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Tiffany Aug 2017
i count down the days
until your embrace
the days pass s l o w l y
like the leaves that fall
...drifting...
gently,
nonchalantly
downward
announcing autumns arrival
Tiffany May 2014
I’m alone again
The cold chilling my bones
Darkness creeping closer
In my tomb of stones
Tiffany Mar 2014
The wood is rough against his skin
As he anchors himself down
There’s a full moon rising in the sky
He must protect his little town

He feels the change down to his core
And tries not to cry out
But when the rope digs into his skin
A snarl is brought about

Sweat breaks out over his body
And he writhes in agony
The beast inside, fights to the surface
Longing for total insanity

Bones break, muscles stretch
But this is not for the first time
Nor the last, for the cycle will go on
Till someone puts an end to his crime

The rope snaps and he falls to all four
Gasping to catch his breath
The panic sets in as his vision blurs
And he senses the grip of death

Then just as quick as it came
The pain is gone again
And in his place is left a wolf
With eyes full of sin
Whose afraid of the big bad wolf?
Tiffany Aug 2017
they say
if you love something
set it free
and if it comes back
it’s meant to be
and though this may
be true
we didn’t rely
on faith alone
to make our dreams
a reality
Tiffany Jun 2014
Words are always good and well
But it’s on your actions my mind does dwell
The way your lips make their slow attack
Leaves me helpless and coming back

I know it’s too much to hope for more
So hush and remind me why I choose to ignore
The fact I’m just another face in the sea
Show me why I’ve allowed this to be

Don’t the ruin the moment with what comes to mind
Because your actions capture it all just fine
They speak much louder than any words
So leave your ruinous comments to the birds
Tiffany Feb 2014
This Cynical World has me spinning
From war and hate to the abuse we'll never escape
It almost doesn't seem worth it, going through this day to day
Born in this world of pain only to die again
I need something to believe in or I won't survive, give me a reason for living this senseless life

Fire, earthquake, famine, and flood
Violence between neighbors till the streets run with blood
We build up these empires to watch them fall
I just have one question, what's the point of it all?

I can't take this pressure the stress is making me drown, I won't last much longer the currents pulling me down
Your arms are like preservers, your touch filled with sureness, reach into the waters and pull me above the surface

You try so hard to bring back my innocence
But after a day in this world nothing makes sense
Only in your arms can I find my solace, my reason for existing
And still you plead for me to see not everything in life is so persisting
Tell me why we're put on Earth for such a short time, if we'll die in the end why should we even try?

"Think of it as a milestone in the journey you've led, with death just a pit stop on the long road ahead
Besides who's to know what happens when you're dead?"

"Know I'm here for you morning, noon, or night and together we can create our own slice of paradise
Enjoy the time we have before the sand runs out; don't agonize over this mystery forever shrouded in doubt
The world holds such beauty of the likes we'll never know, if only you'd open your eyes and see the show
You'll realize life is still worth living, even if so many are unforgiving."
Tiffany Nov 2014
I know I shouldn’t take them
But they make me feel alive
These tiny pills in my hand
I need them to survive

Oh wait! I didn’t mean it
I can quit them when I please
Don’t look at me like that!
I can do without these!

Okay so maybe I can’t …
But it’s not that big a deal
I’ll just take them when I need to
I’ve got a will of steel!

So maybe I’m no superman…
What do you want? I’m only human!
Don’t judge me for my choices
My life isn’t in ruin!

At least not yet anyway…
But I know I have to have them!
The consequences be ******!
I’ll go crazy without ‘em

I know you think I’m losing it
But honestly I’ve never felt better…
Now where the hell are those pills?!?
I have to have them more than ever!
Tiffany Mar 2014
My days are plagued with thoughts
of a dream so long ago
One in which I met a man
who set my heart aglow

We danced the night away
beneath the bright, full moon
He spun me ‘round with such ease
to his charm I was not immune

He held me as the sun came up
but I was left frigid and forsaken
The place in bed beside me empty,
hating the moment I was awakened

My minds been haunted
with the image of that night
In which I finally felt complete
as if this man made it all right

