing to be done, so much to be seen
The end of time never sounded so lovely
It's my dark side
A shadow cast by the sun
My other half
The half of less fun
No expressions with a hint of sad
Wondering can my shadow really feel as bad?
As I do when it's dark alone with my thoughts
Staring at the sun to see those bright spots
Punishing my eyes until it grows bright
Exposing my darkness to unveiling light
Misery loves company a shadows with no words
Silence my new friend haven't you heard?
Looking into someones eyes, I don't recognize them anymore
Knife that's in your mind covered in blood on the floor
Razor sharp mind with a dull outlook
Wondering how much man out of me would this have took?
The rhyming Scheme a bit cliche what can I say
The artistry pumps through my arteries
And while I create this imagery
Let's take a look at the real me
Can you feel me?
Can you sense my presence?
Taste the story as it unfolds
See the things I've never told
Hear the words coming from my head
Rather than the mouth that's fed you lies instead
Looking for me to clean up your mess
Never keeping an eye on my best interest
When I invest myself in you it truly hurts
to find out the value of what I'm worth
A few tears I'll shed but not on you
Just for how long I played the fool
DJV
DJV
Dejavuu, it's a sign
When you have it your eyes go blind and you enter a premonition in your mind
You live the moment, memory, foresight
In awe you don't say a word
What do you think?
Are you headed in the right direction?
Is that what this means?
Is it a warning in disguise?
Or a bitter sweet surprise...
The best things in life ain't bought
Even if I never have a lot
All the problems I used to have, forgot
This is how I feel on my day off
The shadows that fall onto me
Where I'm going there won't be any light
Where will my shadow fall?
Will I be followed?
The little voice speaks to me out of curiosity I humor it
What if my shadow were to disappear?
Will the little voice pass on my words?
To find a shadow, an uncertain conquest
The shadow in the background of the alley
I follow, without hesitation.
The voices and shadows guide me
Where had my shadow gone
I did follow one time, and i'd sure do it again
Leading never been my preference but someone had to do it
No need to think no need to worry
React on command, speak when spoken
too many people take the easy way out
But once in a while there is one
Ready to put the team on their back
But why?
To feel superior? To hog the attention?
Or inspire others to lead rather than be lead?
Maybe we should all take a second to think
Why follow when you know it doesn't go anywhere?
Think about touching the sky, can you get that high?
If you do before you die you're gonna be the one to catch my eyes
Dreams and goals, all that glitters is gold
Light in my face shining it ain't heaven yet but it feels real fine and
Fitting in ain't so bad, we all wanna do something with our life
If you wanna fit in with me you gotta want it all
We all want what we can't have, but all is smaller than you think
Big pictures, little ideas, it's all too easy with a bit hard labor
Look in my eyes you see the work? Practically that of art
We all do are best to play our role and our part
She knew I wasn't there to make a friend
She knew what I wanted from start to end
The look in my eyes, the language from my body
She knew I was looking for another girl who was naughty
I had the steps to get what I wanted
She wasn't digging what I flaunted
I had a system all set up, practically cash
She threw a curve ball, system crash
What she wanted she didn't play around this
She skipped my steps and went straight for that kiss
It's what I wanted this whole time
Valentines Day will you be mine?
She could see right through me, X-ray vision
She made up her mind
I made a decision
I ain't going back, like I just got out of prison

Her eyes screamed "**** me" you can just tell
Her body so slender
Yeah I'm going to hell
Her hand inched onto my belt buckle, well

Here's how it happened, practically a fantasy
All my moves predicted
But she didn't care she wanted me
I saw that and I kept on going because I wanted to see

Where I'd end up, her room, her bed, her mini pink
It's not hard to see where this is going but I was..
My brain shut off no more room to think
The air clouded my mind and the lust didn't

But instead rose to new heights, ******* euphoria
We rolled off the bed and on to the floor with her
It felt too real for this to be such a vivid dream
The sound of her pleasure practically a scream

