Whats wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this...
Dropping to my knees....
and tears dropping down into an abyss...

Why can´t I just be normal?
and ¨buckle down¨ like other people.
I dont want to feel awful..
and I am just a *******.

I can´t get anything done
and I dont understand why.
This weight on me feels like a ton
and theres nobody nearby.

I hate myself because...
I dont understand myself...
why I do what i do..
why i feel the way i feel..
why i think my thoughts...
... the sharp edges control itself...

now days whiskey has seemed to be my holy water.
leaving my lips slurred across your body.
my fingers trailing every self inflicted etch in your pillow skin.
my need for you coursing through my veins and digging into my bones.
my body longs for you, needs you.
i want to breath against your skin, feeling the goosebumps arise on your back.
i need you.