I was thinking this over
one morning with the day still young
When I stepped onto the bridge
and felt an otherworldly tug

I looked up from the view
of the sunrise on the lake
And caught the gaze of someone
I’d convinced myself was fake

Low an behold, who would you believe
was standing on the edge
Locking eyes with me
prepared to jump from the ledge

That charming smile slowly appeared
on the man who’d sent my world into a frenzy
Time seemed to grind to a hault
as I gazed into those eyes that watched me so gently

He climbed over the rail
and we slowly came together
Just inches in between
my heart light as a feather

When he placed his hand in mine
I knew he was the one
Who’d shared a moment of space and time
and that my heart was won
Tiffany Apr 2014
Allow me to take a moment
To say these trifle things
Humor me, my friend
A fool’s words can take to wing

The man you hold so dear
A husband he will not make
His kind do not stay
So don’t settle for a fake

I know you are oblivious
To his nocturnal affairs
You are too sweet and trusting
And that this catches you unawares

I merely have your best interests
In mind when I say this
Your lover is a *******
Don’t sucumb to his sweet kiss

You say that I am crazy
I don’t know him like you do
But tell me dear, where is he now?
Don’t know?
Then tell me who’s really the fool
Tiffany Oct 2014
So Alice fell down
The rabbit hole and she found
Her own *Wonderland
We're all mad here
Tiffany Oct 2014
Give me one last kiss
Before the moon fades away
Bringing a new day
Tiffany Feb 2014
He gives me reason for being...
... Is that what you expected to hear?
Another lovesick poem, of a girls love revealed?

Not today, my sweets
I don’t need a man to be happy
Sorry if you wanted to hear, something a little bit more sappy

I’m strong and independent
I can manage on my own
I don’t mind the hours, spent single and alone

Now would I like a man?
Of course, you silly goose!
But I won’t whine and pass the time, pining for my zeus

If only there were more like me
Who acted more mature
And didn’t pause to wonder, what would give them more allure

Just live your life!
And your true love will come along
Perhaps we should put this message into a catchy song :o
Tiffany Apr 2014
This is where it starts
The beginning of the end
Life is crashing down
We were too late to mend

It took only but a moment
To listen to a strangers word
But we were too distracted
And the needy went unheard

Man must help his fellow man
Or all hope is lost
This came to be our downfall
Our selfishness has a cost

There is no higher price to pay
Than for the sin of our apathy
“This isn’t my responsibility”
That was our greatest fallacy

This is where it starts
The beginning of the end
Life is crashing down
And we're too late to mend
Tiffany Oct 2014
It was just a lie
When you told me forever
I was just a phase
Tiffany Apr 2014
Her vision blurred
As she watched him kneel
He looked upon her with love
And yet she felt so surreal

He took her hand
And she fought for air
He whispered his vows
And she melted in his stare

She loved this man
With all her heart
And with one word
They’d never be apart

She nodded her head
And he held her close
She squeezed him with all she had
And her pressure rose

Thanks for this he said
She smiled and looked away
I know she’ll say yes now
She knew not what to say

You’re the greatest friend I have
He told her with a grin
She laughed her way through the pain
And imagined what could have been
Tiffany Mar 2014
Here’s to the girls who can drive me crazy
we fight,
we curse,
and want to **** each other
But in the end, we still love one another

Here’s to the girls I’ll never forget
those late night drives,
boy crazy moments,
and 7 am wake up calls, I’ll always remember
even when the fire of my life burns down to an ember

Here’s to the girls who have stood by me
we can talk about anything,
or nothing at all,
and still gain some comfort
With just a minimal effort

Here’s to the girls who are my sisters
no, we’re not blood,
we don’t look alike,
and even though we may be neither
We’ve come to learn some things run deeper

Here’s to the girls that make life worth living
we’ve grown up together,
laughed together,
and cried together, but if one day we stray apart
That’s okay, because they’ll each have a place in my heart

Here’s to the girls that I hope will read this
You are beautiful,
You are strong,
And you will do great things
You’re just learning to fly, just now spreading your wings

