I am not the one who started the game.
Please for god's sake
Don't blame me when you the one fall for me. You should not mad at people when they teased you with me.
Just ******* with your attitude

"This is not normal."
That's what I said when I felt the sudden jolt in my heart.
You're making my heart beat abnormally.

"This is not normal."
What my mind speaks whenever I'm smiling for no reason.
I know. I look stupid that time.

"This is not normal."
I muttered when I caught myself staring at you.
My eyes saw what perfection means.

"This is not normal."
When I wanted to have you even in my dreams.
I wanted to be with you all the time.
I couldn't last a day without your presence.

"This is not normal."
When all this time I'm hiding something from you.
I'm afraid. I'm scared that you're going to leave me after that.
I don't want to lose you.

"This is not normal."
You're the only person I'm not afraid to tell everything.
Not afraid to tell everything except for one.

"This is not normal."
This is no longer me.
I'm so in love that it changed everything.

"This is not normal."*
I had to stop.
Because I know what we have now.
Is all temporary.

i should really
quit smoking you,
i’m ignorant
no more,
ashtray’s
fill faster
than my lungs,
quietly whispering
tip toes provoke
the screams of
hardwood
every night
at around 1 o’clock,
making way
to attempt quiet
openings of
neglecting doors,
sitting amidst the
tranquility as
the ******
fissure eats
the dancing smoke
while she
paints abstracts
on teeth
tongue
lungs
heart
and the
cognitive inability
to separate
index from middle
comes not from
ignorance
but from how
she holds me
tighter than anyone,
touches my lips
more compliantly  
than any woman,
she will never leave me
even as i take her
top off and
share breaths,
her touch is
recognizable
most nocturnally,
i know the damage
she does to me
she’ll cut my life in half,
she’s the only thing
i will let in that will
**** me,
she moulds
leisure and pleasure
as if i wear them on
my back,
her body is
pale as my fingers
drip down
and feel
as i exhume
her insides
intertwining
with mine,
listening to your
cries as i inhale
provokes me to
do so more
and more
and more
until i leave you
for the night,

i should
indeed quit
smoking cigarettes
as well