Lucid dreamer, I've longed for this power
Even if the dream lasts a minute, it feels like an hour
I gave all the loveie dovie stuff in the first one this is all the deets for explicit enjoy.
Only in my dreams could I dream of a reality
A reality where this actually could be a you and me
But all the others they stare and laugh at me you see
I fall head over mole hills too easily
They say you're not worth it, but you are to me
Everyone deserves to be with someone, or is it only dreams
A dream to be dreaming in an alternate reality
Given the tools to build you own foundation
That should be enough help
Seek yourself, seek yourself
Ask for help but don't take it
Let others help help you
Nothing is free but even that takes effort
You would be surprised at what you may find
Your foundation awaits your steady hands
And to think all you needed was a plan
I keep trying to swim but know I'm drowning
I'm in debt for what seems like thousands
of leagues under the sea
All I want is to breathe but
feels like this pressure has a hold on me
Like a grasp that looks like the hand that feeds
I can feel its greed but still feel the need to bite that hand
Don't tell me that you love me
I don't like that ****
So I bite my lip
And I hold my tongue
For the things you said
Made me feel so dumb
And My heart so cold
Never been so numb
What did i do to you?
What are you running from?
Eh
Eh
Banging on ya faces
Gone to different places
Recognize where I'm from we go our own spaces
Talk big walk small
No matter what we got it all
On lock no combo
Dance the night away, Mambo
Late night deep thoughts with you, Convo
Looking real good I can't help but notice
But girl you look good and I want you to know this
I ain't playing around I'm up to no good
Why don't you come back and start some trouble in my neighborhood
We got into one little fight and you got scared
You said you thought I would leave you and I didn't even care
Girl you got me pegged all wrong Imma tell you straight up
I love you no matter what
and I could easily give it all up
In the realm of endless possibilities, I stand,
Yearning for a life of purpose, hand in hand,
No longer content with mere distractions,
I seek a path that ignites my passions.

I cast aside doubts, fears, and hesitation,
Determined to turn dreams into realization,
No jest or jesters in this sacred quest,
I set sail on this voyage, giving it my best.

With unwavering resolve, I take the lead,
A captain of my destiny, fueled by a fiery creed,
Aboard this vessel, I embrace the unknown,
Charting a course to a destiny yet unshown.

Through turbulent tides and stormy seas,
I navigate with courage, the wind as my keys,
The sails unfurled, catching hope's sweet gale,
As I steer towards horizons where dreams prevail.

In the voyage of life, I find my devotion,
In the pursuit of purpose, a newfound potion,
I leave behind the shores of complacency,
Embracing a future filled with audacity.

So, let the waves crash and the currents sway,
I'm determined to make it through, come what may,
For within me burns a passion, fierce and true,
A catalyst for change, a force that will breakthrough.

No more wandering lost, seeking a new start,
I've found my calling, deep within my heart,
With every beat, it whispers a hopeful plea,
"Embrace this journey, and set yourself free."

So, onward I sail, a soul reborn,
With dreams as my compass, fears torn,
For I've chosen to live, to take control,
To write a story of triumph, forever unscroll.
Don't kiss me unless you're going to miss me
Let this be known to thee
I am nothing but a human, with feelings
Real? Artificial? It makes no difference
People still have them, but rarely show
Wearing your heart on your sleeve won't keep your warm
When the icy cold wind of reject creeps it way on by
If you talk to me for 5 minutes you can see I am a genius or an idiot
5 more to see if I'm an *** or considerate
Another 5 to double check number 1
5 more and you're having too much fun
5 turns to 10 oh where has the time gone
you found in me your time was well spent
All I wanted was this and nothing more
Could you spare another 5 minutes or...
I should have left it at hello
My pursuit is cycling
Only to prove I am insane by definition
Is it silly to have faith?
Like a drug to soothe my pain
This constant eye strain called beauty
Feels like a paranoia has taken over me
It's weighing me down but I ask
How far will I walk on shattered glass
Before I realize where to go?
Era
Era
Sent to a world full of sorrow
Descending into arms the same
The yearning for a touch
Even if it hurts it's still wanted
A double ended sword sharpened
Ready to cut the non sense
I am the only one who can hate me
No one can know me better
Or hate harder on me than I
These times are tough
Some days man, I've just had enough

I often wonder how I'll "go"
Quick? Painless? In pieces?
My heart seem to be in the rut
Small, shattered to bits.
I can't feel my heart beat, unless I feel pain
But when I feel pain, the thoughts come rolling in...
Full of doubt, exuding sin

Nights;sleepless
Fights;enticing
Why everything that's supposed to be bad make me feel so good?
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