Those are my girls, and I hope they’ll remember
This little poem I wrote, when they’ve moved on to something better
All the rainy days will pass, but I’ll still be here
Standing in the past, with the sunlight shining clear
Tiffany Nov 2014
The pain is coming back again
I don’t know what to do
I feel the walls closing in
I thought these days were through

The tears are flowing fast again
I can’t make it through the day
It hurts just to breath
Please tell me that you’ll stay

I’m on my own again
And I know that I can’t do it
Without someone to lean on
I know that I’ll submit

To these thoughts I have again
That tell me to end it all
Without someone to be there
There’s no doubt that I’ll fall

The pain is stronger than ever
And I know I want to die
And since I’m all alone...
I guess it wouldn’t hurt to try
Tiffany Aug 2017
love is balance
push and pull
give and take
like a scale
it cannot exist
when one side
outweighs the other
Tiffany Aug 2017
it wasn’t until
i met you
that i believed
in something more
for how could there be
anything less
when someone
like you exists?

there must be something
in the works
beyond the laws
we’ve come to know
like past lives,
the afterlife,
a force beyond
our comprehension

of all these questions
there’s one thing
i know
to be true
a single lifetime
on this earth
is not enough
with you
Tiffany May 2014
With but a single kiss
You set alight my pyre
My body starts to burn
Ablaze from your fire

No water can contain it
Nor can it be diminished
The flames grow ever higher
Don’t let this go unfinished

Can I escape this desire
Or am I to endure
This raging wildfire
Sparked by your allure

Will I be able to extinguish
This inferno which you forged
Or has it scorched my soul
Leaving me with this eternal urge
Tiffany Aug 2017
he calls me goddess
prayers dripping from his lips like sweet nectar
as he sinks between my legs
and shows me how he worships
Tiffany Oct 2014
The stars in the sky
Can't match the shine in your eyes
When you look at me
Tiffany Mar 2014
Once you’ve been to the breaking point
There’s a mark on your soul forever
A wound that deep doesn’t disappear
It’ll heal, but the scar will leave you never

I can still picture in my mind
The little pills piled in my hand
The knot in my stomach
Things going as planned

I remember the panic
When I swallowed those pills
Throwing them back up
Too scared to make the ****

Isn’t that human nature though
Survival drilled into our being
Even when you want it all to end
That ******* instinct keeps your heart beating

I look back on those days
And still feel the shame
Thinking those watchful eyes knew my secret
Stupid I know, but I felt it just the same

Can you imagine the desperation
To be at the end of your rope?
Then living with those actions forever
Struggling to recapture lost hope
Well can you?
Tiffany May 2014
Just live with me in the moment
For once don’t think of the future
Or what tomorrow will bring
Let go of your inhibitions
And let your desires take wing

I know you better than myself
I know you’ll work your fingers to the bone
But life is far too short
So let it go and just relax
Don’t make me a last resort

Come with me and take my hand
I’ll show you things you’ve long forgotten
Things we discovered together
When the world was far more simplier
And every second was a new adventure

The point I’m trying to make
Is you’re letting life pass you bye
And though I love you with all my heart
I can’t take living with a zombie
So make a choice, don’t let this tear us apart
Tiffany Apr 2014
It’s really quite amazing
How people can change
You think that you know them
Then BAM! they’re someone strange
Tiffany Mar 2014
This was nothing but a phase
A twisted waste of time
A chapter of my life
Your lovesick hate crime

I’m moving on from this
But what could I say of you?
You’re trapped inside the past
Blindsided by the truth

I never really loved you
I figured that you knew
I shied from your touch
and did all I could to avoid you

Don’t get me wrong
I thought we had something too
But when it came to love
I realized it was nothing true

You have beauty on the outside
But what I came to see
Was your twisted heart of coal
So I set myself free
Not sure about this one, would love some ideas
Tiffany Feb 2014
I lay down my head, against the soft green grass
The sun rises and sets, as the years begin to pass

Beneath this oak on the hill, is where I wait for you
Feel the wind brush my skin just as you used to do

Rain falls slowly from the sky, as do my tears
What keeps you from me, unbearable are my fears

Then one day, with the sun high above
I see a silhouette, and my heart soars like a dove

