i wish there was a way to escape this pain i'm feeling.

i try to scream but the other side takes over and puts the mask on me

not allowing me to express myself.

i wish i could truly be happy with myself and not always think

"i'm a failure"

when others say i'm not.

I feel the tears forming inside the prison in my head but they never

fall.

I wish i would stop hiding my feelings towards other because i think

it'll just bring them into my misery.

I wish one day there is an exit to this pain i'm feeling.

Loved the times you stayed with me when I was  at rock bottom
Over the phone your words gave me composure
Venting to you always felt so effortless
Every time your hands are on my skin I got chills
Let me stay by your side for just a little bit longer because
You're so ******* perfect

Did we really love?
Or was it just a long war?
At the tangled memories, I smile and I cry
More than any of the good memories with anyone else
I miss the times I spent with you
I want you so I’m stewing in sickness

If love is measured
by how much one was in pain
Then you were a love that I won’t ever have again
Even if it’s in this way, even if it became a scar
Thank you for settling inside of me