With the face of an angel, and eyes like the sea
There you are, come home to me
Tiffany Aug 2017
i had convinced myself
i couldn't live without you
that i was incomplete

it wasn't until you left
that i realized
you were a puzzle piece
i never needed
Tiffany Jun 2014
You’ll take, the things which you are due
Forget, the things you’ve come to know
Accept, what we deem is true
Repay, the debt which you owe

Obey, the laws which we’ve set for you
Do not stray, from the lines of your confine
Conform, to our reality so new
Those boundaries, mark your life as mine

Explain, the way that you must feel
The *weak
submitting to their stronger foes
Being forced, to bow down and  kneel
Understand? How life really goes?
Tiffany Apr 2014
I’ll give credit where it’s due
You really had me fooled
Your little act was so convincing
The ******* world was enthralled

Who could’ve guessed
The secrets you’ve been keeping
So your life was an open book?
What are these chapters I’m just now reading?

When your life is a lie
You can’t afford to relax
One little slip-up
And you’re suddenly unmasked

Now who is there to love you?
When you’ve pushed us all away
With your lies and deceptions
Revealing how easily you betray

The skeletons in your closet
Are coming back in full force
They’ll drag you back with them
Like a raging dark horse

Back into the darkness you’ll go
With nothing but your misery
To be your constant companion
And erase your bitter memory
Tiffany Feb 2014
Darkness all around me, closing in on every side
Knowing that you've left me, I've nothing left to hide
How could you chose another, after what we shared
But now our love is gone, broken and bare

I don't understand, why I still feel the way I do
When apparently, she's the only one for you
Though my mind tells me it's over, my heart won't seem to get
The message that you're sending, to tell me to forget
Tiffany Dec 2014
The time we spend here
passes in the blink of an eye,
And before you know it
it’s time to say goodbye.

We suffer so much
in our given season,
But the pain we feel
happens for a reason.

So you can learn to appreciate
the good things when they come,
Like the memories of dear friends
or the rays from the rising sun.

I know it’s hard now
and I won’t pretend it’ll be easy,
But we’ll heal and carry on
despite the wounds that’ve cut so deeply.

Goodbye isn’t really goodbye
we’ll meet again someday,
So hold your head a little higher
and just take things day by day.
Tiffany Aug 2017
I am tired.

I am tired of not being able to trust my own mind.

Anxiety ravaging my psyche, building walls I worked so hard to tear down.
Depression developing like cancer in my soul, blotting out the love and joy from life like thunder clouds suppressing the sun.

I am tired of my body working against me.

Fatigue forcing me to stand back as I watch life race ahead. Migraines that keep me locked in the darkness like a long forgotten memory.

I am tired of the necessity for a never ending list of drugs.

The harsh light of the doctors office as we discuss our options. Adding pill after pill to keep my mind and body above water.

But mostly, over everything else, I am tired of being tired.
Tiffany Mar 2014
They say I have talent
but what does that mean
when I don’t have the courage
to follow my dreams

I’ve heard the things they say
One day I’ll make it big
But do they even realize
I’m standing on a twig

My body weighing it down
In no time I’ll come crashing
down from their expectations
and they’ll know it was all for *nothing
Tiffany Feb 2015
I'm falling,
spinning.
What do I do?
Oh baby, please baby,
I can't lose you too.
Say you won't leave me,
say you'll stay forever.
I'd prefer you to mean it,
but I'll take what you offer.
Things are changing
so quickly.
And I'm getting left in the dust.
But baby, sweet baby,
I'm giving you my trust.
In this time that I'm weak,
vulnerable,
insecure...
I'm giving you my heart,
because they say love is never unsure.
I know that I love you,
beyond any doubt.
But baby, oh baby,
haven't you figured it out?
My world is a wreck;
I'm too flawed for your perfection,
and I'm scared you only want me,
to get an *******.
I don't know what I'd do,
if that turned out to be true.
You're all I have left,
just me and you.
So promise me baby,
you're here for keeps,
because my broken mind can't handle,
what your absence would reap.
Tiffany Aug 2017
it didn't happen suddenly,
but i realized it all at once.
         - *falling in love
Tiffany Feb 2014
She gripped the bat in both hands
Her knuckles turning white
He would not beat her once again
She’d end it all tonight

A beer in his hand and the fight on screen
He lounged on the sofa
Unexpecting of what was coming
She’d strike like a cobra

Hey *****, get me a drink
He called from his throne
She held back a scream
And inside was born a cyclone

He glanced her way and smirked
What the hell do you think you’re doing
Her blood roared with the urge to ****
And the storm inside kept brewing

I’m done with this, she said
And she barely recognized her voice
Gone was the timid creature
Who'd stuck around by choice

He rose from his seat
And towered above her frame
You’re not going anywhere--
Except to an early grave

He stepped forward and she broke
The rage pouring out
She swung the bat with all her might
And made contact, no doubt

He screamed for her to stop
But still she kept on swinging
She’d make him feel the way she did
In every single beating

When finally her strength gave way
She let the weapon slip
Below her was a ****** mess
And she kicked him in the hip

I’m going now, she said
To no one in particular
She grabbed her bag and snagged a beer
And left him as her signature
Tiffany Feb 2014
This forbidden love has left me broken
As time goes by, the words unspoken
Have kept me up through the night
Till dawn brought the morning light

Now I realize as the days pass into weeks and slowly fade away
So does our happy ever after
For this love was never meant to stay
Tiffany Feb 2014
Such beauty at a distance, yet a killer at the core
So full of life, yet the bodies wash ashore
This thing that can't be tamed, this force that can't be named
Luring sailors to it's depths yet feeding nations right and left
Many secrets live at sea, discovered some may never be
What it is she hides from view, is not for those land loving few
Tiffany Apr 2015
The night settles around me as I make my way down the winding path that leads away from the old iron gates. I let my mind wander as my body carries me forward to the spot I’ve been so many times before. There’s a heavy weight on my shoulders and I bite my lip against the pain that threatens to tear me apart. How many nights have I spent here since you left?

The wind gently ruffles my hair and a faint smile crosses my lips. I breath in the cool air and feel it soothe my thoughts. This isn’t why I’ve come here tonight.

My legs come to a stop and I take in my surroundings. The moon bathes the area in a pale light and the willow trees sway gently in the breeze. There’s a sense of calm that envelops me whenever I come here and I feel it now, wrapping me in a sphere of tranquility. I sink to the ground and lean against the stone the way I have for years now.

The flowers that I left last week are starting to wither, the edges of the once brilliant red petals curling in on themselves. I let my fingers brush against them and rest my cheek against the chilled marble. I remember the first time I came here. My mind was spiraling into insanity. I’d gone running down the path in the darkness, feeling as if I were fighting to stay alive. The tears that blurred my vision had my make up streaking my face like war paint. I’d collapsed in the spot I am now, throwing myself into the dirt and letting the sobs rack my body. I stayed there like that, reveling in the pain and anguish I felt until dawn brought the light and unwanted help. I felt so betrayed when you left.

I squeeze my eyes shut, pushing the painful memory from my thoughts and shake myself. I clear my throat nervously and stare down at my hands.

“Hey baby, it’s me again.” I say quietly into the silence.

“I’ve been keeping myself busy like you wanted, I even got a job.” I giggle and glance up.

“It’s not much of a job, but it’s something. And I…” I take a deep breath and steel myself against the wave of emotion that washes over me.

“I met someone.” There. I said it.

“He’s a really nice guy, baby. He asked if I wanted to go out sometime and I told him I’d think about it. I was going to tell him no, but then I realized something.” I blink away the tears that I can’t hold back any longer and struggle to keep my voice even.

“I realized I want to be remembered by more than just a tombstone.” I choke on my words and dig my nails into the pad of my hand. I try to get a hold over myself and smile weakly. You always hated it when I cried.

“I’ll always love you baby, but I have to move on. And I know you’ve been telling me that for months now… I just wasn’t listening. I miss you so much…” I wipe my tears from my face and swallow the sob that tried to escape my throat.

I climb to my feet and rest a hand on top of the stone that stands in your memory. I know I can’t hold myself here forever… You wouldn’t want me to anyway. I lift my hand to my lips then press a kiss to your grave.

“I love you. Forever and always.” I whisper and turn away. As I begin the walk back through the cemetery I take in all the markers of those who’ve come and gone. How many of them were taken away too soon? Or left on their own?

I reach the gates and cast one look back to where you lay and I see the light shining on your flowers. Only instead of withered and dying, they’re as fresh as they day I left them. I bite my lip and smile, looking down and laughing. I blow one final kiss and walk away with the memories that will last forever and always.
Tiffany Feb 2014
He tells me that I’m gorgeous
But the words slide off my skin
I can barely feel his touch
I’ve traveled too far within

He holds me in his arms
And says he’ll leave me never
But can I put him through this,
When I may be lost forever?

My beautiful, my sweet
Much too good for me
I know you’ll keep your faith
In what I used to be

But people change, my love
And I hope soon you’ll see
I’m not the woman I once was
Maybe then you can be free
Tiffany Jun 2014
Somehow I let this under my skin
Their laughter taunting my heart
Hateful words driving me to sin
Tearing my life apart

It’s too difficult to ignore
I can’t hold my head high
The whispered word “*****”
Has me averting eyes

I shouldn’t care what they think
They don’t even matter
But the rumors are pushing me to the brink
One more shove and I’ll shatter

I may not look it on the outside
But within there is a constant struggle
To keep myself along for the ride
And get back up once I’ve stumbled
Tiffany Sep 2015
You said you'd be there,
But where are you?
What friend could leave?
What friend are you?

I've waited here,
Time after time.
And in return,
Got a stupid line.

"We're sisters forever!"
Or so you said...
But all these years,
It seems I've been misled

I gave you chances,
But now I am through.
You lost who you were,
Now you've lost me too.
Tiffany Apr 2016
Your burned me from the inside out,
now all that's left are ashes.

I felt the fire of desire,
but never did I question.
Just how these flames would leave me scorched
and desperate for salvation.

I was too young to comprehend
how high the flames would grow,
and over time I was
engulfed by your inferno.

I can't remember life inside the fire,
but I have the scars upon my skin,
as proof I've been to Hell and back,
as proof of our sin.

Despite these brands that mark me,
despite your haunting warmth that remains,
I'll find my way back to reality.
I'll find a way to live again.

You burned me from the inside out,
but I will rise from the ashes.
Tiffany Apr 2014
Hell hath no fury
Like that of a woman scorned
And soon, love, you’ll realize
The beast you have transformed
Tiffany Feb 2015
What I saw that night,
changed me forever.
Gone is the little girl,
and happy ever after...

the moonlit path before me,
is like a winding nightmare.
The smell of sweat and fear,
permeate the air.
The forest is silent,
but I know it's out there...
Watching...
Waiting...
I run.
I run until I feel the pounding of my heart
through every inch of my body.
I feel the blood coursing through my veins,
feel it cry out for escape.
I can see it in my mind.
The blood soaked floors,
hear the broken whimpers...
I see his hand reaching out for me
from the darkness and I run faster...


Curled on my side,
I cry out to the past.
I try to forget,
but it's hard to be the last.
Tiffany Aug 2017
i think it's both funny and sad
you assumed i'd come running back
the way you manipulate the truth
expecting my will to bend to yours
like a tree bowing to the winds of a mighty hurricane
i learned what it's like to find a love
that flows steady and strong like the river
and now i can look back
at the girl who used to be
and know the woman today
is too strong to fall back
into arms so much like the rose
- beautiful and tempting to the eyes,
but concealing rows of thorns
that stab into the mind body and soul
Tiffany Aug 2017
what lucky star did
i wish upon to deserve
a lover like you
Tiffany Dec 2014
I wish I could heal
The scars no one else can see
With my poetry
Tiffany May 2014
Are you up to the challenge of being my savior?
Can you muster up what it takes to bring me home?
Is my faith in you well spent ?
Or am I destined to wander, lost and alone

I don’t need your excuses
Nor do I crave your well meant intent
What I require is certainty
I may one day escape this torment

I need a hero to save me
Because this time I can’t save myself
I need that knight in shining armour
Because how can you survive when the enemy is yourself?
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